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Don’t Stop Believing


–This week,  two
people unsubscribed to my blog.


My initial thought was:


~O, My, what am I doing wrong?  Is my blog too sad, too monotonous. Do I say
“fuck” too much, lament too much, weep too much?  Am I good enough?~


All of this negativity & yuckiness gushed thru my head in

one. solitary. moment.


One  moment is a heeeeell
of a long time when one is feeling profusely inadequate.


Seriously…60 strait seconds of second guessing my beautiful,
brilliant self.


This sensation feels something like being selected last in
gym class for dodge ball.


Or  not being excepted
into the popular crowd with all the pretty bitches.


Or not being thin enough to join the cheerleading club.


So what does a girl like this do?


She lights up a joint in the back of Denfeld School
to get high.


She smokes Marlboros in the bathroom while she skips economics,
math, and geography.


… But she NEVER
skips English class.


No.  Never.


She paints her eyes deep charcoal like Joan Jet.


She  becomes a naughty
girl like that dude from the Breakfast Club.


She acts as if she doesn’t care.


But she does.


She behaves foolishly.


But she’s not.


She writes poetry


… masses & masses of poetry.


Pages and pages of Platholian poetry.


Until she is vacant of words and metaphor and imagery.


In one minute…


all of those familiar feelings of the past pouring, flowing…


rising to the top
like curdled cream.


Interesting how that happens.   Isn’t it?


I mean, how our past comes up at the most unexpected times.


The difference being now when she looks back–


Those days were the greatest experiences in her life-


And she wouldn’t change one. single. thing.


Not a thing—


Except perhaps,  her
grade point average!

Readers,   would you change
anything about your past?  Are you
betterpink lips now because of  your experiences (good or bad) ?

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  • Reply
    February 27, 2012 at 4:38 pm

    I believe i did the best i could in the past. I have done mistakes for sure, but I don’t regret anything i did. There are a lot of things that i don’t like about myself, but if i wish them differently, i wouldn’t be “me” anymore.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 2:57 pm

      to be quite honest…My ONE & ONLY regret is not finding Kay a safe house away from her murderer. This is my ONLY regret in my life.

      Xxx Kiss

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    February 27, 2012 at 4:56 pm

    You’re the popular crowd in my book.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 2:58 pm

      Does that mean you don’t mind Goth Chicks? Just kidding. Love Ya.

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    Impulsive Addict
    February 27, 2012 at 4:57 pm

    Hell no I wouldn’t change anything about my past! It’s brought me to where I am today! It made me stronger and gave me character! 😉 And it was super fun!!!!

    Screw the bitches that quit following you. If I cried ever time that happened to me, I’d be crying every day. I’m not for everyone and that’s probably a good thing. You keep doing your thing, girl!

    Love love!!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 2:59 pm


      They probably stopped following me cause I’m the bitch!!

      Oh, well, can’t please eveybody, Can we?

      Love. Xx

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    February 27, 2012 at 5:01 pm

    You, my friend, are a shitstorm of awesomeness. (Trust me, I know : I was the popular cheerleader smoking the Marlboros before getting high.) 🙂

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:00 pm

      ***shitstorm of awesomeness***

      I shall steal that!!

      Tina, You were a Cheerleader? Damn YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!! xxxxx

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    February 27, 2012 at 5:45 pm

    Sexy Girl:)

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:01 pm

      –Sexy & Dirty.

      I learned it from YOU :)) Xx

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    February 27, 2012 at 5:54 pm

    So much of your writing aims at the very heart of me, my dearest. 🙂 NEVER stop believing. You are awesome. Anyone who thinks otherwise. . .well. . .you know how I feel about THAT.


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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:02 pm

      I wonder why I love you. You. Get. Me. Xxxx Love.

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    Beverly Diehl
    February 27, 2012 at 6:01 pm

    You know, the stupidest things I have done in my life – sex without protection, accepting the wrong jobs, being a bit too blunt (or too subtle, seems I’m usually erring in some way), the time those four guys came over and… *ahem* never mind.

    Anyway, I’ve learned from *everything* in my life, even what seemed at the time to be my biggest mistakes.

