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When You Call My Name-It’s Like A Little Prayer


**“**Help” is a
prayer that is always answered. It doesn’t matter how you pray–with your head
bowed in silence, or crying out in grief, or dancing. Churches are good for
prayer, but so are garages and cars and mountains and showers and dance floors.*****Annie Lamott, Thoughts on Faith

 

~It’s been 828 days
since your execution.

 

A moment in time.

 

An eternity.

 

It’s been HELL on
earth if you want the whole damn truth.

 

I don’t remember the
first 730 days.

 

Not thru the fog, the
wine, the weeping.

 

I’ve never lied to you.  I shant begin now.

 

My heart is shattered.

 

My soul is crushed.

 

Still.

 

I walk the earth in
segments.

 

Half a segment here.

 

The mind over
there.

 

A disconnected
life.

 

My organs weep for
you,  lament for you, miss you.

 

But I suppose you
already know that, don’t you?  You know
how I utterly despise any sort of change.

 

Especially my new
reality with you gone gone gone gone fucking gone.

 

GONE.  What a heartbreaking, dark, sad, pathetic, pitiful
word.

 

Anyhow,  I’ve been thinking about  how we used to pray
together.

 

Grasping one
another’s  hand, closing our eyes as if
taking communion.

 

“Thank You.
Thank You. Thank you.”

 

I remember staring
at your fingers exclaiming,   “They’re Gigantic!”

 

And you’d get quite
irritated- as sister’s do…. “They’re big boned.
NOT Gigantic! Now shut your mouth and pray.”

 

“Lord,  God,
Thank you for Kay.  I love love
love her. I couldn’t live without her. I pray you have great plans for her
future.  I pray Mike will leave her
alone. I pray he will just leave. Just leave. Just leave.  I pray all of her dreams will come true.  Thank you. Thank you.  AaaaMEN.”

 

“Dear,  Jesus,
thank you for Kim.  I pray she
will write a book and dedicate it to her gorgeous sister.”

 

“Be seeeerious.”  I giggle & snort.

 

“Okay. I pray You
will use her writing for Your glory.   I
pray you will soften Mike’s heart so he can be happy. I mean, really really
happy without me.   Thank you. AaaaMEN.”

 

That’s how it used
to be.  Our praying, I mean.   We didn’t ask for much.  Did we?

 

Not much…except for
happiness, joy, contentment.

 

That’s why I continually
contemplate why I’m here without you, stuck on this earth without you.

 

After your
execution, I wandered aimlessly holding my hand to my heart.

 

I asked  Dave over and over and over again…

“How can my heart hurt so much and still
beat?”

 

It still
beats.  I find that absolutely fantastically astonishing.

 

When I pray
now,  I simply say to God, shout to
God,  cry to God….

 

“Help me.   Help me.
Help me.”

 

And sometimes from
a distance, thru the tears, the wind, the black fangs,   the loneliness—

 

I hear Him calling my name—”Kim.  Kim.  Kim”—like a little
prayer…

 

And I know, sometimes I know….
everything is going to be okay.

 

 

——My Dear
Reader,  How Do You Pray?  I play THIS!

My Soul Mate was executed by Mike Peterson on May 26, 2010.  My Heart will never be put back together again….

