In Memory of Kay



says you can put truth in the grave but it won’t stay there.”
–[Clarence W. Hall]


~ I believe in Resurrection.

Not the kind of Resurrection where I come
back as Queen of England, Lady Gaga, or an African cat

But the kind of Resurrection where, when I
exhale my last breath, quite beautifully, delightfully–

I’m lying on a bed of creamy lilies, lemony
tulips, & mandarin poppies.

The kind of Resurrection where gold sun glitters
all day long

and pearl moon is never sliced in half.

In my Resurrection, everything will be

whole, unbroken, uninterrupted.

Sidewalks will be carved in decedent dark

and the tongues of King David, Lord Byron,
& Emily Dickenson

will flow with sweet verse all thru the

I believe in the kind of Resurrection where
lions purr me to sleep,

rivers whisper prayers, and valleys are benedictions.

In my Resurrection, God will grasp my hand
firmly, unfalteringly.


He will lead me beside the still


He will make me lie down in
green pastures.


He will restore my soul.


At Last.


He will declare,  “Your Sister is waiting for you over there,
my dear.”


When I look where he is pointing,
I see Kay.




Smiling with brilliant pink


I  run to her.


I run run run.


I kiss her all over her cheeks.


Our hair interlaces like brown roots.


And  then we fall into the bed of creamy lilies,
lemony tulips, & mandarin poppies talking all night long.


We have so much to tell one

SOoooo  Much Love to Give….


——Dear Reader,  what will your Paradise/ Resurrection look like?    Do you think there will be chocolate there?!


—My sister, Kay, was murdered by Mike Peterson on May 26, 2010.   The world darkened & shook.   But …. We shall be united once again.—


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    nan @ lbddiaries
    April 4, 2012 at 4:58 pm

    This was MOST excellent! Of course there has to be chocolate there – there is the Marriage Feast of the Lamb and what is a feast without chocolate, lobster, melted butter and no calories!??? I loved this post – it was truly wonderful. You have such a gift with words. I know when you see Kay, you will know that she’s been joy-filled and happy since she changed addresses – and waiting for you! What a reunion that will be… with chocolate, to boot!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 6, 2012 at 6:39 am

      I sooo much look forward to that day I see Kay face to face once again..

      Just thinking about it gives me goose bumps.

      Love flowing to you. Happy Easter. Xx

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    The Writing Goddess
    April 4, 2012 at 5:16 pm

    If there ain’t chocolate, I ain’t goin’.

    Actually, I kind of think of it like that Albert Brooks movie, Defending Your Life. Maybe you move on to Paradise/Heaven, maybe you return to earth to learn a few more lessons.

    In any event, I am sure where you go, Kay will be waiting for you. And chocolate. Hugs.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 6, 2012 at 6:41 am

      I don’t want to learn any more lessons!!!!!

      I’ve learned enough and it hurts like HEeeeLL.

      Chocolate? Hell, Yes.

      Thanks for stopping by my mourning page, dear. Xx

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    April 4, 2012 at 5:20 pm

    That was beautiful, Kim! It took my breath away! xoxo

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    ed pilolla
    April 4, 2012 at 5:23 pm

    there will be love and beauty and delight, in what way we cannot comprehend. all those things and souls that make us whole will greet us, as we will do the same for others. this is what i hope. thanks for the inspiring post.
    the pearl moon will never be sliced in half. ah, that’s so lovely.
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      My Inner Chick
      April 6, 2012 at 9:25 am

      i look forward to be greeted & hugged by all of those beautiful souls <3
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    April 4, 2012 at 5:34 pm

    wow- this was very beautiful. It’s my kind of resurrection for sure. As long as there is a chocolate and some flowers, I’m good. Thank you for writing this. Did you know there is a beautiful full moon outside tonight? Take a look.
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      My Inner Chick
      April 6, 2012 at 9:26 am

      I love your perspective on life.