    So, I wouldn’t undo them, not at all.

    As far as subscribers, and unsubscribers – I am *trying* very hard not to get hung up on the numbers. With the Google Friends connect feature, and the Networked Blogs feature, there isn’t any way to have the boxes – which I do want to have, to give everyone maximum subscription opportunity – without the numbers. *sigh*

    The count goes up a few, the count goes down a few. I tell myself it has nothing to do with high school, but there’s always that pang when I see the number has dropped, no matter what.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:06 pm

      ~~~~the time those four guys came over and… *ahem* never mind.~~~


      Beverly, I agree about the hits, subscribers, etc…. I usually never look…but I recieved these unsubscribers by email!!!! (((Sigh)))

      The thing is, I write for me. I always have, so this has absolutely no weight w/ me…ya know.

      This blog is dedicated to Kay. This is the main focus.

      We cannot please ALL people All the time.

      Anyhow. You crack me up Xxx Love

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    February 27, 2012 at 6:29 pm

    I had to go through yesterday to get to today so its all good. At the end of the day the subscribers we have are the ones we were meant to. No sweat no worry.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:08 pm

      I agree. Absolutely.

      I have one regret in my life…And that is NOT protecting my sister…

      That’s It. that’s all. The rest made me into who I am now. xxx

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    February 27, 2012 at 6:54 pm

    We just can’t change the past. We bloggers are all full of ourselves and then get bent out of shape when someone doesn’t like us for something we wrote. We need our egos stroked. I think you wrote about that once before. So a few people don’t like you or don’t like something you did or wrote- you can’t please everyone. Now if all of your readers unsubscribed, you would know you had seriously f%$&ed up. Keep doing what you are doing- no regrets. No one is perfect and that’s the best thing about us humans. Bloggers are flawed just like everyone else but we are willing to put ourselves and our egos out there for everyone to see. Many wouldn’t dare.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:11 pm

      I am not full of myself.

      I wrote this blog to express how the past comes up into our present! What makes us who we are today.

      I don’t give a shit who likes me & that’s the truth.

      Using the unsubscibers as my prompt was a great way to bring up my past experiences in school.

      That’s all!!

      This blog is for Kay. This blog is dedicated to Kay.

      Love love Love..xx

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    February 27, 2012 at 7:05 pm

    I don’t regret a single thing. BTW I love that picture.

    I already miss you (home). You are all my family.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:12 pm

      I reget ONE thing.

      Not saving Kay.

      that’s it.

      I love you. You Are family….Always. xx

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    Sandy Webb
    February 27, 2012 at 7:36 pm

    I don’t count my subscribers nor do I count my comments. I blog for me! It someone reads it and comments, then good, but I do it for me. You blog for yourself and for Kay. Who gives a flying fuck what anybody else thinks of it!

    Those that love you are still here….I am still here.

    Sandy xoxoxo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:13 pm

      I agree. I agree.

      I have ALWAYS written for me w/ out concern what others will think.

      I shall do this forever…

      Now, I write for Kay, as well.

      Luv Ya. Xx

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    February 27, 2012 at 8:06 pm

    Oh hell, I wouldn’t go back for the world. I was in so much pain back in the day. I did so much stupid stuff to myself and to others because I was in so much pain and didn’t realize it. I’ve learned that sometimes the pain we cause ourselves is far worse than the abuse itself. And because I hid my abuse from everyone I did horrible things to try to cope with the abuse it’s crazy.

    Screw those two yahoos who unfollowed you. Remember why you blog. You have helped me in so many ways you wouldn’t even know. You are helping yourself by writing pure raw emotions, but you are also helping many other people. I’m certain I’m not the only person who has been moved by your writing. Keep doing what you do. It’s your blog, do whatever your heart desires.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:15 pm


      ~~~ So Truuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuue.

      The only thing I’d change in my life is not finding Kay a safe place from her executioner.

