—It’s been 699 days since he murdered you.
I believe I shall always count the moments you’re not with
me. Always remember your voice. Always love you the most.
I’ve been thinking about the oddest things lately.
For example, when
you’d unexpectedly stop in the center of the Waterfront Trail, look up into an
old birch tree and call out, “Who’s
that? Hi, baaaaby. I heeeear you. I seeeee you.”
When I looked up, I’d see a bird. Just a plain old bird. A nameless bird. Nothing
magnificent like a Mockingbird or
Cardinal or Blue jay…
….but you thought it
was the most beautiful creature in the
world.
A simple bird.
Colorless.
But you observed the
beauty in everything.
Even the murderer.
Didn’t you?
Isn’t that the reason you stayed?
Isn’t that the reason you allowed him to make you small,
stupid, insignificant?
You. Were. Everything.
He. Was. Nothing.
Anyways—
I still awaken thinking of you. You’re
the first reflection in my head.
Your hair blowing in wind, your eyes closed evenly,
peacefully.
The sun shining upon your face.
Sometimes I find
myself waiting for the phone to ring at a ridiculously, outrageously early
hour…
…with you on the other end purring, “Kimmy, are you up yet? Just called to say I love youuuu.”
Oh God Oh God Oh God
Oh God
When I get like that, when I memorize like that—
my heart hurts. It
hurts so fucking badly.
It hurts like loneliness and death and darkness and breathlessness
and anger & aching all mixed into
one.
And I wonder, I wonder….. how the hell I’m standing?
But I am. I am.
People have told me to
“Let Go.”
N E V E R
People have said,
“You need to release her.”
N E V E R
Not as long as I have breath inside my body.
Not as long as I have a pulse.
It’s strange, but all the same feelings that hurt me deeply—
Are the same feelings that move me forward to get out of bed
in the morning, brush my teeth, make
coffee, and apply my lipstick.
I mean, my heart is still beating.
So that must mean something.
But I still can’t believe it’s beating when you’re not here,
my Dear Sister.
Xxx 
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Beautiful Kay. So beautiful.
No, never let her go. She’s always in you. Let that be your strength.
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—-Never. Never. I shall Never let go…
or i’d be gone, too. <3 Kiss
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
As always, your words are full of beautiful pictures of Kay. And full of pictures of horror and grief of Kim. Your words are powerful.
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Nan,
I appreciate you reading my mourning, dear. You are superb. Xx
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Kim, you are standing because she is not….but you hold her upright everyday with your words, your thoughts, your love, and your sharing her memory with all of us. That is all very, very good. And we all hold you up with the same.
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Mamawolfe,
oooooh, thank you for holding me up. thank you. Xx
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
Kim, I feel as though I know Kay, to a degree, through your heartfelt words. What a gentle, loving soul you depict.
To “release her,” it seems to me, would be to release a portion of your very essence. Who would do that?
Sending a warm hug.
xoxo
**To “release her,” it seems to me, would be to release a portion of your very essence**
Ellen, I Soooo Love that. I love it.. Kisses for you. Xxx
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699 days…and I’m sure it never gets any easier. Your sister was beautiful!
I’m so sorry my friend…thinking of you.
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Never Easier, dear….
just different. Xxx
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Kim, your pain is so breathtakingly described. Your darling sister will live forever in your heart and in the hearts of those she touched. I hope the happy memories remain too.
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Forever. Always. As long as my heart beats.
Kisses flowing to you, sweet Linda. Xxx
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I know how you feel, Kim. You don’t have to release her. You are a strong person and lucky to have Kay as your sister. Those memories are precious. Treasure them. Relish them. Soften the sadness. I am sorry we cannot turn the clock back on our deepest sorrows. Yet we have to live, as long as we are alive. Losses like this can never be “okay”. Because they’re not. I know that Kay is smiling at you, admiring you for the strong voice you are.
I will be there in spirit for Kay’s Walk. Let me know what I can do to help.
I love you. Very much. Hugs and kisses,
Vidya
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Vidya,
your love and support and passion and empathy move me.
Love you. love your BIG HEART. Love you spirit.
I hear you heart beating in Minnesota ….
all the way from India….