      Excuse me… while I go look at the moon <3
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    April 4, 2012 at 5:57 pm

    Wow – what a beautiful picture you painted with your words. I believe, too…and I couldn’t have said it any better! SO amazingly beautiful, Kim. This ones pure poetry!
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    Wild Child Mama
    April 4, 2012 at 6:24 pm

    There will be chocolate and ice cream and cake and cheese. Because I can’t eat cheese or wheat or dairy or sugar anymore. My resurrection will involve lots of eating. And basking in the sun. And Jesus. And all the angels that have watched over me. And naps. Lots of naps. And being with my family and friends. And, because of the power of your words and the tears that come to my eyes when I read your blog, I believe I will see you with your sister. That would be heavenly. Truly.
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      My Inner Chick
      April 6, 2012 at 9:28 am

      I looooooooooooove your Resurrection.

      We can eat all we want and not gain weight <3

      """I WILL BE""" with my sister….there is no doubt about that. xxxx
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    April 4, 2012 at 6:25 pm

    Lovely visual, Kim. I could see all of it and it made me smile. You have me imagining now. I can see those things we love being there; our loved ones and yes, chocolate.
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    April 4, 2012 at 6:54 pm

    We see what we want- who we to see in that moment when we pass from this life to the next. Your sister will be there for you no doubt as will my children be there for me.

    I was with my grandmother in her last moments, and people came to her on her last night, she had a party with people who had past before her—they came for her! There was music and dancing and a parade! How glorious was that!
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    April 4, 2012 at 7:10 pm

    There will be chocolate, vodka and pound cake. All with no calories.
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    Jann Huizenga
    April 4, 2012 at 7:58 pm

    Falling into the flowers to talk and talk with your sister–what a precious and beautiful image for the end of the poem! I loved this, Kim.
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    April 4, 2012 at 8:29 pm

    Such wondrous poetry, Kim. I especially love these lines:

    “I’m lying on a bed of creamy lilies, lemony
    tulips, & mandarin poppies.

    The kind of Resurrection where gold sun glitters
    all day long

    and pearl moon is never sliced in half.”

    So vibrant, and visual. I hope it all comes true for you–some day–and that you’ll see Kay again.
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      My Inner Chick
      April 6, 2012 at 9:31 am

      It Will Come True…

      Love when you come to my Mourning pages, Dear. Xxx
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    Corinne Rodrigues
    April 4, 2012 at 8:40 pm

    This is so filled with hope, love and exquisite imagery, Kim. Yes, I do believe in resurrection – a place of love and endless time with our loved one. And of course there will be chocolate and ice-cream – and you know the best part? It won’t go to our hips! 😉
    Hoping with you, lovely Kim! ♥
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      My Inner Chick
      April 6, 2012 at 9:32 am

      Ice Cream. Chocolate. Endless Love.

      & Sisters!!!

      Xxx Kiss for you.
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    April 4, 2012 at 8:54 pm

    I don’t know about Resurrection, but I do know what my purest happiness would be. I can’t mention it because it won’t come true if I do!!

    Lots of champagne and chocolate will also be involved, as well as a Mercedes Benz and Range Rover.

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      My Inner Chick
      April 6, 2012 at 9:33 am

      I think I know what your happiest moment would be already <3

      As far as material things; I don't give a damn.

      I just want my loved ones, KAY, & lots of Chocolate. Xxxx
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    Impulsive Addict
    April 4, 2012 at 8:57 pm

    That was beautiful. Your adjectives are perfect. I’m not sure what it will look like but I’m hoping for chocolate. YUM!

    PS. Can I just tell you that I wanna have sex with Christian Grey? I can NOT put this 3rd book down which is why I’m just now visiting your page!!!!

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      My Inner Chick
      April 6, 2012 at 9:34 am

      Shame on you, Naughty Girl.