 

~~~~Get Help  NOW for Verbal Abuse, Emotional Abuse, Sexual Abuse,  Physical Abuse, Finacial Abuse- or any other kinds of abuse…..800-799-SAFE (7233) or at TTY 1-800-787-3224.

http://www.thehotline.org/get-help/help-in-your-area/ Do  Not  Wait   One.  More.  Solitary. Day.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 


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111 Comments

  • Reply
    Dangerous Linda
    September 2, 2012 at 7:01 am

    my favorite madonna song. one of my favorite songs, period. profound spiritual truth.

    did kay really say that to you when she was alive? about writing a book? the lord works in mysterious ways. i believe we came here to do certain things and some of them are not easy. which highlights the profundity of Life.

    love & kisses, kim! XOXOX
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:32 pm

      Linda,
      yes, Kay ALWAYS said that. She was (Is) my greatest fan 🙂 xx

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    Adriana
    September 2, 2012 at 7:04 am

    you move me with your words. my little brother was supposed to turn 34 tomorrow. Having a hard time wrapping it in my head.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:33 pm

      Dear Adriana,
      I am thinking about you today.

      It’s just NOT right that your little brother is not here.

      Love. love.Xxxx

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    Tia
    September 2, 2012 at 7:17 am

    I Love You!!!!!

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:34 pm

      Love you Back. Xx

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    Alison
    September 2, 2012 at 7:20 am

    I hope you find some peace in your prayers. xo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:34 pm

      Thank You, Mama A. Xx

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    Sandra
    September 2, 2012 at 8:25 am

    I’m praying for you Kim.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:35 pm

      Sandra,
      I would NEVER turn down a prayer Xxx thank you.

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    Emily Woodhouse
    September 2, 2012 at 8:39 am

    May the lord listen to your prayers.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:35 pm

      He is….

      Xx

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    nan @ lbddiaries
    September 2, 2012 at 10:23 am

    You are in my prayers for peace – the peace that can only come from God, not the horrid circumstances. Peace that flows from the top of your head, down to the soles of your feet like warm honey. Peace that quietly says, “Kim, I am so fine and happy because I’m with Jesus.” Peace that says, “Someday you will see her again.” Peace!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:36 pm

      Nan,

      I love love love.

      Like warm honey. Ohhh, I hope I hope.. Xxx

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    Heal Now and Forever
    September 2, 2012 at 10:23 am

    I am amazed you keep the loving alive with all your heart. Love you!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:36 pm

      Jodi,
      Love you for loving me & ALL your support…. Xx

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    Amy@SoulDipper
    September 2, 2012 at 10:25 am

    Beautiful Kim, it seems that God gave you love enough for ten sisters. Either that you are just LOVE¹º !!

    Do you remember Annie Lamott telling about a woman who couldn’t think of words to use in prayer? So in the morning she said, “Hi God. Whatever.”

    Then at night, she’d say, “Hi God. Oh Well…”

    Thank goodness your husband was able to bear your broken heart. Lesser men have let go… XO.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:38 pm

      *Hi God. Whatever.”

      That sounds so very Lamott. I loooove.

      Xxx Kisses for you.

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    Barbara
    September 2, 2012 at 10:30 am

    My prayers are more conversational than traditional (whatever that means). But I pray for peace a lot. Peace of mind
    Peace between enemies
    Peace in my family
    Peace on earth…
    that sort of thing.

    One of the conversational prayers might go like this… Dear God, please smack my kids upside the head and make them realize they are the only brothers they have!

    Hang in Kim. Your answers will be revealed.
    b
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:39 pm

      Dear b,

      that is FUNNY. I love how you talk to God. He must smile when you pray 🙂

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    Vidya Sury
    September 2, 2012 at 11:39 am

    Love you always, Kim. “Gone” is a four-letter word. You are in my prayers. My best prayers are when I light my lamp in the morning. Sometimes I cry, sometimes I am silent. Sometimes I share a joke with God. But I never quit praying.

    Love you more than three hundred Buddhist Monks praying at the Monastery, serenely, silently.

    Vidya
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:40 pm

      Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, I love how you love, Sweet Vidya.

      What joke do you share w/ God? I’d love to know.

