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~I am somebody with a purpose who desires to tell her story.—Kim Sisto Robinson

 

I. Am.  Somebody.

I am the daughter of a high school dropout, a stay at home mother, a chocolate chip cookie maker, a hugger, a mouth kisser, a Jesus lover, and she adored me before I inhaled my first breath.  At 16 years old,  I became her Master Class.  And she became my hero.

She confessed I was beautiful, flawless, and abundantly remarkable. She told the nurse on duty to watch over me because she was absolutely positive somebody would steal me from the hospital while I slept.   She still watches over me like a sweet, gentle sentinel.

 

I am the daughter of a man of Sicilian roots, which run so deeply and profoundly that I’m still amazed he doesn’t speak fluent Italian— Io non parlo bene Italian.  All of my girlfriends wanted to visit our house on 65th  & 8th Street- because he looked like Elvis Presley with his polished crow-black hair, brown skin,  and curled upper lip.  After church service, he’d create these colossal Sunday dinners with hot sausage, authentic tomato sauce, garlic bread, and Gnocchi drenched in bacon and mozzarella cheese.

I am a mourner of a murdered sister of domestic violence who will never be silenced, who will never be forgotten, who will never be completely gone. She is the only person in the universe who knew every inch of my mind and never once judged me for my insanity.  She believed in me when I didn’t, and she loved me when I was utterly unlovable.

We baked sugar cookies with gold sprinkles at Christmastime while listening to Brenda Lee sing Rock Around the Clock.  Every year I’d buy her a new fluffy cat ornament for her massive pine tree, and we’d sit around an oak kitchen table exposing our darkest secrets.  It’s sad to acknowledge,  but nobody will ever fill the void of her loss.

 

  I.  Am.  Somebody.

  I am the friend of women who are changing the world with their powerful words, tongues, and steadfast hearts.  Women who write with fire and stand up for what is right.  Women who travel to Washington D.C., Afghanistan, Paris, Russia, Africa, and speak to the United Nations about human rights.

One voice can change the world.

Joan Peterson.  Leslie Morgan Steiner.  Linda Riddle.  Jodi Aman.   Mercy Adbiambo.

I am the friend of women who are making this transformation exactly where they are by standing up, speaking out, and declaring,— “No.  More.  Not one more day will I tolerate verbal abuse, bullying, punching, hitting, hating, demeaning, belittling, devaluing, or exploitation.

Not.  One.  More.  Solitary.  Day.

 

  I.   Am.    Somebody.

 I am a student of words and books and metaphor.  I visited my first library at seven years old and still remember walking up the towering cement steps as if it were the stairway to heaven.  The old building smelled of mold and soil and something wet; as if people had been reading their paperbacks in the bathtub, or perhaps it was their tears.

The librarian was a mean man in a stiff grey suit, and his right pinky finger was sharp and long and witch-like.  He was frightening, and I didn’t realize until much later that he probably utilized that yellow claw to snort cocaine.

The first book I devoured was called ‘The Pink Dress.’  I read it so many times the pages began to disintegrate, the ink began to smear. After that,  I was intoxicated by language and stories and escaping to Bali, Italy, the Pacific Crest Trail, India, London, and inside the minds of Hemingway, Ginsberg, Dickens, Plath, Woolf, and Nabokov.

Parts of my soul have melted and emptied inside every page I’ve ever read.

 

 I.    Am.  Somebody.

 I am a child of God.  It’s not as if somebody shoved a Bible down my throat or made me believe; I just did.  Simple. A child like faith.  A faith I could tangibly touch. God was real and approachable and He heard my cries, saw my face.

Lamb like.    Father like.

Not the lion some Christians made him out to be.  Never roaring or condemning,  only loving.  That was my God.

I remember reading Anne Lamott’s book, Traveling Mercies,  screaming—“Yes!  This is who I am.  This is the kind of Christian I am!”   When I told this story to my Pastor,  we both began jumping up and down like two teenage girls.

A few years ago, I asked my sister,  “What do you call God when you pray?  I mean,  do you call Him Emanuel, Jesus,  Lord, Prince of Peace, Dude,  what?  She smiled and said,  “I call Him Papa.”

I simply loved  loved   loved that response!

When I pray,  especially after my sister’s murder, I imagine I’m sitting on God’s lap while He softly strokes my hair, saying,  “Kim,  everything’s going to be okay.”   And I believe Him because when I think about who I am,  where I’ve been,  and the possibilities of what will happen next,  I hear my heart pulsating wildly outside my body like a thousand beating wings.