      I’m telling your mama about you and Christian. Ha Haaaaaaa xx
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    Vidya Sury
    April 4, 2012 at 10:22 pm

    So very beautiful as always. I can visualize as I read. And yes, mine will have dark chocolate. I dream of a place where my Mom is there, my family surrounds us, there are lots of children and there’s enough of everything for everyone. No sadness, no sorrow. Only happy feelings within and without. Good health.

    AND. All my virtual friends. All of us hugging each other and laughing together.

    I hope I don’t have to wait that long to meet you. 🙂

    Love you, Kim. You’re so gorgeous inside and outside. Hugs!
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      My Inner Chick
      April 6, 2012 at 9:35 am

      Do you want to Skype sometime?

      I’d love to visit you, dearest. Xxx
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    Alison@Mama Wants This
    April 4, 2012 at 10:25 pm

    I’ve never thought about Resurrection, but I like your version.
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    April 4, 2012 at 10:25 pm

    Beautiful…and when I get there, all my questions will be answered.
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    Mandy - The Complete Cook Book
    April 5, 2012 at 12:41 am

    I declare this to be the most beautiful read of the entire year – nothing can top this dear Kim – so much peace, love and light in these words!
    Have a beautiful day.
    🙂 Mandy
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      My Inner Chick
      April 6, 2012 at 9:37 am

      Sweet, Mandy,

      I adore your HUGE heart & encouragement. Xx

      Happy Easter (Resurrection)
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    Elephant's Child
    April 5, 2012 at 2:56 am

    Of course there will be chocolate. It wouldn’t be Paradise without it. And there will be red wine, and cats both big and small. And gardens (without weeds) and lakes, rivers, the ocean. All the books I’ve never read and all of those I have read and loved.
    And, as you know, there will be the special people without whom our lives cannot be complete.
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      My Inner Chick
      April 6, 2012 at 9:38 am

      Dear, Elephant.

      I adore your paradise.

      Cats! Yes, Lots of lions, panthers, kittens, tigers, ……

      Xxx have a nice Easter. <3
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    April 5, 2012 at 3:23 am

    Your vision is extraordinary.
    Felt like I was laying around with you.
    Hmmm…my resurrection….sun….flowers…green grass…mountains…lots of trees…and my grandparents. Heck I want to meet my entire family…who needs ancestry dot com? Hee hee
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      My Inner Chick
      April 6, 2012 at 9:39 am

      Life hurts like HELL…

      I look forward to laying in the flowers <3 xxxx
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    Heal Now and Forever
    April 5, 2012 at 3:28 am

    I believe it so fullly that this will come to pass.

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    April 5, 2012 at 4:35 am

    Oh, goodness. Tears on that one.

    I’m borrowing your dark chocolate sidewalks for my Resurrection, Kim, which also includes an abundance of hydrangea and lilies of the valley, plus:
    -my Garmy working in her favorite place (the kitchen), laughing away with Garmpy, Uncle John and Auntie Martha, and my mother’s parents, who both died when my Mom was barely a teenager
    -Grandma and Grandpa Gregg, and Uncle Albert, Aunt Cecilia, and Aunt Philippa gathered in Grandma’s living room, talking and laughing
    -my friend Holly sitting at a campfire with John Denver and Jim Croce, the three of them strumming their guitars and singing – perhaps joined by Joni Mitchell
    -Gilbert and Sullivan gathering anyone interested (ME!) to sing through all of their operettas
    -a long lunch with Jesus, at which we discuss everything under the sun

    I have such faith that this will be, when the time comes. xoxo

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      My Inner Chick
      April 6, 2012 at 9:41 am

      Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh, Ellen…

      you must write your own blog on your Resurrection.


      A LOooong lunch w/ Jesus.

