In Memory of Kay

Happy Birthday, Kay

~~For Kay On Her Birthday.  We Love Love Love Love Love Love You. Xxx

i carry your heart with me
i carry your heart with me(i carry it in
my heart)i am never without it(anywhere
i go you go, my dear;and whatever is done
by only me is your doing,my darling)
i fear
no fate(for you are my fate,my sweet)i want
no world(for beautiful you are my world,my true)
and it’s you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life;which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that’s keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart with me(i carry it in my heart) —-ee cummings

{ A special thank you for my dear friend Ronda Erie & Kind Mr. Leroux for putting this video together }

Click here to Donate to The Kay Marie Sisto Memorial Walk {Sunday, May 20th on the Waterfront Trail @ 1:00.}  reg. begins at 11:00.

Click here to Register EARLY  for  The Kay Marie Sisto Memorial Walk

Click here to watch some of   Last Year’s Walk

pink lips Xxx

Get Help  NOW for Domestic Violence, Verbal Violence, Emotional Violence, Sexual Violence…..800-799-SAFE (7233) or at TTY 1-800-787-3224.

It was too late for Kay….


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    Corinne Rodrigues
    April 11, 2012 at 6:54 am

    A lot of us carry her and you in our hearts thanks to your willingness to share and help so many others, Kim. ♥
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    April 11, 2012 at 7:02 am

    Such sadness in pictures that give me such JOY!!!!

    Happy Birthday Kay!!!! You are SO loved by SO many!!!!! I think of you EVERY single day!!! You have the MOST AMAZING sister (but I don’t need to tell you that do I?) EVER!!! Her strength is mind boggling!!! I love her SO much for everything she has given to me (Most of it without having known it)!!!

    I LOVE LOVE LOVE you Miss Kim!!!!!!

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    nan @ LBDDiaries
    April 11, 2012 at 8:43 am

    What a perfect poem and beautiful video. All the rose petals and pictures falling down at the ending was… I don’t know. There are no words. May you spend this day remembering all her beauty, joy, happiness, good days, and love It truly shined out of her.
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      My Inner Chick
      April 12, 2012 at 6:43 am

      Mr Liverpool and I brought flowers and balloons to the cemetery…

      I looked at him and said, “This is not good. This is not right.”
      & we just stood there at her grave.

      Love to you, Nan. Xx
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    Pat Scattergood
    April 11, 2012 at 8:44 am

    This is a beautiful tribute to your lovely sister.

    My best cyber-hugs to you, Kimmy.
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    April 11, 2012 at 8:53 am

    So beautiful and heartfelt. Happy Birthday, Kay…..
    Kim – I wish you peace and happy memories today.

    Hug always (and yes, I’d LOVE to adopt you!)
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    April 11, 2012 at 9:22 am

    So lovely yet sad.

    Love you.

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    April 11, 2012 at 9:23 am

    Happy birthday Kay

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    April 11, 2012 at 9:45 am

    Happy Birthday Kay. What a lovely video. Hope the Memorial walk is a success that brings hope to others.

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    April 11, 2012 at 9:46 am

    What a beautiful gift!!!

    I Love You!

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    The Writing Goddess
    April 11, 2012 at 10:12 am

    Every time I visit here, Kay’s story breaks my heart – and makes me more determined to spread the word, so that fewer children, mothers, fathers, sisters, brothers and friends, lose somebody so beautiful.

    Happy birthday, Kay. Peace and best of memories to you, Kim, and to her children.
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      My Inner Chick
      April 12, 2012 at 6:47 am

      –Dear Goddess,

      I have learned that silence KILLS. Kills. Kills

      Thank you so much for spreading the word <3 Xxx
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    Pure Complex
    April 11, 2012 at 10:19 am

    I am very sure she is enjoying her birthday in heaven with the angels :). I always feel that when my grandmothers birthday come sin May :). Happy Birthday Kay
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      My Inner Chick
      April 12, 2012 at 6:48 am

      I know one thing…

      Kay has much more JOY than I do. <3 Dancing w/ the Angels & your Granny. X
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    April 11, 2012 at 10:55 am

    Kim, I’ve always thought Kay was a beauty, but looking at the amazing photos of her in this video, I was left speechless. Oh my goodness! The photo of her with the dog is simply priceless and the one of her as a little girl with bangs just pulled at my heartstrings. As the petals fell, I felt every ounce of your love spilling over in perfect rhythm. Without a doubt, she must be celebrating in heaven with the angels yet, still watching over those who love her so passionately. And while her physical being is gone, it is evident that she lives in your heart forever and ever. I send you hugs and much love on this day. I will send a prayer to heaven in Kay’s name so that she knows how even though we’ve never met, she has touched my life and all of those who read about her in your blog. Indeed we carry her in our hearts, dear Kim. We do. We do!