Many KISSESSSss
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Kim you are here because WE need you! You have a purpose…. to be Kay’s voice and you are helping so many women in the process! I can only imagine how hard it is for you my dear, but just know I am so glad that you get up every morning because you fill my days with laughter and a friendship that I treasure! I love you, and Kay is so lucky to have you keeping her memory alive! Don’t ever let her go, keep telling all of us how wonderful she was, I love hearing about Kay.
Ronda,
You. Are. Amazing.
—-you have made this year bearable with your smiles, passion, and great understanding….
Love Love Love. So much Love. Xxxx
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
KIm,
Kay is a beautiful person,with a beautiful spirit how could she not be imprinted in your heart?
This is what I think….I think you have to do what feels right for you, don’t let people tell you what to do my friend, nobody can do that. {I’m talking about people saying you need to release her }
I don’t think we ever really move on {we never ever forget} after such a life changing tragedy {my opinion}. But we can live on in our own time; and each of us had a different clock!
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I say a big “AMEN’ to that.
Thank you for understanding, Jen. Xx
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699 days are a very long agony.
I don’t care what they say. This is a sick planet where abuse and murder are rewarded.
Well, enough for now. I wish you peace.
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Thank you, Columbibueno <3
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I love the story about Kay and the bird in the old birch tree! How beautiful that she so intensely observed and loved the world around her, including her amazing sister. (Stunning bracelet!!)
Jann Huizenga recently posted..Ancient, Abandoned & Alone
–I shall never know anybody like my dear Kay again on this Earth….
Jann, don’t you just LOVE that bracelet?!! xxxXX
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As always, I wish you peace. I’m sorry that you’ve had 699 days without her…..but I’m glad you have such beautiful memories. Hugs and love to you always, my friend.
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–Beeeeeeeautiful Memories.
—-And an abundant amount of them Xxx Love to you, Dear Ann.
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You have such wonderful memories of Kay, Kim.
You just hold onto those, for it is those that get you through the tough times.
There is most definitely a reason that she left you such wonderful memories.
Sending you hugs dear Friend.
xo.
Lisa,
I feel your hug. OOOxxx
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Just too beautiful for words my darling Kim.
Mandy xo
Big hugs and lots of love to you my friend from a beautiful sunny South Africa.
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Mandy,
I feel your hug all the way from South Africa…
And i love it. <3 xx
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
you say it so beautifully, love it
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–Thank You for visiting, Samar. Xx
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
Isn’t that the reason you stayed?
This might not be the only reason, but it surely was an important one. She wasn’t able to see the bad in him or in anything or anyone. Some people are like that, they prefer to see the bad in themselves rather than accept others are bad. She stayed because she hoped her love could save him, and make him change. She stayed because she knows she has a big heart and can put up with him whereas someone else wouldn’t be able to do that. She also stayed because she wants her children to have a dad. She wanted to stay and she stayed till the end.
Love you Kim.
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–Till the End.
I’m so damn sad about that, Nikki.
Love you, 2. Xx
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What a beautiful piece Kim… and I love how you appreciate and celebrate all that was Kay…even her adoration of the nameless bird.
Hugs, warmth and loving energy to you ~
xox.
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Kelly,
she loved all of the “Nameless Birds.”
Hugs back to you in Canada. Xxx
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Another powerful and touching poem! Thank you for sharing.
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–thanks for reading, dear lafemmeroar. <3 Xxx
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Dear Kim,
I would never dream of telling you how you ‘should’ handle your pain! Everybody gets to choose for themselves. Just like Kay chose…
One thing I notice is that the very traits you value so much in your sister may be calling to you, too.
“You. Were. Everything.
He. Was. Nothing.”
What would Kay think about this?
I was deeply moved by a video I watched about a woman who found healing by forgiving her son’s murderer. I wanted to share it with you, not because I think you should do anything differently than you already are, but because I would do anything to help you find some peace. Maybe this will help. Maybe not. I will keep praying that somehow, something will bring you some comfort from your unfathomable pain. http://www.dangerouslinda.com/?page_id=153
love, XOXOXXO
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–Dangerous Linda,
I knew him ( the monster ) for 29 years…
He was nothing to me….
