In Memory of Kay

Inside The Rain


 

~~~To my devoted family who allows me to
mourn (  with my words ) in my own way
without judgment.  I love you more than
10 shimmering panthers sunbathing in the jungle of Kisumu
.~~~

 

 

 

~Kay and I walked the Waterfront Trail 4 times a week.

 

It was our sister time, our time to unravel the tribulations
of the universe.

 

I’m sad to say, she had numerous tribulations in her
universe.

 

Typically, we’d encounter the same people along the way: the middle aged man walking his grey faced
retriever,  the pretty young  jogger, the neighbors who waved to us from
their vegetable gardens, and Chester,
the trail cat.

 

I’ve not been back there since Kay’s murder.

 

Too many memories.

 

Too many unfinished sentences…

 

Gushing, gushing

gushing over me like sweet rain.

 

All of our long conversations about our ambitions, dreams,
futures.

 

The books we were reading.

 

She liked The Twilight Series.  I liked The Journal’s of Sylvia Plath.

 

She liked Romance.   I
liked Memoir.

 

We knew each rock, ditch, seasonal flower.

 

We knew each individual birch tree by name.

 

“Look, you can see Spirit Mountain
perfectly from here,” she’d exclaim.

every.  single.  time.

 

The old picnic table is almost certainly still there.  The one we prayed prayed prayed at.

 

Why didn’t He hear us?

 

And the wooden bench at the end of the trail where she
carved her name and the date.

 

What was the date?  I
can’t remember.  What the hell was the
date?

 

I can’t go back.    I
can’t look.    Not now.  Not yet.

 

Halfway thru our walk we’d call Chester to come play with us.

 

“Cheeeester!
Cheeeester!”

 

Suddenly he’d come galloping from inside the woods like a
naughty child-

 

& Kay would grab him tightly….embrace him…kiss him all
over his black & white fur….

 

…leaving the stains of bright pink lipstick on his face.

 

“That poor cat,” I’d laugh.

 

On our last walk, she said– “I can’t believe we’re done
already. That 50 minutes flew by.”

 

“I know,” I said.  “We
always have so much to talk about.”

 

She got into her little blue sports car & rolled down
the window.

 

“Call you later.  Love
you, Kimmie.”

 

“Love you, too,” I said.
“Bye.”

 

That was the last time I saw her alive, breathing, smiling,
loving me.

 

That was the last time my life was entirely happy.

 

Now, all of those memories pour over me.

 

Sweetly.  Painfully.  Sorrowfully.  Progressively.

 

I can’t  take them in
all at once–

 

Or I’d drown, die, disappear.

 

It would be so much easier to just be with her.

 

So much easier than living inside the rain.

Kay & Chester on The  Waterfront Trail.    Chester with Kay’s Pink Lips!   Come See him on Kay’s Walk….
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Kay was murdered on May 26, 2010 by Mike Peterson.  The Sun Fell.  The Earth Shook.

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105 Comments

  • Reply
    Linda Medrano
    April 19, 2012 at 3:42 pm

    You were so lucky to have Kay. She was a wonderful sister to you. And I know she was blessed by having you too. You carry a very heavy burden. I hope someone can help you when you stumble under its weight. I imagine she is helping you every time you stumble Kim.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:35 am

      Linda,
      Every day is a new day.

      My life is being lived for both of us now…so I must go on living & making a difference in this crazy world.

      Xxx Kisses. Love when you visiting my mourning pages.

  • Reply
    columbibueno
    April 19, 2012 at 3:47 pm

    My condolences…
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    • Reply
      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:00 am

      Thank You, C.