      I SOoooo love that. Xxxxx
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    April 5, 2012 at 5:02 am

    Just beautiful Kim….chocolate and renuniting with our loves ones forever. It doesn’t ever get better than that……
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    Lady Fi
    April 5, 2012 at 6:15 am

    You’ve just described heaven! But Oscar will have to be there too.
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    April 5, 2012 at 7:31 am

    Awesome,you made me cry. You are so very talented. I believe Kay is waiting for you and yes there will be chocolate, and flowers, sunshine, rainbows and fluffy white clouds
    And puppies and no worries no sadness no pain. Just peace.
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    April 5, 2012 at 8:44 am

    It will be so nice, eat all the chocolate you want and never gain weight(Wow). But better yet to be
    reunited with all our love ones. you couldn’t of put more beautifully Kim.
    Love You

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      My Inner Chick
      April 6, 2012 at 9:44 am

      I love you more than all the chocolate fountains and panthers in the world.

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    April 5, 2012 at 10:14 am

    You will see your sister in the Kingdom of Heaven. There is no doubt.
    I do like that little touch about the chocolate though. I’m definitely throwing that detail into my mental image too.
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      My Inner Chick
      April 6, 2012 at 9:45 am

      Looooove when you visit my Mourning/ Morning pages. <3 Xxxx
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    April 5, 2012 at 10:36 am

    I would like to go with you. Lilies, tulips and poppies. Sign me up. Let’s add lilacs in the mix and I’ll sign the paperwork.

    I believe that everything will be peaceful and full of happiness. Meeting with family and friends who have passed along the years. Catching up over a bottle of wine. Pure bliss.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 6, 2012 at 1:23 pm

      Some day, I shall see you there <3 Xxx

      What Peace that will be….

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    Lorraine @ Not Quite Nigella
    April 5, 2012 at 10:37 pm

    There is absolutely chocolate there Kim! Rivers of the stuff if I have a say in it. Happy Easter lovely one! xxx
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 6, 2012 at 1:24 pm

      you know what?

      Perhaps you will be the one making the silky chocolate desserts up there! <3 xxx

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    Ariana Lemarr
    April 6, 2012 at 5:53 am

    I do believe in resurrection. And the truth which is as bright as the sun cannot be hidden anywhere, even the clouds need to parse away to give way to it. The truth always triumph and in the name of God we always try walk on the path of truth. Amen.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 6, 2012 at 1:25 pm

      And I say (((( AMEN )))) as well.


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    April 6, 2012 at 11:02 am

    love you.
    Love this blog

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 6, 2012 at 1:25 pm

      Love you more, Africa. Xx <3

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    Theresa Sonoda
    April 6, 2012 at 4:15 pm

    Kim, that was lovely! What beautiful thoughts run around in your head. And your heart? Must be big as Texas. I love how you “feel” life. Whether it’s love or pain, you feel it to the fullest. You are genuine, and that is the purest of compliments.
    Much love, my friend.
    P.S. My resurrection would have to involve chocolate, too. Milky, creamy, yummy chocolate. Ummm.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 7, 2012 at 8:27 am


      Chocolate. WIne. Sisters. Family. Books. Poets. Love.
      Love. Love.

      And YOU <3

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    April 7, 2012 at 10:19 am

    Love You!

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 7, 2012 at 12:57 pm

      Love you Back Xx

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    Hotly Spiced
    April 9, 2012 at 12:32 am

    That is so tragic about your sister, Kay. I am so sorry for you and for her and for her children. Senseless crime. Your loss is beyond comprehension. Wonderful though that through your blog you are keeping Kay very present in everyone’s lives. Well done!
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    April 11, 2012 at 7:29 pm

    Kimmy your beautiful words saturate my senses! Like Picasso painted You paint with words so eloquently you can hear, taste, feel, see and smell them.
    For myself I’m looking forward to joining all my loved ones in paradise; family and friends and pets! Love you!! K

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    April 19, 2012 at 2:53 am

    Our life is full of unexpected things that we never thought it could be… We need to become optimistic and have a positive thought in our life to get over of those tragedy we been so through….
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    November 11, 2012 at 6:03 am

    think that is the best article thet i have read
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