He is still nothing to me…
Kay was EVERYTHING.
—–But even so, I forgive him.
Xxx Kissss
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
Kay and I were walking the trail and we saw a big fat sewer rat, it was so fat it couldn’t run
very fast. And of course Kay said ‘come here baby,’ but it slowly walked down to the water.
She even saw beauty in that rat. She loved pretty much everything.
Love You More Than All The animals In Kenya
Daddy
–Daddy,
so many stories like that. Sooooo many. My brain is overflowing…
I love you more than all the tigers, lions, & panthers of Kisumu <3 Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
I guess it is like we need to see the beauty in death. I’m not quite sure how, but I’m thinking grief is really love, isn’t it. You’re expressin grief and is readers read the love. Keep expressing!
Love,
Jodi
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–Jodi,
yes.
grief is love.
the more we love,
……. the more we mourn.
Sooo VERY True. Xxx
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wish i could do the walk and snag a goodie bag:) sounds like a wonderful event to honor kay. you know your path. you live it out loud and beautifully.
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ed,
give me your address….and i shall send you a brochure. (did i spell that right?)
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
Kim –
Moving forward and letting go is all about how you look at it. I had a widower (a guy! imagine that! LOL) give me some excellent advice on that. I posted it on my blog about a year ago, you can read it here http://flyingwg.blogspot.com/2011/05/moving-forward-or-letting-go.html
Giant Hugs to you my dear. xoxo
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Sandy,
I shall read that…I probably already did! But I shall comment again.
Love to you, sweetssss. xx
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What I love, love, love about your blog, Kim, is your open expressions of love and pain. It’s obvious that your family had and have huge hearts and are not afraid to say “I love you.” It’s a great Italian family and so different from my Scandinavian upbringing. That is one reason your blog is so attractive to so many people- your open expression of love, hate, grief, despair, hopelessness, hopefulness, and all of those other emotions. Don’t ever change that. And I love that Kay loved nature so much. She had a huge heart as well. And she tried her best but it wasn’t enough. She tried to get away but it’s so hard for women to get out of a relationship. It’s so hard to make that decision to leave. It’s dangerous as well. It takes, on average, 8 times for women to actually leave an abusive relationship.
I will look for those birds in the birch trees when I walk on May 20th but I will avoid, at all costs, the fat rat.
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Joan,
I. Love. Your.
((((((((P A S S I O N!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Xxxx See You Soon, Dearest.
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A person who is truly beautiful inside finds beauty all around her – even in those who will crush her. I love your devotion to her.
That is a beautiful bracelet – I hope the walk is successful.
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Katy,
Kay made me a better human being.
Yes, don’t you LOVE that bracelet?! xxx
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I am absolutely devastated for you. I can’t even begin to imagine the pain you must feel each and every day. My heart aches for you and for the life your sister never had the chance to finish. (((hugs)))
Liz @ A Nut in a Nutshell recently posted..I Can’t Take A Compliment
Liz,
One learns, somehow, to live with the pain.
Hugs Back to you. Xx
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Kim, those who tell you to release and let go don’t know what they’re talking about. After all, how can you release a part of your heart and still keep living? Not possible. Not possible at all. For those we love, even when they’re long gone, are still a part of us; are still a big chunk of our beating hearts. Our love keeps their spirit alive. I think of how much time has passed since Kay’s been gone and think, how does Kim do it? But then she’s not really gone is she? She lives through your memories; your thoughts of hers; the lovely visuals that pop into your head like the one of the bird. Keep loving your sister, sweet lady. Keep her in your heart and your soul. And never let go.
–Sweet. Bella,
she will always be a huge part of who I am…
I shall hold on FOREVER.
Xx Kissss for you.
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
Kim,
Today on my way into work I stopped at a Caribou coffee as I do every morning on my way to work and to my suprise on my way out, I looked at the bullitin board, as I always do an there it was…
Kay Marie Sisto Memorial Walk
A huge poster in Minneapolis of beautiful Kay.
Your voice is being heard Kim. I didn’t put the poster there. I hadn’t even seen one yet. I don’t know who did put it there but I will find out and thank them.