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    Sandra
    April 19, 2012 at 3:48 pm

    She hears you, she’s with you and she loves you.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:00 am

      Sandra,
      Yes. I believe this is very true. Xx <3

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    Charlene Ross
    April 19, 2012 at 3:50 pm

    I love that picture of Kay and Chester. So sweet. Your beautiful words always touch my heart Kim. I hope you can go back to the Waterfront Trail one day.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:00 am

      Charlene,
      I will go back for Kay’s Memorial Walk…

      Xxxx Love. <3

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    jen
    April 19, 2012 at 3:58 pm

    I had a glass of wine with my friend Kathy the other night, finally thank God she had her piece of shit husband removed from her house after years and years of horrible abuse. She’s safe and she’s lucky that she is.

    As we talked my thoughts turned to kay and sadly how she was robbed of her chance of the kind of do over my friend was now experiencing this new life without the dirt-bag husband beating and verbally abusing her daily.

    ‘What was and what could have been’ is such a bitter pill my friend, It sucks when those we love are taken from us and all we have left are the memories, but thank goodness for them. Big hugs and love to you, hold those memories they’re so darn sweet.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:01 am

      Jen,
      I shall never release my sister….

      when I do, I shall be with her.

      Thank you for your sweet support, dear. Xx

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    Rachel (Totally Ovar It)
    April 19, 2012 at 3:59 pm

    I am hurting for you, my sweet one.

    I think of you and loving, beautiful Kay all of the time.

    Love to you. Xoxo.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:02 am

      Rachel,
      I know you understand deep PAIN, too.

      IT SUCKSSsss

      Love flowing your direction. Xxx

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    Heal Now and Forever
    April 19, 2012 at 4:41 pm

    Beautiful Kay. The rain will stop, stay connected. Through words, through love.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:03 am

      ~~Beautiful.

      Thank You, J. Xx

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    Kelly @ Inspired Edibles
    April 19, 2012 at 5:25 pm

    What a beautiful photo of Kay and Chester… you don’t have to take the memories in all at once… only what you can when you can… you’ll get there at your own pace. Sending love and warmth your way – xo.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:03 am

      Kelly,
      I feel your love.

      Can you feel mine, too.? Xxx

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    Alison@Mama Wants This
    April 19, 2012 at 5:26 pm

    Beautiful you, beautiful Kay. Heal slowly. Go back one day. When you’re ready. And let the love wash over you. xo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:04 am

      Mama A,
      your words fill me up.

      Thank you for your continual support on my MOURNING PAGES. Xxxxx

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    Michael Ann
    April 19, 2012 at 5:54 pm

    This broke my heart. I have memories of this type with an old lover. The love of my life that I can not be with. I can’t go back to our happy place because it is too painful. I know this is not the same but it reminded me of it and I felt your pain. Hugs and love,
    Michael Ann
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:05 am

      Michael Ann,
      Pain is Pain.

      It fucking HURTS.

      Xx thank you for reading my mourning.

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    Kimberly
    April 19, 2012 at 6:09 pm

    Hold onto those sweet memeories. Write them down like you’re doing here so that Kay can live in everyone’s heart. I wish that I could have known her. She sounds like an amazing beautiful woman…just like you.
    Much love and strength xoxo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:06 am

      ~~~Kimberly,
      Kay made me a better person.

      Now, what do I do without that?

      Nobody was more beautiful & kind.

      Love to you, Dearest. xx

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    Ann
    April 19, 2012 at 6:10 pm

    So beautiful that you spent lovely time together. I’m sorry that you had to have last words, but they were words of love and sisterhood. Hugs to you always.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:07 am

      Ann,
      So many days, hours, minutes…

      Together.

      I am lost w/out her.

      Love to you, my dear Ann. <3

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    Tia
    April 19, 2012 at 6:42 pm

    I Love You!