—-Darling, Reader,    Who.  Are.  You?

—-Please pray for Paris and our world.  God only knows,  we need it.  BADLY.  Thank you.   xxXX

Jodi Aman’s Site:  http://jodiaman.com/

About Joan Peterson HERE!  JOAN Peterson

Leslie Morgan Steiner TED TALK BELOW:

 


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105 Comments

  • Reply
    Elephant's Child
    November 17, 2015 at 5:53 pm

    Not only are you Somebody, you are a very Special, inspirational Somebody.
    Hugs. Always.

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    julie gardner
    November 17, 2015 at 7:12 pm

    This is just so lovely I don’t even know how to respond.
    Your posts always move me but this, about Kay, has me in tears:

    “She is the only person in the universe who knew every inch of my mind and never once judged me for my insanity. She believed in me when I didn’t, and she loved me when I was utterly unlovable.”

    This is my sister to me. Love like no other. Love that lasts past forever.
    Thank you for putting it into words.

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      My Inner Chick
      November 18, 2015 at 5:26 pm

      Julie,
      Go kiss your sister from me, darling. xx

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    nan @ lbddiaries
    November 17, 2015 at 8:09 pm

    Who am I? I don’t always know because I keep evolving but I know for sure that I am a strong woman who adores your blog posts. Always. Your words inspire me, move me, dazzle me, make me belly laugh sometimes, make me cry, create in me the desire to do better, to change, to enjoy life to its fullest, to grow. You Are Somebody I will forever be glad I e-met.

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      My Inner Chick
      November 18, 2015 at 5:28 pm

      Nan,
      you are such a sweetheart. I really love you. xx

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    My Inner Chick
    November 17, 2015 at 8:33 pm

    (((CHECK)))

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    ladyfi
    November 17, 2015 at 9:31 pm

    You are somebody amazing!

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    lisa thomson-the great escape
    November 18, 2015 at 10:00 am

    This is amazing Kim! You are the amazing Kim!!! I love how you describe every detail of your passions. Books, Kay, your parents, family, Italian food…I feel like I’m with you. Yes!

    Who. Am. I? I’m so many books, people, music, loves, passions, anger, hurt, but I will rise to and above it.

    That Leslie Steiner talk is so powerful!

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    Angie@Angie's Recipes
    November 18, 2015 at 11:42 am

    This is so beautifully written. You are my inspiration and you are SOMEBODY, Kim.

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 5:49 am

      Angie,
      thank you for visiting me, sweetheart xx

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    Sandra
    November 18, 2015 at 1:15 pm

    You. Are. Somebody and we will never let you forget it. Love ya girl!

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    Pat
    November 18, 2015 at 1:16 pm

    I love what you are doing for victims of domestic violence. You are giving voice to what so many have inside them but might not know how to express it. You can add your name to the list of women who are changing the world.

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    ELIZABETH
    November 18, 2015 at 1:32 pm

    You are a wonder and you a Somebody I love! Your words will change the world. <3 <3

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    ELIZABETH
    November 18, 2015 at 1:34 pm

    You are changing the world – one word at a time. <3

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 1:53 pm

      Me. You. And so many other KICK ASS women will transform the universe, my dear!! xxx

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    ELIZABETH
    November 18, 2015 at 1:35 pm

    You are changing the world one word at a time. <3

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    Joan Peterson
    November 18, 2015 at 1:35 pm

    Thanks Kim for putting in this blog and in the category of women who are changing the world. I’m right there with you. Hugs. This is, as always, beautiful. We will carry on in the name of our sisters!

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 1:54 pm

      Joan,
      we shall tell our sisters’ stories FOREVER!! xxx

  • Reply
    Barbara Hammond
    November 18, 2015 at 2:43 pm

    You. Are. Amazing.

    I LOVE this post, and YOU.
    xoxob

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    Jodi Aman
    November 18, 2015 at 3:41 pm

    I love Leslie’s Ted talk. Phenominal. I’m so honored to be included here. Humbled by the other woman. We women must unite until there is peace and love in everyone’s hearts.

    Love you!
    xoxoxox

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 1:55 pm

      Jodi,
      you inspire so many.
      thank you. Luv U. xx

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    Deborah Batterman
    November 18, 2015 at 3:45 pm

    Your words. Are. Powerful. Wonderful.