      Love Ya. Xx

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    Alison@Mama Wants This
    February 27, 2012 at 8:19 pm

    You are awesome, and that is all.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:16 pm

      Well, isn’t that interesting…

      I feel the same way about you, Mama. Xx

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    Vidya Sury
    February 27, 2012 at 8:34 pm

    Oh bugger! They don’t know what they’re missing. Or it is possible they’ve subscribed to RSS feeds – some people like that. Me, I am the read in the email, then dress up and go visit the blog and comment sort.

    You are beautiful, gorgeous, compassionate and honest, Kim. You can bet your shapely self (I am thinking that lovely blue t-shirt you were wearing in your earlier post “Homage to my Hips”) that I am sure as heaven not going to stop believing in you.

    I remember the first time I got an email alert of someone unsubscribing and my eyes involuntarily filled with tears. Not that I have many email subscribers – I know that most people read my blog on facebook, or in their Google Readers. Still – it felt like a sort of – i hate to say the word, but “rejection”. And I immediately did dig up past instances when I felt bad, couldn’t talk about it and sweltered in my soul.

    Then I shook myself up and said “SO?” That does not make me any less awesome, right? For all you know, the unsubscribers never even really opened the email alerts, right? So do they really deserve to be on your list? Eh?

    😀 I wouldn’t change anything from my past – I deeply appreciate all the wonderful lessons I’ve learned. Experience is a great teacher.

    And you, Kim, are a warm hearted person – and you’ve got true fans you couldn’t push away if you wanted to. Somehow we’d sneak in and read your wonderful blog. So – scr*w those two quitters!

    You. Rock. Seriously.

    Hugs and love and kisses!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:21 pm

      Viday, I love Love love ya.

      My pity party about the unsubscribers lasted for exsactly *ONE MINUTE!!!*

      That’s it.

      I’m so over it. I am sure those individuals are Awesome people! Seriously.

      In the old days, I would have cried and cried! haaaaaaa.

      Love. Kiss. Affection. coming your way to India. Xx

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    Jann Huizenga
    February 27, 2012 at 8:38 pm

    Hey Kim–it’s the nature of blogs; readers come and go. Don’t take it personally! People can get overwhelmed with their life or the tide of social media, tweets, etc etc and sometimes just need to step away from it all. Be yourself, don’t worry about it, and keep on doing just what you’re doing in your blog. It’s perfect. xxxxxxxx (And never look at your subscriber list!)
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:26 pm

      Hey, Jann,
      I recieved these unsubscriptions thru email…it’s the only reason I know!

      I agree completely! I do not take this personally.

      I’m not reading some of the blogs i once did either! So i’m a hypocrite, too!!!

      I’m just using this as a prompt to bring up the past….you know?

      Love Love Love. Xxx

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    February 27, 2012 at 8:43 pm

    Honey, you look absolutely stunning in that photo! Gorgeous doesn’t even cover it. The past is the past, and everything made me what I am today, the good and bad. But, bottom line, I’m happy. I’m writing, I’m blogging, I’ve got my beautiful blogging friends, galore, and two loving children, to boot. So, I regret nothing, except perhaps, wish I had spent more time with my parents while they were still on earth. If I could change one thing, that’s what it would be.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:28 pm

      I agree, dearest.

      I regret NOTHING…..Except not helping my sister get away from her murderer.

      That is my only regret. My only mistake. xx love xxxx

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    Linda Medrano
    February 27, 2012 at 8:47 pm

    I wrote a post that was honest, but raw. People didn’t approve and they quit following me. Fuck em! Girl, just do what feels right to you. No, I should not have given my virginity to that guy when I was 15. I was in love. He wanted to brag about fucking me. No, I should not have married those three wrong men. But I did what I did and I’m not sorry. I should not have bet on that painted pony either, but I did and I won the jackpot. It just goes to show you, we do what we do. And you do it well, Darling.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:29 pm

      I adore your honesty.
      This is the reason , I’ll never leave you :))) XX

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    February 27, 2012 at 8:49 pm

    I would change EVERYTHING! I was such a daft and naive person. Never gave anything any thought. Made very immature decisions. My only concern was when was the next party. I blame alot of what I should have done on the situation I’m in now.