    • Reply
      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:07 am

      Not more than I love you, T. Xx

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    Corinne Rodrigues
    April 19, 2012 at 7:18 pm

    Every time you share your memories, Kim, I marvel at the depth and beauty of the relationship you shared – pretty unusual even for sisters (but then I don’t have any, so I wouldn’t know!). Kay seems so full of love and light and to have her taken away so cruelly is a wound too deep to heal in the near future. Through your sharing you bring Kay alive in the hearts of so many who didn’t know her – and she lives through you…reminding us to reach out more to our loved ones and to be there for those who are in abusive situations. ♥
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:08 am

      –Corrine,
      She will always live thru me. Always.

      Thank You for your beautiful, beautiful words. <3 Xx

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    Pat Scattergood
    April 19, 2012 at 7:22 pm

    Sweet memories. Hold them close. One day you’ll go back, when you’re ready.

    A giant hug to you from me. Lots of love.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:09 am

      Pat,
      sending you some love from Minnesota <3

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    Dad
    April 19, 2012 at 8:25 pm

    Well i guess i remember all the good memories of being with Kay. As much as it hurts not having
    her with us, I will always hang on to those memories.
    Love You
    Dad

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:10 am

      Daddy,
      I don’t know what I’d do w/out you…

      perhaps, I’d just disappear.

      Love you more than panthers in spring.

      Xxx

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    Liz @ A Nut in a Nutshell
    April 19, 2012 at 8:49 pm

    Memories are both beautiful and stabbingly painful. I’m so terribly sorry. 🙁
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:10 am

      Liz,
      I am sooo sorry, too.

      So so so so sorry.

      Thanks for visiting, dear. Xx

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    Vidya Sury
    April 19, 2012 at 9:10 pm

    Sigh. I know what you’re saying. I know how it feels. I have my rains too, in my heart. Last year, I visited the place where Mom and I lived for decades and went to all the spots we loved to hang out in….and yes, we have a tree whose bark we wrote on – believe it or not, it was still there.

    The tears won’t stop sometimes.

    You know, in my mind, I’ll be with you on Kay’s Walk. Lucky Chester. My heart hugs your heart.

    Yes, we’ll meet in this life.

    Hugs and love, Vidya
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:11 am

      Vidya,
      Yes, we shall meet in this life…

      I know we will. Xxxxx

  • Reply
    totsymae1011
    April 19, 2012 at 9:59 pm

    Some things must never happen, as the sadness in your heart. Those empty spaces of those we love are so difficult to refill. But know that the universe is hugging you each time you feel the pain of missing Kay.

    And here’s mine….
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:12 am

      –Tots,
      I have figured out that one must live with those empty spaces.

      Ahhh, that’s the rub. It HURTS like Hell.

      Love to you, my dearest Tots. Xxx

  • Reply
    Monica
    April 19, 2012 at 11:19 pm

    That’s a beautiful tribute to your sister. You had such amazing memories of the trails. Treasure them always, Kim. Hugs, my dear, lots of hugs for you!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:13 am

      Monica,
      I send hugs back to you. Thank you for your constant support and hugssss. Xxx

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    Astrid Sanschagrin
    April 20, 2012 at 12:23 am

    It’s really sad that we have to pass through this turbulence. We always miss those dear ones who are in our hearts..

    who are part of our life. I dearly love my aunt and still tears roll down when I miss her presence. May God give solace to her and to your sis too..

    Lots of love to you.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:13 am

      Thank You, Astrid <3

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    Mandy - The Complete Cook Book
    April 20, 2012 at 12:30 am

    I do love reading more about the special relationship you and Kay shared Kim.
    Big hugs and love,
    🙂 Mandy xo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:14 am

      Mandy,
      Special & Deep..

      nothing will fill that up. EVER.

      Love to you in South Africa, Sweets.

  • Reply
    Jann Huizenga
    April 20, 2012 at 2:05 am

    Kim, what a portrait of sisterly love you paint there on the path in the woods, Spirit Mountain in the distance. If you ever go back, Kay’s beautiful spirit will be there, all around. Just like Kay’s spirit is all around us in this virtual world, thanks to the power of your love and the power of your poetry.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:15 am

      Jann,
      I will be back for Kay’s Memorial Walk for Domestic Violence.

