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A Letter To The Little Girls

 

When the soul lies down in that grass, the world is too full to talk about… there is a field. I’ll meet you there —Rumi

Photo by Mary Petiet

 

~How can I possibly begin this letter?

I have so much to say, so many words inside, which are crammed, arguing, scratching one another, and dying to be released.

I guess I’ll begin with “I’m happy you were born.” humanity needs you now more than ever & I truly believe you are here at the perfect time.

You may hear the world is going to HELL in a hand basket, but I don’t believe it. I believe together, all of us girls, well, we can alter the direction of our country, our communities, our lives.

Society will tell you you’re not good enough, smart enough, thin enough, pretty enough

They will say will need to stay young, get shots of Botox, buy expensive face creams, go on Weight Watchers, eat Kale, play stupid, and fit into a size 2.

They will say you will never be satisfied until you look a certain way, have Kim Kardashian’s ass and Beyonce’s bank account.

It’s all bullshit.

What they should be telling you is to utilize your brain, your thoughts, your brilliance, your ideas.

What they should be telling you is to discover your passion and purpose. Make a difference precisely where you are.

Where there is life—There is hope.

You must believe this or you will live in darkness. That’s the whole truth and nothing but the truth.

And by the way, you must know this—Some men will try to own you, but you are un-ownable and cannot be confined or caged, even by your parents.

Some of these men will demean, belittle, and minimize your worth. They will try to convince you it’s a man’s world, that they are in control. These men will rape you with their entitlement and religion and power.

It’s all bullshit.

You are the one in Control.

You are the one who will decide your destiny.

You are the one who can tilt the axis of the earth.

Here is the secret nobody is telling you.

You don’t need the things society is trying you sell you.

You have the Power to rise exactly where you are, as you are.

Okay. That’s that. For now.

I will meet you there!

 

— Love, Kim

 

In Memory of Kay

KimKay-That’s How It Always Was

 

~~~~~~In the beginning, there was you.

You loving me. You interwoven inside my being like my own blood pumping thru my body

You never judging my bad judgment. You hurrying to my house on 65st and Cody when I lost my job, my uterus, my mind. You sending flowers for weird occasions like when I got my wisdom teeth out!

Always, “YOU.”

KimKay. That’s how it was. Remember?

Nobody ever appreciated me like you, believed in me like you.

Loved me like you.

I haven’t seen your face for 3297 days, Kay.

Losing you has been the blackest, darkest, ugliest, saddest time of my life.

But it’s also been a time of reflection & vibrant light; a time of purpose and meaning; a time of knowing the presence of God.

OH, and I REALLY miss telling you my secrets. Who can I spill my guts to now? Who can I be honest with? Who will still accept me?

For example, I went quite insane after your execution. I tried to become an alcoholic, but I hated not remembering. I tried to become suicidal, but the love on life was more powerful than the love of death.

I tried reading your journals, but every page, every sentence burned into my skin like acid.

I wrote words to fill the void. I wrote syllables to ease the sting.

I kept writing and writing until even my organs emptied out…

My liver falling to the yellowed tiled floor.

There will never be enough words to make me whole again.

IloveyouImissyouIloveyou.

Sometimes when I’m lying in bed, my heart thrusts so damn loudly that it startles me.

I know it’s a reminder, just in case I’ve forgotten, that I’m Alive.

And here’s another secret you may not know, Kay– I’m living without you, but you’re still here, your soft pink cheek pressed against my cheek; your voice whispering inside my ears.

You see, that’s the thing about death; you’re never really gone. The love remains inside, outside, and in-between the betweenness.

I find that astonishingly, amazingly beautiful. Don’t you?

~~~~Are you being abused verbally, physically, sexually, emotionally?

Help is available.

You. Are. Loved.

KIMKayForever

National Hotline: 1 800 799 7233
Safe Haven in Duluth: 1 218 623 1000
CASDA in Wisconsin: 1 800 649  2921

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13 Reasons I’m Looking Forward To 2018

 

 

~I want to inhale the rest of my life deeply & completely before it’s all gone. —Kim Sisto Robinson

 

 

  1. Game of Thrones

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C o n f e s s i o n:    I’m a little in lust with Jon Snow… and castles…. and wicked kings.

 

 

  1. A deeper relationship with God

 

I don’t know why, but typically, He’s the last person I go to when I’m going insane. When we meet one day, He shall say, “Why didn’t you come to Me first, Kim, you could’ve made it so much easier on yourself.”

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In Memory of Kay Kim's Blogs

Why Domestic Violence Victims Don’t Leave

~At 22, Leslie Morgan Steiner seemed to have it all: good looks, a Harvard diploma, a glamorous job in New York City. Plus a handsome, funny boyfriend who adored her. But behind her façade of success, this golden girl hid a dark secret. She’d made a mistake shared by millions: she fell in love with the wrong person.—Leslie Morgan Steiner, Crazy Love

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