      Love you more than 5 Siamese Cats in the Minnesota Sun. Xxxx

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    Debbie
    September 2, 2012 at 12:21 pm

    I, too, find myself praying a LOT. There’s so much to pray about, and so many to pray for, these days. Dear Kim, I hope you’ll find some peace in your prayers. Just know that one day, you and your beloved sister will be reunited — and that will be a glorious day! Hugs to you, my friend.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:41 pm

      Debbie,
      Yes, I KNOW we will be together…

      it’s just the “Down here” that is difficult!

      So many people to pray for. We are ALL fighting our own battles.

      xxx love.

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    Choc Chip Uru
    September 2, 2012 at 1:01 pm

    Your prayers and words are beautiful my friend – I am here for you

    Hugs
    Uru
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:42 pm

      Thanks, Choc <3 Xx

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    Lady E
    September 2, 2012 at 1:36 pm

    Dear Kim, I can feel your invisible pain, and feel so close… Big hugs from very far away xx
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:42 pm

      Lady E.

      I think you may need a hug as bad as I do…

      I am hugging you back. Xxx

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    Jann Huizenga
    September 2, 2012 at 3:14 pm

    What an amazing & beautiful & sad poem, Kim. Sending oodles of love your way. xxxxxxxxxxxx
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:43 pm

      I feel your oodles, Jann.

      All the way from Italy 🙂 ))) xxxxx

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    Debbie
    September 2, 2012 at 3:52 pm

    Hi Kim, Your posts always touch my heart. When I pray I say the Lord’s Prayer and try to always be thankful for what I have and not to ever take anything or anyone for granted. Life is so precious. I know God is listening and I try to be patient and remember that He always knows what is best even if I don’t understand it at the moment. Just keep blogging Kim…….you are touching many people…….
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:45 pm

      Debbie,
      I’ve been saying the 23rd Psalm for 2 years strait.

      This has been my most beautiful prayer that I have memorized.

      Xxx

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    Elephant's Child
    September 2, 2012 at 4:38 pm

    Oh Kim. Such love. Such shared love. Which makes the pain you are going through sharper and deeper. How I love to hear that sometimes tiny slivers of hope are there too.
    Hurting for you, hurting with you. As always.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:46 pm

      Dear E,
      Yes. So much love…& that means So much more pain. But if Kay were here…i’d even love her MORE.

      Thank you for hurting w/ me. I loved the card! Thank you, dear. Xxxxxxx

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    Irene
    September 2, 2012 at 4:59 pm

    I am sitting next to you with my arm around you! Just to let you know I care.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:47 pm

      I feel your warm arm, Irene.

      Love. Thank you. Xxxx

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    Linda Medrano
    September 2, 2012 at 5:40 pm

    I pray that one day you find peace.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:47 pm

      –Full peace when I meet Kay again, Linda. Xxxx

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    Liz
    September 2, 2012 at 6:26 pm

    I pray in all sorts of ways. Sitting at the computer, reading as you express your grief so well, I say a prayer for you. xo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:48 pm

      I love that you pray in all sorts of ways, Liz.

      I have a feeling that God loves this, too. Xxx

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    Tina Barbour
    September 2, 2012 at 6:46 pm

    “I walk the earth in segments.” That is so heartbreaking and so honest.

    Your heart is full of love, Kim, and you reach out to others with your love. Selfishly, I can say that I needed that today! Thank you for sharing yourself. Thank you for sharing that beautiful song. Blessings to you.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:49 pm

      Dear Tina,
      Sending you love & my appreciation. xxx

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    Milkayphoto
    September 2, 2012 at 6:52 pm

    Your words are always so powerful… so raw, straight to the core, meaning ever-so-clear. Stories full of sadness, utter longing but also, with wonderful memories that warm the soul. I don’t even know you and yet, my heart breaks for your loss and what your sister went through. Although I have three sisters, I do not share (have never shared) this powerful relationship you had with your sister, Kay. My heart breaks for that as well.

    My life is shared with a wonderful man who loves me to pieces, builds me up, is my greatest fan, who’s only pursuit in life is to bring me happiness. He has no tolerance for violence against women, children or animals. I wish every woman could experience such a love. I wish Kay had experienced such a love.