I know there are good days for you and I know there are bad days – and the pain never ever really goes away.
But know and understand that the work you are doing on behalf of Kay and the thousands of women and their loved ones who have suffered the effects of domestic violence are being helped by your tireless efforts.
Love you lots & I’ll see you at the walk.
Sue
~~~Sue,
I love that you saw that poster <3
I am pretty sure Kay's son's fiance is putting those out. She is VERY pro-active.
last year she won first prize for getting the most money!
Looking forward to seeing you, Sweet Sue. Xxxx
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
I hear you Kim and I feel you.
People say :”let go..” … so easy to say.
But when every loved one has become a part of you, you never really let go. They may no longer be around physically, but they will always stay, as a part of a whole.
Take care and stay sweet!
Psycho recently posted..Irreverence and Me
~~~I love that you feel me…hear me.
I’ve missed you, Psycho <3 Xxxx
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
How many women (and perhaps even men) will be shaped, changed, saved, by you sharing Kay’s story, and your pain at her loss?
If I were you, I wouldn’t give a rat’s hat about them, I would trade everybody and everything to have my sister back. But since that’s not an option, at least you have some small comfort, I hope, knowing Kay’s life, her death, and your openness about it is changing hearts and lives. SAVING lives, I do believe.
Peace and love to you, now and always.
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Dear, Beverly,
you are a girl after my own heart <3 Xxxx
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Kim, I don’t know how you do it.
How you live with the pain of what happened to Kay, and yet manage to go on with life, commenting on all our blogs, sending us such positive, supportive sentiments. I love you being part of my blogosphere. I love what you do, what you write. Through the memory of your sister, you are making an incredible difference, helping other women so that this horrible nightmare doesn’t happen to someone else. God bless you, Kim. Hugs, my friend.
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~~~~Monica,
thank you for your continual support & encouragement.
It means A LOT. Xxxx
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Dear Kim,
It’s the little things that get us, isn’t it? The memories when you least expect them that tear through your chest, the way beauty can no longer be shared.
What keeps scrunching my heart up on your behalf is the brutality of your loss, in every sense. And its finality…
Perhaps we can all bear a little bit of your sadness so that the burden may be lighter.
xx
Lady E recently posted..The five stages of break-up grief
**Perhaps we can all bear a little bit of your sadness so that the burden may be lighter.**
What a beautiful line, Lady E. Xxx
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Kim, I think that Kay would be feeling as bereft as you do if you had been the one stolen leaving her to struggle on alone. Reading your posts it is obvious that you needed each other to feel complete.
You do such amazing work in protecting many, many other women from the same fate, but that doesn’t reduce your pain by a drop.
Hurting for you, hurting with you, sending hugs.
Elephant’s Child recently posted..Sunday Selections #67
~~~Elephant,
~~Yes. Kay’s blood and heart beats inside me.
thank you so much for your beautiful words. XXxxx
hope you are well..
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
Beautifully put Kim. Your heart still aches and it forever will. But you’re a strong, good person so you help out others by speaking out. Thank you xxx
Lorraine @ Not Quite Nigella recently posted..Vaucluse House Tearooms For Afternoon Tea
-thanks for reading my mourning pages, L.
they seem to never end. xx
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
Our love ones who had left us will live in our hearts and mind forever. HUGS!!
Hugs back, Quay. Xx
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
I love the way you describe your sister, the way she found goodness and beauty in the world around her, and the way she inspires you every day. You had such an incredible love, such an incredible friendship.
Emily recently posted..Apartment Life
No love was Greater.
Ever. xx
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How can you let go when Kay is living in you, when her heart is beating in yours………..for every minute you live she is next to you, keep sharing your pain, keep spreading the beautiful love Kim.
xxxxxx
~~~~~~Marie,
I will scream her story out FOREVER and EVER and EVER… Xxx
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
We can’t let go of those we love: they live for always in our hearts.
Just beautiful!
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Lady Fi,
And you are beautiful, as well. <3 Xx
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
Her soul is your strength.