      I may walk it…I may not.

      We shall see.

      Xx Love to you in Italy.

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    Elephant's Child
    April 20, 2012 at 2:43 am

    Hurting for and with you. I love that you cherish the golden memories of Kay. They are yours and the oxygen thief who stole her cannot, cannot steal your memories.
    Hugs

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:16 am

      Elephant,
      your words continaully rush over me like a kind of prayer… Thank you. Xxxx

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    Feeling Beachie
    April 20, 2012 at 3:58 am

    Sending you a great big virtual hug!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:19 am

      Feeling Beachie,
      And I hug you right back… Xx

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    Ellen
    April 20, 2012 at 4:16 am

    So many thoughts to express; too jumbled and incoherent.

    The ritual of “Look, you can see Spirit Mountain perfectly from here” is shattering in its poignancy. Spirit Mountain. And then there’s Chester…

    If it’s all right, I’d like to stand inside the rain with you for a few moments. xo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:20 am

      Ellen,
      when you write, you are already standing inside the rain with me…

      Xxxx Thank You. I feel your hand inside of mine.

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    Pamela
    April 20, 2012 at 6:01 am

    You had me at hello: “I love you more than
    10 shimmering panthers sunbathing in the jungle of Kismu”

    Love you Kim,

    Pamela
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:20 am

      Pamela,
      I love you, too. Xx

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    Lorraine @ Not Quite Nigella
    April 20, 2012 at 6:12 am

    You paint such a beautiful picture of Kay and your time together Kim! A wonderful post xxx
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:21 am

      Lorraine,
      sending you love this moment.

      Xx

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    countingducks
    April 20, 2012 at 6:26 am

    That was hard to read, knowing the ending and wishing it were different. The way she lives on in your thoughts says so much about you, her and your family. God Bless you all
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:22 am

      Ducky,
      I soooo despise endings…

      I only desire beginnings. Xxx

  • Reply
    Myrna
    April 20, 2012 at 6:52 am

    You’ve written a lovely tribute to your friend and at the same time you’ve expressed your grief. My heart goes out to you and Kay’s family. I know Kay will always walk with you, but now in a different way. Blessings to you.

    • Reply
      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:24 am

      Kay was ( is ) my sister.

      She will always be w/ me. Thank you for reading, Myrna. <3

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    Brenda
    April 20, 2012 at 8:33 am

    You family, blood and those you’ve made in the virtual world, hug you and are always with you.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:25 am

      —thank you, sweet Brenda. <3

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    Lola
    April 20, 2012 at 11:43 am

    You move me to tears, My Friend.

    Hugs and Kisses From Charlotte
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:26 am

      Lola,
      I make you cry…

      and you make me laugh until I pee my pants.

      What A Team !! <3 xx

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    Pam Hogeweide
    April 20, 2012 at 1:51 pm

    I’m with you Kim, right there in that memory.

    The last time I saw one of my best friends Janene and her toddler Abigail was the day before the car accident. We were all at one of our fave swimming holes on the river.

    That was July 6, 2007.

    I have not been back to that swimming hole yet. Maybe this summer. But maybe not. I don’t want to unleash all the ghosts of grief and sorrow and memories to flood me. I don’t have the luxury of time to be undone again. I have to stay on task with my family who is here, with my obligations that are mine to carry out. If I go to that place, to that swimming hole that somehow has become like a shrine of Janene and Abigail in my mind, I’m afraid that all the containment I somehow managed to accomplish in the months following their deaths will implode and I will once again be a shattered woman who cannot endure daily ritual.

    They both died too young and too sudden. Maybe I need to go back to that swimming hole. Maybe on a cold, rainy Pacific Northwest gray kind of day. Maybe it would be easier to confront what feels like an unfinished grief if I go to the very place where the greatest sorrow lies unwoken. But not on a sunny summer day. It needs to be rainy gray day. I’ll need mother earth to cry with me.