    I wish you peace, Kim. Your words, this blog, all the information you provide will help many women who are in the position Kay was in. From this tragedy, you are saving women. That’s for damn sure. You are an angel. Hugs.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:52 pm

      Dear Milk,
      I love that your man LOVES and Respects you. I loooooove that.

      I wish Kay would have had that,as well. Ohhhh, I wish. I wish…

      When we used to walk together, she’d ALWAYS say, “I want a man who adores me, loves me, respects me…”

      She never did. I’m so so so so so sad about that.

      But what I am not sad about is that she is now FREE of her stalker. I thank God for that. Free at last…

      Thank you for you most beauiful words. Xxxx

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    May
    September 2, 2012 at 7:20 pm

    I am continuously touched by the depth of the closeness you shared with your sister. I can not fathom the loss. May God hear your prayers and may you feel the comfort of Him holding you in the palm of His hand.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:54 pm

      May,
      Thank you. The loss is GREAT… but knowing I will see her again spurs me onward…

      Xxx

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    Solid gold creativity
    September 2, 2012 at 7:42 pm

    Others have noted it and I want to add my voice to theirs. It is as you and Kay created it in prayer: God is using you and your words. One of the things you are teaching us is how to be with the unbearable. All my love and admiration xx
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:55 pm

      Solid,
      your word just filled me up. Thank You. Xxxxx

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    Hotly Spiced
    September 2, 2012 at 8:02 pm

    You write so well Kim. But remember Kay’s prayer – she wanted you to write a book and dedicate it to her. That’s a great prayer and I’ll pray it comes true! xx
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:56 pm

      Dear Hot,
      this shall be done. Xxx Thanks for your support, dear.

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    mamawolfe
    September 2, 2012 at 10:11 pm

    When I get real quiet it happens. It doesn’t matter where or when or who is around-the world just goes quiet and then it is done.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:56 pm

      b e a u t i f u l. Xxx

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    Lorraine @ Not Quite Nigella
    September 2, 2012 at 11:15 pm

    Your poetry is so beautiful Kim. Like you and Kay xxx
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:57 pm

      Lorraine,
      LOVE when you visit me on this end of the world. XX

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    Mandy - The Complete Cook Book
    September 3, 2012 at 2:37 am

    I love your candid writing Kim, LOVE, LOVE, LOVE!
    🙂 Mandy xo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:57 pm

      Mandy,
      & I love your LOVE, my fellow Cat Woman. Xxx

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    Hilary - Feeling Beachie
    September 3, 2012 at 5:23 am

    I wish I had words that could help, but… Just know you are in my thoughts all the time… big hugs!

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:58 pm

      Hilary,
      sometimes words are so inadequate, aren’t they?

      But I appreciate yours. Xx

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    Tara
    September 3, 2012 at 6:17 am

    I’ve been there, Kim. Where you don’t know HOW to pray, so you just ask for God’s help. And you and Kay can still pray together, you know. True she’s with God, but she can still pray to Him and ask Him for things (at least, I like to think so ;). Don’t allow this physical plane of existence to separate you two in prayer.

    I love you, lady!

    Tara
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 2:59 pm

      Tara,
      I love that!!! Love you 2. Xxxxx

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    Dad
    September 3, 2012 at 8:29 am

    I like (THOUGHTS OF FAITH) by Annie Lamott. I tkink i pray pretty much, sometimes in my den,
    or in the shower, my car, on my swing, in bed & etc. Never quit praying, Jesus commands that.
    We will never understand why things happen on this earth until we meet Jesus face to face.
    Never quiit writting Kim, you are an encourgement to me and so many others.

    LOVE YOU
    DAD

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 3:00 pm

      Daddy,

      You are my HERO. You always have been.

      I love you more than 5 tigers 6 white lions & Dove chocolate. Xxx

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    Liz @ A Nut in a Nutshell
    September 3, 2012 at 8:45 am

    You are surviving this even though sometimes you hate that fact. Your sister would be furious with you if you didn’t. And I love the fact that your heart beats on. xo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 3:01 pm

      Liz,
      beautifully stated. thank you, dear. Xx

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    Monica