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 1:55 pm

      Dear, Deborah,
      it is because of women like you who spur me forward))! xxx

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    Charlene Ross
    November 18, 2015 at 3:55 pm

    Oh Kim, how your words always, always, always move me.

    THIS: And I believe Him because when I think about who I am, where I’ve been, and the possibilities of what will happen next, I hear my heart pulsating wildly outside my body like a thousand beating wings. WOW!

    You. Are. Somebody.
    Somebody Amazing.

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 8:24 pm

      And you are SOMEBODY so SPECIAL, Charlene. xxx

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    Trish
    November 18, 2015 at 4:17 pm

    Thinking of you, Kim.

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 8:25 pm

      thank you, Trish. I like being thought of! xx

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    Anna @ shenANNAgans
    November 18, 2015 at 4:44 pm

    You are a beautiful, powerful, fabulous & amazing somebody! I love that you are ‘in my life’. Your words inspire me to be great!

    What I’d do to be able to throw my arms around you for a BIG squishy hug.

    THANK YOU!

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 8:25 pm

      Anna,
      I’m glad you are in my life, too! I so much ADORE technology, don’t you? xx

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    Chris Carter
    November 18, 2015 at 5:16 pm

    “Papa”… oh “Papa”…

    Sigh. Just so beautiful. I can picture her praying “Papa”… I just can, for some reason.

    You are a masterpiece of miracles, you know that? Papa’s creation. So am I. We are all just that, in His Eyes.

    He continues to mold you and I into magnificent works of art. His Hands do wondrous things with the heat, don’t they?

    Papa. Oh, how I just love that.

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 8:26 pm

      Yessss!
      She said “I call him PAPA.”
      SUCH a deep, personal, REAL relationship.
      xxx kiss. love. hugs for you, sweet Chris.

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    Michelle
    November 18, 2015 at 5:49 pm

    You make me want to shout your message from the mountain tops.
    Oh, Kim. Your words were just what I needed tonight.
    I want everyone to read them.
    Thank you for the bottom of my heart.
    Who am I? A woman very grateful for the writerly angels who bless me. xo

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 8:27 pm

      You bless me, as well, Michelle! Thank you! xx

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    Vidya Sury
    November 18, 2015 at 9:33 pm

    You are one of the most precious people ever, Kim ❤️ with the gift of beautiful words.
    Me, I am just someone who loves and cares for her fellow human beings and will give for as long as she lives, with compassion.

    Hugs!

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 8:28 pm

      Vidya,

      Love you more than 8 silky black panthers lounging near Lake Victoria in Kisumu. xxx

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    Balroop Singh
    November 18, 2015 at 9:48 pm

    You are awesome Kim. Thanks for sharing such lovely details about yourself. Love! Love! Love…just the same as you say!

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    Jann
    November 19, 2015 at 1:01 am

    Kim, I devoured this–read it again and again, something like the way you devoured The Pink Dress. BRAVA!! Hugs galore. xxxxx

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 8:29 pm

      HUGS
      Lots of them flowing to Sicily and around your neck, Jann! xxx

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    Bella
    November 19, 2015 at 3:42 am

    Kim, your posts always move me. Always. Reading this one I am reminded of the many times I have spoken to women who feel invisible. Heck, God knows how many times I have felt the same way. This post remind me of our importance as human beings, as children of God. I have missed being away from the blogosphere. Family and personal illness have overwhelmed me and prevented me from being my usual bubbly self. I am slowly getting back to where I used to be and I love your reminder that we count. We matter. Thank you for that! Hugs to you from Roxy and me! 🙂

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 8:31 pm

      Bella,
      I’ve really missed you. I wanted to reach out, but I wasn’t sure how. Much love to you and ROX. xxxxxxx

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    Valentine Logar
    November 19, 2015 at 5:02 am

    Why did this leave me in a puddle? I love you. You lift me up, always. I love that you inspire all of us. Remind all of us we are all somebody.

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 8:31 pm

      Dear, Val,
      your heart is the size of TEXAS~ Luv u. xxxxx

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    Mandy
    November 19, 2015 at 5:30 am

    You are AWESOME! You are SOMEBODY! You are INCREDIBLE! You are LOVED! You are a WRITER! Love, love, love to you my friend on the other side of the ocean.
    🙂 Mandy xoxoxo

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 8:32 pm

      Mandy,
      You. Are. Somebody.
      whom captured my heart. xx

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    Julie Jo Severson
    November 19, 2015 at 7:56 am

    Stunning. I discovered this post via the wonderful Christine Carter at The Mom Cafe. You have a powerful voice, and this post really touched me when she posted it on Facebook. The descriptions of your father and your beautiful late sister are beautiful tributes and touched me deeply.