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      My Inner Chick
      April 12, 2012 at 6:50 am

      All I can say is::: I love you from Afar.

      You are beautiful. You are one of a Kind.

      Love Love Love. Xxx
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    Pam Hogeweide
    April 11, 2012 at 11:31 am

    Love to you and the many memories of your sister Kay. Peace, peace, peace…..(hug)

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      My Inner Chick
      April 12, 2012 at 6:52 am


      One of my all time fave. verses:

      “Peace I leave with you, my peace I give to you: not as the world gives, give I to you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid.”

      I am trying to feel that peace.

      <3 Xxx
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    Michael Ann
    April 11, 2012 at 11:39 am

    I have to be prepared emotionally when I come here, but it nothing compared to your grief. I love your birthday tribute to Kay. Bless you all.
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    April 11, 2012 at 12:07 pm

    How beautiful Kim, Kay is having a happy birthday in heaven with all the animals, relaitives, and
    friends.We love love love her.
    Love You

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    April 11, 2012 at 12:44 pm

    Happy Birthday in Heaven Sweetheart!
    Sending hugs to you Kim.

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    Helen Herrick
    April 11, 2012 at 1:06 pm

    A plethora of pure love……

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    April 11, 2012 at 1:26 pm

    Happy birthday to you, beautiful Kay, and loving remembrance for you, miss Kim. xoxo
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      My Inner Chick
      April 12, 2012 at 6:55 am

      ~~~Thanks for your support and kind words, Ellen. <3 Xx

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    April 11, 2012 at 2:28 pm

    This was so beautiful! Happy birthday to your beautiful sister. She was so fortunate to have you in her life. This morning my sister and I had a little argument. I feel compelled to make up with her now after reading this post. Thanks for inspiring us in the midst of your pain!
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    April 11, 2012 at 2:47 pm

    What a beautiful tribute to your sister. I love the picture of her walking over the bridge and turning to look back. Sending good thoughts your way today Kim….
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      My Inner Chick
      April 12, 2012 at 7:36 am

      Debbie.–I love love love the photo of Kay walking over the bridge.

      I have used that photo often in my blogs.

      Xxx Kiss.
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    Jann Huizenga
    April 11, 2012 at 2:50 pm

    A beautiful video! A perfect birthday memorial for Kay. She has fine-looking sons and gorgeous sister. You always touch me, Kim. xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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      My Inner Chick
      April 12, 2012 at 7:36 am

      Thank you for continually visiting my mourning pages.

      I shall mourn forever….


      Love to you, dear. xxxxxx <3
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    jodi aman
    April 11, 2012 at 3:03 pm

    You are truly lovely and loved and loving. You are an inspiration. So is Kay.
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    Ronda Erie
    April 11, 2012 at 4:23 pm

    Love to you xxxxx!!!!!!

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    Kristy @PampersandPinot
    April 11, 2012 at 4:23 pm

    I love that poem!!! I’m so sorry for your grief. Days like that are so hard. I can’t imagine what you would give to be celebrating her birthday with her.
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      My Inner Chick
      April 12, 2012 at 7:38 am

      birthdays, holidays,
      every. single. day.

      is Hell.

      but people like you spur me on… Xxx
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    April 11, 2012 at 4:37 pm

    Happy Birthday Kay! May you be celebrating in the most beautiful place ever imaginable. Know that you are loved and missed by many.

    Kim, thank you again for sharing you most precious memories of your Kay. I am so sorry that you have to face this day without her. I can only imagine how difficult that must be and I am sure that doesn’t even come close to how difficult it really is. I hope that today, like each day, you are given the strength to make it through to tomorrow. Sending many hugs to you.
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    ed pilolla
    April 11, 2012 at 5:01 pm

    happy birthday to kay. much love to you, kim. a truly gorgeous poem that gets better each time i read it.
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    April 11, 2012 at 7:08 pm

    So beautiful !! Happy birthday beautiful Kay. Love and hugs to you beautiful Kim and to Kay’s boys and your family. XXOO K

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    Elephant's Child
    April 11, 2012 at 8:34 pm

    Happy birthday Kay,
    Thanks to your lovely sister Kim, you are remembered with love and pain around the world. I am sending love to you, your boys and KIm and her family today as well. Hugs from afar.
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      My Inner Chick
      April 12, 2012 at 7:41 am

      Dear Sweet Elephant.

      I am pleased that we have stumbled upon one another..

      Me here..and you in Australia.