    September 3, 2012 at 9:06 am

    Kim, You’re making a difference through your heart, your words. Never forget that. You have a purpose and you’re here to tell Kay’s story so that it may help others with abusive men in their lives. Bless you, Kim.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 3:01 pm

      Monica,
      Ohhh, I do hope so…

      Love. Xxxx Kiss

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    Ameena
    September 3, 2012 at 9:47 am

    I agree with so many posters…you are making a difference in others lives by shedding light on domestic violence…I do hope it helps you get through it a little easier.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 3:02 pm

      Ameena,
      Never easier….Just tolerable. xxx

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    Valentine Logar
    September 3, 2012 at 2:15 pm

    Kim, you know I feel your heartbeat in my blood. I feel your sister in my breath, when I draw it in I demand justice and but when I release it I defy those who would have ever defined me by their actions. Those prayers are not just prayers said before they are prayers still said today, still prayers of hearts and souls entwined. You walk the earth the earth in segments, Kay surrounds you with love trying to mend those segments trying to stitch pieces back together, with memories and prayers.

    You powerful voice heals so many, touches so many.

    I love you

    Val

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 3:04 pm

      **I feel your heartbeat in my blood. I feel your sister in my breath**

      Oh, Val,
      that about knocked my socks off. I sooo love. Love Love. those words.

      Love you back. Xxxx

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    Kelly @ Inspired Edibles
    September 3, 2012 at 6:11 pm

    Love that you are expressing everything in your heart Kim. That’s a beautiful thing.

    Peace and love to you –

    xoxo.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 3:04 pm

      Kelly,
      Love to you in Canada. Always. Xxx

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    Lady Fi
    September 3, 2012 at 9:00 pm

    You write so beautifully even though your heart is full of pain.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 3:05 pm

      Lady Fi,
      your words & photos make this so-called journey a bit lighter. Xxx

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    Ellen M. Gregg
    September 4, 2012 at 3:53 am

    My prayers start with “thank you.”

    Thank you, God, for… family and friends, a body getting healthy, a place to live, food to nourish me, this amazing life. Thank you.

    Thank you, Kim, for sharing your inner heart with us, and for keeping me aware of the fragility that is the human existence. Thank you, Kim, for ensuring I don’t take my beloveds for granted for one.single.second. xoxo

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 3:06 pm

      –Thank You is the most Perfect Prayer, Sweet Ellen. Xxxxx

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    marie
    September 4, 2012 at 5:05 am

    Prayer has power – I keep you in my prayers Kim and ask God to fill your heart with peace. I know it can only be small bits as your heart is forever broken but maybe it can help to continue the road.
    Much love.
    xx

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 3:07 pm

      Marie,
      I SOOO believe in the POWER of prayer…

      This is one of the reasons I’m still alive…

      Xxx

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    Bridget
    September 4, 2012 at 7:41 am

    I don’t pray. But lately, I wish I still knew how.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 3:08 pm

      Dear B,
      I memorized the 23rd Psalm. Thank Goodness, cuz I can’t pray like I used to. I cry too much…

      Xxxxx

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    Lisa Gordon
    September 4, 2012 at 8:42 am

    One of my favorite songs from Madonna.
    I don’t know that i really pray, but I do do a lot of talking things through.
    You are an amazing spirit my friend.
    xo.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 3:08 pm

      Liz,
      And you are amazing, too, My Dear. Xx

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    Kimmy
    September 4, 2012 at 12:42 pm

    Love you and Kay always

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 3:09 pm

      Kimmy,
      I love you, my Angel. Xx

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    Brenda
    September 4, 2012 at 2:43 pm

    Beautiful poetry in both the post (the strongest of love) and musical choice for the sentiment and act. I am more a talker and star gazer than one to sit down and pray. I suspect the big Guy has his eye on you making sure you’re doing OK. I know he watches over both Kay and you.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 4, 2012 at 3:10 pm

      Brenda,
      Love when you stop over to read my Mourning. Xxxx

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    Blond Duck
    September 4, 2012 at 3:21 pm

    I’ve been having my own struggles with faith lately. I’m waiting on test results and am DYING. I can’t imagine having pain with no end and finding faith.