    (you know that your public journey of grief and loss is helping me with my own? thank you for all your vulnerability and open journaling. I hope the date on the picnic table comes back to you…)
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:27 am

      ****Maybe I need to go back to that swimming hole. Maybe on a cold, rainy Pacific Northwest gray kind of day*****

      Pam,
      your words move me. Truly. <3 Xxx

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    ed pilolla
    April 20, 2012 at 3:06 pm

    beautiful memories of a beautiful friendship. and inside the rain is special.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:28 am

      –ed,
      thanks for your support, dear. Xx

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    Joan
    April 20, 2012 at 3:39 pm

    Thank you again, Kim, for your wonderful and poignant words. I’ll be there, walking on that trail. I will look for Kay’s spirit and Chester.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:29 am

      ~~~Joan,
      Sometimes those sweet memories HURT really badly…don’t they?

      but I shall be there, of courrse. Chester will be waiting…Xxx Love love Love.

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    nan @ lbddiaries
    April 20, 2012 at 4:15 pm

    This was good – I love the way you described the walk – I felt I was walking right behind you two, listening in on your conversation!! You have an amazing way with words. I luff yew.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:30 am

      Nan,
      I’d love to walk w/ You! Xx

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    Stasha
    April 20, 2012 at 7:05 pm

    You miss her so much!! How I wish I could turn back time for you and switch off the rain.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:30 am

      Ooo, Stasha,
      I have wished that often…

      That I’d wake up & all of this darkness would have been a Nightmare..

      But it’s not.
      It’s not.

      Xxx Kiss

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    lafemmeroar
    April 20, 2012 at 7:59 pm

    Kim,

    This post is so powerful. Each post about your sister Kay reaffirms the importance of “sisterhood” and how much we need to appreciate the simple moments. Thank you again for sharing your feelings and these precious moments with your beloved sister.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:31 am

      Dear L,
      For me, nothing was as powerful as the relationship we had together…

      thanks for reading. i love when you visit me. xx

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    Nikky44
    April 21, 2012 at 3:54 am

    That is such a beautiful Post!!
    you said:”That was the last time I saw her alive, breathing, smiling, loving me”. But believe me, she is MUCH more alive now than she was, She is living now Eternally, a life that will never end. Breathing? I also believe she is breathing now LOVE, instead of the negativity she must have encountered, instead of pain and hurt and sadness, now she can only breath the Love there is Above. Smiling? How would she be not smiling now? think of it? what would make her frown when she was on earth that things that would take away her smile does not exist where she is, so her smile is on her face and in her heart forever. Loving you? this one made me smile because she is loving you more, more and so much more now, because her love now is not tinted with worries, her love is BIG, and forever.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 7:33 am

      Nikky,
      You. Are. A. GIGANTIC. Blessing.

      in my life.

      Thank you for those most joyful words. Xxxxxxxxx

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    Lady Fi
    April 21, 2012 at 8:11 am

    A sad and beautiful post. Thank you for sharing with us.
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      My Inner Chick
      April 21, 2012 at 8:20 am

      –thanks for you support, Lady Fi, & for your beautiful blog. <3

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    tony powers
    April 21, 2012 at 2:18 pm

    Kim, i feel your sorrow, your loss, your anguish, and i offer what little condolence i can. i believe Kay has gone on ahead of us on the next leg of her wonderful journey through time and the universe, the journey we are all on. i offer this small piece to you both:
    http://barkinginthedark.wordpress.com/2011/08/27/matter-of-life-and-death/

    continue…
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 21, 2012 at 3:57 pm

      Thank You, Tony,

      I know I shall see Kay again…

      it’s the living here on earth without her that SUCKS. Xx

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    Liz
    April 21, 2012 at 6:07 pm

    I’m so glad you are able to share your feelings so beautifully and openly. You have a gift. I know Kay is proud.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 22, 2012 at 6:59 am

      Liz,
      Kay was my greatest fan <3

      thanks for visiting my mourning pages.. Xx

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    Emily
    April 21, 2012 at 6:08 pm

    It sounds like a magical place you shared. Thank you for this glimpse, and for letting us walk with you there.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 22, 2012 at 6:59 am

      Magical. Beautiful.