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 8:33 pm

      AHH,
      the wonderful Christine Carter. My prayer warrior! Thank you for reading, Julie! xx

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    Totally Caroline
    November 19, 2015 at 11:41 am

    This was beautiful Kim, my favorite thing you’ve written. Who am I? Well once upon a time I was somebody’s princess. Now I am my own queen.
    Love and Hugs, C ❤️

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 8:33 pm

      Your OWN queen)))!!! I love love love! xxxxx

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    Dad
    November 19, 2015 at 12:21 pm

    Who am I? The dad of a family who I love with all my heart. God blessed me with
    a wonderful wife,(3) children and (6) grandkids. I was also raised by great parents.
    One daughter (KAY) who is not with us but we will see again soon.
    Love You
    Dad

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      My Inner Chick
      November 19, 2015 at 8:34 pm

      Love you, daddy, so so so so so so so much. xxxxxxx

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    Jeri
    November 19, 2015 at 2:52 pm

    Beautiful words and format. I used to have my students write “I am” poems to great results such as this. So many lines just come forth with these types of structures. Your anecdote about the librarian struck a chord and reminded me of the mean old bat who ran a tight ship at my elementary school when I was young. Despite her evil presence, I still became a lover of books.

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      My Inner Chick
      November 20, 2015 at 1:45 pm

      Jeri,
      the media specialist was doing this at school and I love how
      deep one can go w/ this format! Such a joy to write & remember.

      xxx

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    Debbie
    November 19, 2015 at 7:00 pm

    Kim, I’m just speechless. This is so beautiful, no wonder we all love you!! xoxo

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      My Inner Chick
      November 20, 2015 at 9:34 pm

      Debbie,
      and I love all of you, as well!! xx

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    Liz
    November 19, 2015 at 7:50 pm

    I love the image of you sitting on God’s lap while he strokes your hair. As always, your message is strong and clear. You are somebody. I am somebody. xo

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    Hotly Spiced
    November 19, 2015 at 8:02 pm

    You’re a very special someone. I love how as Christians, we can call our God, ‘Father’ or ‘Papa’. We have a very loving God and I’m glad He’s been there for you in your darkest moments. Your parents sound like amazing people xx

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      My Inner Chick
      November 21, 2015 at 10:23 am

      Charlie,
      without God, I would have perished long ago )) xxx

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    Jennie Goutet
    November 20, 2015 at 6:46 am

    And you are exquisitely beautiful – inside and out.

    I also pray to Papa.

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      My Inner Chick
      November 21, 2015 at 6:28 pm

      OOO<
      you pray to Papa, too?:
      I've never heard that name until my sister told me this!!! xx

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    Kristi Campbell
    November 20, 2015 at 1:13 pm

    You. Are. Somebody. AMAZING. I love the image of you sitting on God’s (Papa 🙂 lap with Him telling you everything is going to be okay. <3 So much love to you, friend.

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      My Inner Chick
      November 22, 2015 at 7:45 am

      ..and so much love back to you, Kristy. xxx

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    Minnesota Prairie Roots
    November 20, 2015 at 2:29 pm

    Every time I read your posts, I am moved to tears by the depth of your writing, by the sorrow, the pain, the joy, the everything. You are a blessing, dear Kim. A blessing.

    You empower and give hope.

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    Kim Gagnon
    November 22, 2015 at 8:33 pm

    Kimmy
    You are my inspiration!! Love you forever and always !! Wine soon. Xoxo k

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    Lorraine @ Not Quite Nigella
    November 23, 2015 at 2:22 am

    You write like a virtuoso Kim. And with parents like that, no wonder you are such a sparkling jewel!! xxx

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    Lorraine @ Not Quite Nigella
    November 23, 2015 at 2:22 am

    P.S. You asked me what I was binge watching? I love The Mindy Project! I’m also getting into Master of None 🙂

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      My Inner Chick
      November 23, 2015 at 2:47 pm

      Hi, L.
      I’ve not watched either series you’ve talked about, but I shall check them out!