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    Unknown Mami
    September 4, 2012 at 9:00 pm

    I whisper prayers throughout the day and I don’t even feel comfortable calling it praying.
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      My Inner Chick
      September 4, 2012 at 9:37 pm

      Mami,
      He says to pray ceaselessly. I used to do this all thru the day…

      Now all the words are fragemented.

      Xxx

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    Corinne Rodrigues
    September 5, 2012 at 4:17 am

    I pray through song…through words…through thoughts and sometimes through tears. I do believe He hears them all and understands…even when we don’t, Kim.
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    Jamie@SouthMainMuse
    September 5, 2012 at 9:26 am

    That was beautiful. As long as we are here there is something the Lord wants us to do. As much as you miss your sister, you can help her live on and glorify God by encouraging women in similar situations to take action. The depth of love for your sister moves me.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 5, 2012 at 12:48 pm

      Jamie,
      I completely agree…

      but it’s SOOOOOOO hard w/out her here. Very very hard. Xx

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    Blond Duck
    September 5, 2012 at 2:53 pm

    My results weren’t what I wanted, but they were a sign. It’s just sad that my pain is brief, while yours is eternal. 🙁
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 6, 2012 at 4:32 am

      Ducky,
      I hope you are alright, dear. Xxx

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    Sandra
    September 5, 2012 at 5:42 pm

    I pray much the same way you and Kay prayed, except i throw in some fancy words like, “Have your angels protects us”…I wonder what the Lord’s plan was for taking Kay so soon. It is unfolding. And yet you will feel that pain in your heart always….she’s not even my sister, and when I read your powerful writing, I ache for her. I know she was right though: You will write a masterpiece, and I’ll be at that book signing…just wait till I graduate from university though and am gainfully employed so I can afford to fly out to whatever city you’re in! xoxo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 6, 2012 at 4:34 am

      Sandra,
      Looooove that you pray. God is the only reason I still exist. Without Him–I am nothing at all.

      I shall fly out to be at your book signing, as well ::)))

      Will you graduated w/ your Phd in Nursing? Xxx

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    Anne @ Zen and Genki
    September 5, 2012 at 10:17 pm

    Such a loss! But such a deep, moving post…thank you for sharing.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 6, 2012 at 4:35 am

      Thank you for visiting my Mouning Pages, Anne. x

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    Sandy Webb
    September 6, 2012 at 10:38 am

    As you know I have given up on prayer. It did not and has not worked for me. I admire that you can continue your faith. Many, many don’t after something so horrific. I am one of them.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 6, 2012 at 12:31 pm

      Without Prayer & God, I would have perished 2 years ago.

      Love you, Sandy <3

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    Borka
    September 6, 2012 at 1:57 pm

    One of the best songs I’ve ever heard, thanks for putting me into the mood, I like it so much!
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    Linda
    September 7, 2012 at 8:35 am

    I love the title of your post. I lost my mother when I was 16, the pain, heartbreak and tears have lessened over the years but it never goes away. I pray for your peach, I share your pain and love that you are honoring your sister and sharing her life with us. .

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    Jessica
    September 7, 2012 at 3:22 pm

    I haven’t heard that Madonna song in a long time. I know your pain will never go away but you are doing really good things to raise awareness so that others will not have to suffer your loss.
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      My Inner Chick
      September 7, 2012 at 4:20 pm

      Jessica,
      Always love when you visit my mourning pages ! x

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    (FL) Girl with a New Life
    September 10, 2012 at 9:37 am

    I adore this quote at the beginning of this post.

    Me? I pray all the time–standing up, sitting down, talking a walk. Maybe even in my writing I’m sending up a prayer.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      September 10, 2012 at 3:06 pm

      Fl.
      Love that you pray everywhere<3

      I am usually praying HELP HELP HELP

      xx

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    Nikky44
    October 10, 2012 at 8:52 pm

    I used to pray a lot, i still do but in a different way. I’m not able to pray now or ask for anything. I just sit quiet, trying to clear my mind and I call God. I just call Him, God…. God… God
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