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Ducky,
So true. Yes. Xxxx
Very moving. Sending you positive vibes and lots of hugs. XO
Patricia,
I’ll take all the positive vibes I can get. Thank You. Xxx
your words always stir my soul.
they move me from one space to the next.
xoxo
Adriana recently posted..About Rabbit Holes…
Adriana,
funny you should say that..
because I feel the same way about your photography, words, & positive spirit. Xxxx
Your strength, courage and boldness are inspiring mg friend. Hold on to her and cherish her memory, which you have shown beautifully today.
You are amazing.
Choc Chip Uru
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–Thank you for reading my mourning/morning pages, Choc Chip. Xxx
Love you!
love you more…Xx
I was so moved by your beautiful words and the powerful feelings behind them. You had me with each word, and in each word I was starting to feel like I was getting to know bits of your sister, Kay. Thank you. My heart goes out to you as you learn to walk without her.
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Kathy,
~~~ I’m not sure I will ever learn to walk w/ out her…
I don’t know how… Yet.
Thank you for reading my mourning.
I shall visit you, as well Xxx
I love your sweet memories of your sweet sister.
Pat Scattergood recently posted..As the mind wanders…
Me, Too, Pat <3 Xxx
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
No, you can’t release, you can’t forget…but you can and you will fight against the epidemic of domestic violence. You have such a purpose…I admire you and thank you!!! xo
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~~~~Liz,
thank you for your kind words <3 Xx
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
Some love for you today.
Blond Duck recently posted..Sisters
–I’ll take it, Ducky. Xxx
She will always live on in your heart – and smiling down on you with her graceful angel wings. ((HUGZ!!))
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Yes, Stacy,
Always. Always inside my heart <3 Xxx
I don’t have the right words other than you are in my heart and sending you love. I am in tears and so thankful for my sister and can’t imagine your loss. You are a very strong woman.
Dear Curvy,
I’d give ANYTHING to have my sister back w/ me.
I miss her. I miss her deeply to my core.
Go call your sister. Now. Xxx
Damn. DamnDamnDamn.
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Love Love Love. <3 Xxx
Your writing is so beautiful and moving. NEVER stop writing. Ever!
Thanks for your sweet comment today. You make me smile too. xoxo
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Never! Ever!
Thanks for visiting, Impulsive! Xxxx
Moving forward with all you have is more than most do on an ordinary day in an otherwise dull life. You flutter, you stall, to fly, to howl at the moon asking why, why did you do this to me, but every night that you leave a tear on the pillow, you also dream beautiful dreams and rise and begin again, breathing and moving forward with all that you have.
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-Sweet Brenda,
your support and words mean A LOT <3
Thank You Xxx
Hello Kay you have a beautiful post. Its true that It hurts like loneliness and death and darkness and breathlessness and anger & aching all mixed into one.
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Thanks, Joan <3
I have such admiration for your bond with your sister, and such heartbreak over your loss of her.
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FL,
Such Heartbreak…
Sometimes it’s hard to find the light.
Xxx Kiss for You.
She was really really beautiful, it is such a terrible thing which happened to her, I just can’t believe that…
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Anna,
I can’t believe it either…
but it happend in my family.
Thanks for visiting. X
This is heart wrenching and so beautiful. I am so very sorry for your loss but you have an incredible bond with your sister. You are absolutely right – never let her go in your heart and in your soul.
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Christine,
Thank you for visiting my mourning pages. Xx
Kim, you keep her close and relish in those beautiful memories everyday. The tragedy brings your tenderness to us. It is Kay’s gift of living on through you so you can bring us the beauty of your relationship and sisterhood and personify the love siblings should have.
Hug close those memories. They keep her alive for us all.
Love and hugs,
Red.
xxx
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Red,
Love & Hugs Back to you. xx
This is my first time reading your blog, and I am so sorry to hear what your family had to go through. Keep those beautiful memories of your sister close and never let go.
Heather recently posted..Baked My Day
Heather,
I shall NEVER let go.
Thanks for reading. I shall come visit you, too. Xx
I want someone I love to read this. Someone who is in an abusive relationship that is only mentally/emotionally abusive at this point, but is escalating. I am so frustrated, because I know what can happen. I’ve read your sister’s story so many times. But what can I do? People don’t want to listen.