      I feel as if I know you <3 Xxx
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    Vidya Sury
    April 11, 2012 at 9:47 pm

    Happy Birthday to Eternal Kay, Kim. Thank you for sharing that beautiful video and poem. Sending love and hugs to your whole family. I am thinking now of all the fantastic posts you’ve written here and also making such a big difference in the lives of so many others, through your “Help for Domestic Violence” initiative. I am feeling the love you show each time you write about Kay. I am thinking she’s in your heart forever, hugging you always. On this birthday, my heart is with you and your family, Kim. I understand the void, yet the memories that will envelop you will feel, somehow, soothing. Cherish that joy. You know, my Mom’s birthday is on April 15 – We think of her every single day through every little thing we do – and we will miss her on these special days. April 13 is the “Tamil New Year” (we are Tamilians) – and we’ll feel the absence of my Mom more than ever.

    We never get over the people we love, who leave before their time, But life must go on, and we must smile for them, because that’s what they would want.

    With my deepest love and hugs to you, Kim, Vidya
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      My Inner Chick
      April 12, 2012 at 7:44 am


      Your words, kindness, & compassion always move me….

      I shall be thinking and praying for your sweet mama & YOU on April 15.

      I know you understand more than others about the pain of mourning…

      Sending you warm hugs and many kisses upon your lovely cheek.

      Xxx <3
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    April 11, 2012 at 10:16 pm

    Happy Birthday to your beautiful sister. I know she is celebrating and looking in on you, wherever she is.
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    April 11, 2012 at 10:49 pm

    Happy Birthday, Kay. You come alive for me through your sister’s words. I feel your spirit, your light and I pray you look after your sister always. She loves you dearly and her life will never be the same without you.
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      My Inner Chick
      April 12, 2012 at 7:46 am

      Dear Monica,
      As long as I have breath inside my body, Kay will be alive & her story will be told.

      I shall never release her.

      Love flowing to you. <3 Xxxx
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    Mandy - The Complete Cook Book
    April 11, 2012 at 11:20 pm

    Happy Birthday Kay! Kim, we will toast in Kay’s honour this evening. I know that on special days like this that she is holding you all wrapped up in a warm hug waiting to welcome you all home.
    Love, love, love, always,
    🙂 Mandy xo
    PS. Beautiful video!
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      My Inner Chick
      April 12, 2012 at 7:47 am

      I love when you visit me.

      I love that you will be toasting Kay on her special day.

      Many Kisses for you in South Africa…..and warm hugs for the fur balls. Xxx
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    Lorraine @ Not Quite Nigella
    April 12, 2012 at 12:32 am

    That is just beautiful Kim. Thinking of you on this very special day xxx
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    April 12, 2012 at 12:35 am

    It mustn’t be easy for you at this time, but you have to be strong and keep the beautiful memory of her in your heart!
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    Alison@Mama Wants This
    April 12, 2012 at 1:03 am

    Happy Birthday Kay. Loved the video, Kim. Thinking of you. xoxo
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    Hotly Spiced
    April 12, 2012 at 4:41 am

    Happy birthday to your beautiful sister, Kay. What a wonderful tribute Kim. That was extremely moving yet wonderful. All the best to you on this difficult day xx
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    April 12, 2012 at 4:53 am

    I love this poem so much, it is one dear to my heart.
    The video is a beautiful gift to Kay, I imagine this day is tough for you and your loved ones Kim, may you find peace in your love for Kay always.
    Much love and a bunch of kisses!
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      My Inner Chick
      April 12, 2012 at 7:50 am


      Kay and I loved that poem sooo much.

      I told her I’d read it at her funeral & she told me she’d read it at my funeral.

      Well, you know the rest of the story.

      <3 Xxx
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    Wild Child Mama
    April 12, 2012 at 7:29 am

    Happy Birthday Kay!!
    This video is absolutely beautiful. Your love for Kay is so strong and powerful that I can’t help but to love her too. And I feel your loss and struggle and joy for her so intensely that I realize the gift of life. I think about all the silly things I argue about with my sister and feel grateful for them. Thank you. And I am praying for you both:))
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    Lady Fi
    April 12, 2012 at 9:15 am

    Oh, such a beautiful video. It brought tears to my eyes.
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    London Caller
    April 12, 2012 at 1:00 pm

    Happy birthday, Kay!
    I am sure she’s having a great time up there. 🙂
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    April 12, 2012 at 2:51 pm

    Sending you a super big virtual hug!
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    April 13, 2012 at 12:26 am

    What a very touching video! I know that Kay will be proud of this.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 13, 2012 at 7:07 am

      Thank You, Andrei <3

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    April 13, 2012 at 7:31 am

    The poem and video are perfect, as is your love for your beautiful sister. Sending you a hug.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 13, 2012 at 7:50 am

      –Thank you, Sandra.

