Grief is like sinking, like being buried.—Lauren Oliver,
Pandemonium
~It’s been 859 days since he murdered you.
It’s been a Lifetime.
It’s been a Helltime.  It’s been
Darkness & Fog.
It’s been sharp
fingernails and fangs scratching inside my heart.
But I’ve finally gone an entire week without crying, without
going insane, without thinking about your face day in and day out.
I called mom and exclaimed,  “I haven’t cried all week!â€
And I heard her smile her Mama smile thru the other end of
the telephone.
I go to see you often to ponder, reflect, pray, listen to
your chimes sing your songs.
I seem to always be alone even when I’m not alone.
I listen to Lady Anabellum & Mercy Me. I discovered a
new artist, whom is probably an old artist who you would LOVE Love love named Lincoln Brewster.  I play THIS SONG over and over while I sit
next to your marble stone.
Do you miss me?
Because I feel you leaving me, the very scent you, your
breath of sunlight.
Your  pink lips are fading
into sapphire sky.
And I haven’t heard you calling my name in the middle of the
night.
Kim::::::::Kim::::::Kim
I’ve already forgotten your voice.
I think, I truly think when I hear it again;Â that sweet soft sound of wings.
I shall fall.
Fall endlessly–
Into where you are….
And never return.
–My Sister, Kay, was Murdered by Mike Peterson 859 Days ago.  The mourning never Ends.  The Love NEVER ends….
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Beautiful. Your pain and your love are palpable.
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Love you!
((Kim)) a big hug full of love from me to you!
Jodi
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Sending you hugs, my friend….love the song.
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Sending love.
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Oh my heart hurts for you, especially where you’re forgetting her voice. But not her heart, yes? She’s in you, her heart. xo
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Your pain but love is tangible my friend – beautiful and haunting
Hugs
Uru
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I’m wiping away tears.
Pink lips fading into a sapphire sky: You are holding onto Kay with words, and letting her fly free.
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Kim, I forgot: a little birdie told me it’s your birthday this week. Happy birthday, sweet virtual friend!
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It will be a sweet reunion. Love you.
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oh my gosh…my deepest condolences! wat a poignant way to remember your sister…and i’m so very sorry. XOXO
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Another great post from you! I can’t imagine that pain and I hope I don’t have to. You will see her again. Just be patient and enjoy your time here with us until then…
Hugs to you!!
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So much love. So much pain. I feel them both.
Hurting for you, hurting with you.
She is a part of you, now and always.
My arms go around you and hug you, it isn’t enough ever I know. But I am here and I will mourn with you. My voice won’t replace hers, but it will be a different voice to remind you, you are loved.
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Your words always touch my heart. So beautiful yet so sad……always holding a good thought for you.
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Beautiful, Kim. I love the “mama smile” through the phone; I know that smile. xoxo
Hugs, love and tons of birthday wishes. Your heart and your soul knows the sound of her voice.
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What’s the saying? Time heals all wounds? I’m not sure that’s true but I think with time there’s clarity. As certain memories fade perhaps purpose will come clearer. Kay’s in no hurry for you to join her where she is now. She’s with you always and guiding you to new purpose.
What do you think?
b
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Such a pretty picture my friend…
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I think of you and Kay so often in my prayers, Kim. All my words sound so empty in the face of your deep, deep sorrow. ♥♥♥
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The love, the pain,
the fog, the longing, the counting…
I understand
xxxooo jen
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I am so happy you have reached this point. The grief will never, ever go away, but most do learn to live with it. Not crying for an entire week mean you are learning to live with it. It will forever be a part of you but the intensity softens. Giant hugs for you!!!
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I wish that I knew what to say.
Just know that I love you and think about you a lot…xoxo
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Beautiful writing, Kim.
Are you contributing to Beverly’s invitation for bloggers to post on domestic violence? You’d be a strong and courageous voice for Kay, as you usually are.
You’re getting stronger and better every day and will always miss your sister. The arms of comfort will continue to be with you.
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Kim, You are keeping the memory of Kay alive just like she is keeping several others alive by her
organs that she donated.
Love You So Much
Dad
You’re not really forgetting your lovely sister. This is just Time’s way of numbing the pain. I think that means you’re getting stronger! Sure, you’re always going to miss Kay and wish she were still here, but perhaps it’s a tiny bit comforting that she isn’t missing you?? I mean, if we believe that those in Heaven NEVER EVER suffer, doesn’t that mean she’s enveloped in perfect Love? And one day, when you two are reunited, what a happy celebration that will be!
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Dear Kim,
I’m holding you in my heart.
love, love, love.
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Love you!!!!! Beautiful song and pics
You’re so beautiful, Kim.
Thinking of you, as always —
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So beautiful. That’s all I can say.
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Love, love, love to you darling Kim.
Mandy xo
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A week without crying is a milestone. Part bitter, part glad perhaps. All my love from Melbourne, Australia xx
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I think she’s smiling that you hit that milestone. I really do.

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It’s not that you will ever forget her, but that Kay’s memory will become more and more like a whisper and a caress, and less like a knife in the heart. Love her, love you.
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Loves and hugs, that’s all I have.
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Absolutely beautiful Kim. Many thoughts and big hugs to you xxx
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So painful yet so full of love and beauty.
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I never read your posts without being moved by the quality of your feelings and the loyalty of your emotions. That she inspired such expression is an eternal tribute to her and her time with you
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You are setting her free Kim, and you know it’s okay, because she will always be with you.
xo.
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No words, only love. You will not forget her voice. Remember the lines, “i can you in my heart….”
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I’m so sorry.
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Beautiful and heartbreaking. Thoughts, love and warm hugs to you – xo.
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You know I mourn with you, Kim, each time you express your feelings about Kay. The love we have for those we lose keeps us going, because they live in our hearts, our actions and our memories. Somehow this helps us survive sanely, most of the time. Kay lives on through the people she gave life to. God bless you! I wash you peace, my dearest Kim!
Thinking of you and love you very much!
Vidya
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Sending more love and light your way.
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oh Kim, I can feel you torn between hope, the gently fading pain, the life that goes on regardless, and your grief, your sadness at letting little bits of Kay go…
All I can do is send you much love from across the ocean. Wish I could hold you and say Things will never be the same, but they will be ok.
xoxo
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Your words are always so beautiful and painful Kim………….hang on there, Kay is with you wherever you go, whatever you do, whenever you feel sad.
LOVE. xx
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