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Nobody will listen until they are ready to listen….
Tell your friend your concerns. Send her this blog.
Mental–Emotional-& Verbal IS (((ABUSE))))
this is how it starts…This is how it ends.
I hope she HEARS you, Julie. Xxx
I was in shock seeing the date. It’s my birthday and I am very sorry. I hope justice and peace is with you. Kay is very pretty and optimistic. For sure, she’s with you all the time. Just be strong for her. Always.
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–Thanks for reading, Born27. <3
It’s a gorgeous bracelet, Good luck with the walk. I especially love the last line. It’s hard to believe the whole world doesn’t stop after a tragedy.
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Barbara,
yes, the whole world has gone forward,
…except me.
Love xx
I’ve never lost someone as close to me as Kay was to you, but I can believe I feel the horror of it, through you. I hope the walk is a huge success. I wish I was in Minnesota to do it!
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–Pamela,
I wish you could be there, too.
It would be great to meet you <3 Xxx
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
I have a sister, as I’ve told you before.
Every time I come here I’m reminded of my love for her.
I could never let go, either.
But I want to tell you that when you write, it reaches us. It reminds us to love, to hold on tightly, to be present and aware and there in the moment.
I’m just sorry that your giving to us involves such pain for you.
Much love to you, my beautiful friend.
Always.
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Dear Julie,
Hold On…
HOLD on with everthing you have…
and Love Love Love.
Hugs from Minnesota. Xxoo
I love you!
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I love You Too xx
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
Kim,
So many days have passed. I sense a pain as raw as the day it was inflicted upon your heart. I sense a longing that is as unfulfilled as the day Kay was ripped from your arms. I sense a river of tears, the source of which will never dry. And yet, I sense a love, a devotion, and a purpose, all of which keeps that torch lit and provides light and warmth.
Steadfastness. That is what you are Kim. Always there, never forgotten.
Light and love to you my dear friend.
Phil
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Phil recently posted..Derby Day 2012
~~~~Phil,
Sending you love from Minnesota, Dear.
I’ve missed you.
Hope all is well with your family. <3 Xx
never let go Kim, never let go. And keep moving forward, for both of us. I need your help. I’m at a standstill, yet the comment you left me was wonderfully encouraging. I just wish I could encourage you the same way. Don’t let go Kim, carry her always.
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Dear Diva,
Keep holding on…holding on….
…that’s what I am doing.
God hears your pain.
love flowing to you this very moment. Xxxxx
I hope peace and the best for you. Hold on for hope, but let go of pain.
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Maryden,
Thank you for your encouragement. X
Some of my favorite posts of yours are when you tell us things that Kay did. Things like talking to sweet birds. I love hearing the things you did together. She was a beautiful person and so are you. I wish I could be there for the walk.
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Kelley,
I wish you could be there, too !! <3
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Never let go. Never, ever, ever, ever let go.
You are doing such a wonderful thing for so many women who are being abused or who have been abused. You are thier voice. You are Kay’s voice. Don’t you ever let go of what means the most to you.
That is a beautiful bracelet! I wish you the all the best with the walk. I wish that I lived near because I would be there with bells on. I cannot wait to hear of the success! Have a great time remembering and representing your dear Kay.
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–Wish you could be there, Sweet Laci.
I shall NEVER let go. Xxx
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Every time I come to your Blog and see these posts I am moved by the power of your emotions and the constancy of the emotions you feel about your sister. I love the way you remember these little details about her. God Bless You
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Thank You, Ducky <3
My Inner Chick recently posted..Moving Forward Using All My Breath
I love your insight that the same feelings of grief that make your waking a nightmare are those that propel you through the day and keep you living. I don’t fully understand it but it struck a note of truth, Maybe feeling, however awful, is life–numbness, death in life. Thank you for making your sister alive and her loss real for those who didn’t know her. Love you and your words!
Karen,
Thank you for your support, encouragement, & non-judgement of my mourning pages.
I love you and your words TOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! xxxxxxxxxxxx
I echo what Wild Child Mama said but send along warmth and compassion.
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-Thank You, Dearest. Xx
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