      Thanks for walking with me, Emily. <3

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    Jennifer Worrell
    April 21, 2012 at 8:08 pm

    Such a beautiful tribute! I am so sorry for your tragic loss. You expressed yourself beautifully.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 22, 2012 at 7:00 am

      Jennifer,
      Thank you for visiting my mourning / morning pages. Xx

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    Ameena
    April 22, 2012 at 7:52 am

    So touching…thinking of you my friend. Hope the weekend is a good one for you….you deserve it.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 22, 2012 at 8:02 am

      Ameena,
      Thanks for you support. <3 xx

      you have a nice Sunday.

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    l
    April 22, 2012 at 9:09 am

    What a beautiful post and wonderful memories Kim.
    All you can do is one day or minute at a time my friend.
    She is watching down on you, I know.
    xo.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 22, 2012 at 12:40 pm

      Dear L,
      Yes.

      I live one. day. at. a. time.

      I cannot do any more than this. <3

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    Adriana
    April 22, 2012 at 3:14 pm

    sending you love. beautiful.
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    Alex @ Before The Baby Wakes
    April 22, 2012 at 5:10 pm

    This was a beautiful tribute to your sister, thank you for sharing it. I’m so sorry for your loss & will pray for you & your family.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 22, 2012 at 5:48 pm

      Thank You, Alex.

      I believe in the POWER of prayer <3 Xxx

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    Theresa Sonoda
    April 22, 2012 at 5:47 pm

    Hi sweet Kim. You know, because of you, I have been paying a lot more attention to my little sister. Because of you, I listen to her more carefully than I ever did before. Because of you, I appreciate every second I have with her. And because of you, my sister and I have grown closer.
    Thank you for that, my lovely. I am sad for your loss of the beautiful Kay, but thought you might like to know that, because of your message here on your blog, and your amazing spirit, I have re-discovered my little sister.
    Everyone else out there: Don’t waste another minute. Instead, cherish every minute you have with your loved ones.
    XOXOs
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 22, 2012 at 5:55 pm

      Oh, your words fill me up with loooove.

      I am pleased you have grown closer to your little sister. Hold on…Hold on…

      ….never let go.

      NEVER.

      I love you, Terri.. <3

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    Lady E
    April 23, 2012 at 2:54 am

    Dear Kim,
    Your memory is so fresh and so touching. I wish words could undo the pain, I wish the rain could wash away the horror, I wish I could carry a little bit of the weight that often comes crashing on you.
    Hugs xx
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 23, 2012 at 5:38 am

      Lady E,
      I wish I wish I wish….

      I have said that A LOT over this past 2 years.

      Love when you visit me, dear. Xx

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    Anna
    April 23, 2012 at 4:22 am

    Such a beautiful post. I think if you feel ready for that, you have to go there again to finish those unfinished sentences and let her go… I must be one of the hardest moments of your life.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 23, 2012 at 5:39 am

      –Thanks for reading, Anna. <3

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    Sandy Webb
    April 24, 2012 at 10:52 am

    You are so very lucky to have been so close to your sister. I love my sister dearly but we aren’t nearly as close as the two of you were. This was a very beautiful post. **HUGS**
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    Kimmy
    May 28, 2012 at 9:35 am

    Beautiful memories to have and to hold in your heart forever. I am glad for the time we worked at the school and took our lunch breaks together and our many conversations on relationships and life. My best memories are of our sweet innocent childhood, all of us! They were the happiest days of my life. Many tears but much much much laughter. Love you much much much. K

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