      Yes. I love this video, too. <3

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    April 13, 2012 at 7:34 am

    A beautiful collage of photos, Kim. Kay is smiling at you now but with a sister like you, I imagine she always will.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 13, 2012 at 7:50 am

      one day-
      we shall be together smiling <3


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    April 13, 2012 at 8:50 am

    I love that poem, perfect gift to send to the heavens. Love to you and your angel sister who am certain is smiling down on you every day.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 13, 2012 at 10:23 am

      –The poem by ee cummings is quite significant to Kay and I…

      We both said that we would read it at one another’s funeral…

      I ended up reading it at hers.


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    April 13, 2012 at 9:42 am

    Kim, whenever i am reading one of your posts about Kay, I feel closer to her. I feel that I know her, maybe more than I know you. I looked at her photos and I see the beauty in her, the physical beauty, and the spiritual beauty. when I came to your blog first time, it was too late for me to know Kate, but I have met her through your words, and got to know her through your posts. I know that she is Love. The relationship you shared is only a proof of the great connection you had, and that is more than perfect. I can also see that in you. If I say that I know her even more than I know you, it’s because I also know what she endured in her life, what might have been her thoughts, her pain, her hopes. believe me I know her, and since I do, I know that she is shining love now from where she is, and she is doing all she can to comfort you and help you forgive and only remember the beauty you have shared. Love you <3
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 13, 2012 at 10:25 am

      your words are beautiful, passionate, & heartbreaking…

      I love you, too..
      .from Minnesota all the way to Lebanon. Xx

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    Sandy Webb
    April 13, 2012 at 12:09 pm

    I know Kay was smiling down on you celebrating her birthday.
    Special hugs and kisses for you Kim!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 13, 2012 at 12:13 pm

      –Thank You, Sandy,
      I am sure you understand better than most. <3 Kisses from MN.

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    April 13, 2012 at 3:42 pm

    And once again Kim, my mascara is a mess…The video is so well put together, and the ee cumings poem is perfection.
    Again, how can I say how deeply sorry I am for your loss. I just am.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 13, 2012 at 5:53 pm

      Sandra–The ee cummings poem was quite significant to Kay and I…..

      I read it at her funeral….. Xx

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    Unknown Mami
    April 13, 2012 at 4:59 pm

    I loved that poem. I love you. I love Kay. It is my wish that Kay’s story will help others.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 13, 2012 at 5:54 pm

      And I love you, too. <3

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    Barbara @ Barbara Bakes
    April 13, 2012 at 6:06 pm

    Happy Birthday to your beautiful sister. What a beautiful video/love letter to her. Good luck with the walk.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 13, 2012 at 7:02 pm

      –thanks for visiting, Barbara <3 X

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    April 14, 2012 at 4:05 am

    The way you keep her alive in your memory and through your Blog always fills me with awe. God bless you for it
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    Theresa Sonoda
    April 14, 2012 at 9:14 am

    Hi Kim. Sorry late checking in. A belated Happy Birthday to Kay as well. We all love her because of you and your story and support of your sister. We all love you because…..well, of YOU. You are amazing and so real. Keep it real. And keep writing.
    XOXOs….LOTS of em!
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      My Inner Chick
      April 14, 2012 at 9:50 am

      “Love means never having to say you’re sorry,”

      Do you know which movie that is from?

      Love to you, dear, Terri. <3 xxx
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    Sisterhood of the Sensible Moms
    April 14, 2012 at 7:18 pm

    So sorry you had to write this lovely poem for your sister. Beautiful writing, Erin

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 15, 2012 at 2:05 pm

      Thank You, Erin <3

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    Kelly @ Inspired Edibles
    April 15, 2012 at 5:35 pm

    Happy Birthday to beautiful Kay ~ you witness her love and light daily Kim through your words and the exploration of your heart… xo
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    Jessica Drake
    April 16, 2012 at 1:40 am

    Belated happy birthday Kay! You’ll never be forgotten. That video is very heart-warming. It made me wanna cry. She’s a wonderful woman.
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    April 16, 2012 at 5:51 am

    Sorry to have missed her birthday. But during my conference I mentioned you and her and how the 2 of you have touched my life. All my love. xoxo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 16, 2012 at 6:31 am

      ~~~So beautiful, Adriana.

      You are making me cry. ( again )

      I Thank God for “You.” <3

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    Lady E
    April 23, 2012 at 3:04 am

    In a very small way, she lives on in our hearts thanks to you now…
    🙂 xxx
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 23, 2012 at 5:40 am

      Always in my heart.

      Forever. FOREVER. x

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