      Thanks xx

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    countingducks
    November 23, 2015 at 5:41 am

    You are somebody special and lovely to boot. I still treasure that I had the chance to actually meet you. What a lovely treat that was

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    solidgoldcreativity
    November 23, 2015 at 1:36 pm

    You are extraordinary, Kim. And now I’m in love with your whole family too. xx

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      My Inner Chick
      November 23, 2015 at 9:44 pm

      OOoo,
      I am positive they would love you, too, Narelle!! xxx

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    Gary
    November 23, 2015 at 7:44 pm

    Hey Kim,

    Yes, within the great diversity of an all different, all equal world we embrace, you are somebody of remarkable, compassionate attributes.

    Hugs,

    Gary x

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    TheKitchenLioness
    November 24, 2015 at 1:35 am

    Dear Kim, I am loving every single word of your post – you are such a powerful writer, touching all of us with your emotions…I am loving your passion that runs through every single sentence you wrote. And I am loving how your posts always stay with me for a long time, how your words carry me through the day…
    You are amazing, dear friend!
    Andrea

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      My Inner Chick
      November 25, 2015 at 5:50 am

      Andrea,
      you words are like little, warm hugs. Thank you xxxxxxx

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    Amy Tong
    November 24, 2015 at 9:37 pm

    Great message, Kim. And so grateful that you shared the video. 🙂 Wish you and your family a wonderful and blessed Thanksgiving.

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    Marie
    November 26, 2015 at 7:57 am

    You are a beautiful, wonderful, awesome Lady Kim!
    Thank you for sharing some of these lovely things about your life. You rock and you shine!
    Xoxo

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      My Inner Chick
      November 27, 2015 at 3:21 pm

      Marie,
      and you are beautiful, my darling. xxx

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    Molly Stevens
    November 28, 2015 at 5:25 pm

    Such incredible pain, and incredible strength. We need to talk! You have struck a chord in me that is the source of so much anger. Yet God (Papa) does heal all with love. I’ve lost a sister too. Not from domestic violence, but that doesn’t mean it wasn’t present in her life and mine. May your Sicilian passion change the world, one blog post at a time. 🙂

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      My Inner Chick
      November 30, 2015 at 4:27 pm

      Molly,
      PAIN is PAIN &
      Mine shall last forever.
      Lets talk sometime! x

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    hilary
    November 30, 2015 at 4:50 am

    You are also an important part of my life….

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    My Inner Chick
    November 30, 2015 at 4:26 pm

    TEST))

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    Dana
    December 1, 2015 at 11:19 am

    You are somebody who has enriched my life by knowing you, even though we have never met.

    And this line: “Parts of my soul have melted and emptied inside every page I’ve ever read.” Perfect – I feel the same way.

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      My Inner Chick
      December 3, 2015 at 3:43 pm

      Dana,
      and you have enriched my life, as well. xx

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    sherill
    December 3, 2015 at 5:59 am

    You are so beautiful inside and out. Thanks for sharing a great post, it simply is very sincere, coming from the heart. Great Read.

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    susan casey
    December 3, 2015 at 2:10 pm

    OMG! How did I miss this beautiful post!! I hadn’t seen a post from you so I jumped on your site. I love this post, Kim…you are such a remarkable, beautiful, inspirational woman. Thank you for sharing your heart, your writing, your words with the world. I just feel so blessed that God led you into my life. Sending you lots of love!! xoxox

    And this I loved, too: “I call Him Papa.”

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      My Inner Chick
      December 3, 2015 at 3:44 pm

      Susan,
      you have a bit of my heart, my sweet girl. xxxxx

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    Monica
    December 6, 2015 at 10:16 pm

    Brilliant. Well done. I am somebody, too. Daughter, mother, divorcee who loves life and found my voice when I was told by me mentally abusive husband that I was worthless and would never amount to anything. I am somebody, strong and assertive and proud of what I am today. Thank you, Kim, for this great, empowering post! Hugs!

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      My Inner Chick
      December 7, 2015 at 5:46 am

      You. Are. Indeed. Somebody.
      Monica!! YES! xxx

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    Marcia @ Menopausal Mother
    December 10, 2015 at 10:21 pm

    Beautiful post, and I loved getting to know more about you! XO

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    Gary Sidley
    December 11, 2015 at 9:34 am

    You are somebody to me.

    The world would be a lesser place without you.

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    sherill
    January 5, 2016 at 7:59 pm

    Beautifully written. YOU are a very inspiring blessing from God.

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