    If someone unsubscribes from my blog, that’s fine. I can’t please everyone. I guess my blog just isn’t to their liking or style. Oh well.

    I love our blog! Whoever unsubscribed is missing out. Their loss! (((HUGS)))
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:31 pm

      I agree.
      Nobody can please the entire world….I know I sure as helllll can’t.

      We’re in this together, Sister. Xxxx Love.

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    Elephant's Child
    February 27, 2012 at 8:56 pm

    I know exactly what you mean. Recently two people unsubscribed at my blog as well. Which made me feel sad and inadequate. Feeling I am too familiar with. So then I talked sternly to myself. Sometimes it gets to be toooooo much to stay on top of all the blogs that you subscribe to and you make some hard decisions and let someone go. Sometimes you read them for a bit and think ‘nah, not for me.’

    Which is OK. Who do I blog for? Me. And I have met some truly amazing people in the blogosphere and my life has been enriched as a result.

    Would I change things in my past? For sure. All the times I have hurt people. Can I do it? No, so I try hard not to do it again.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:32 pm

      **Which is OK. Who do I blog for? Me**

      Aint that the truth, E?

      So glad I met you, dear. Xx

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    Sue W
    February 27, 2012 at 9:22 pm

    Who would unsubscribe to your blog?!


    It takes you up and sometimes down, inside out and outside in, it’s sometimes funny and sometimes heart breaking, but never NEVER is it boring!

    I love it. I look forward to each and every one.

    Love you!

    Oh yeah, and if you post a few more pictures like this one the male segment of your blogging fan club is SURE to skyrocket!! Hot! Hot! Hot!

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:33 pm


      I need you around me all the time, Susie. Love you, too.Xxx

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    February 27, 2012 at 9:54 pm

    Just another reason I love you…my eyes were blackened just like yours …
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:34 pm

      I loooooooooove when somebody gets what I’ m saying.

      Thank you for that. Xxxx

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    adventures in alyssaland
    February 27, 2012 at 9:55 pm

    Great post. I feel the same way when someone unsubscribes.

    And you turned out great.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:35 pm

      Dear A.

      I have a feeling we both got over our unsubscribers Quickly!! :)) xxx


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    The Bipolar Diva
    February 27, 2012 at 10:57 pm

    The only thing I would change is allowing my daughter to date and to marry the man that gave her the infection that killed my grandson and if that wasn’t enough we found our he severely sexually abused my oldest grandson. Yes, that I would change.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:37 pm

      Dear DIva,
      Only if we could turn back the clocks. Only Only….

      My clock would stop exsactly 20 months ago….. when Kay was still here.

      Xxx Love.

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    February 27, 2012 at 11:09 pm

    This is just as gorgeous as you.
    I think that our past shapes us.
    Whether we like it or not.
    But the times that sucked? Make us stronger wiser and awesomer.
    You my friend are just that.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:37 pm


      I LOVE that word.

      That’s what you are, Kimberly. Xx

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    Corinne Rodrigues
    February 27, 2012 at 11:52 pm

    Kim – I’ve done several stupid things in the past that I shouldn’t have, but I know that they were all stepping stones to bring to where I am in my life at this point – so there are no regrets.
    About the email subscribers, I recently changed over to WP and in the process when my feed changed I had ten old posts going out to subscribers. I apologized and explained and had two people telling me that they didn’t mind at all and they could do with re-reading the stuff I wrote – two days later they unsubscribed. I wouldn’t have minded them unsubscribing but the ‘two-facedness’ of it was hilarious! Perhaps they thought I wouldn’t know? I just laughed to myself when later that day two new people signed on…..
    Your blog is wonderful – you have a very vibrant personality and most of all you are so good about responding to comments and commenting too…. So no worries lady, they’ll be coming by in hordes ♥
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:40 pm


      No worries, honey.

      I used my “Unsubscribers” as my prompt to bring up my past… That ‘s it.

      btw, so happy we stumbled upon one another’s path Xxx

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    February 28, 2012 at 12:07 am

    Better, absolutely! Aren’t we all? 🙂
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:40 pm

      I hope I’m better!!

      I know you Are!! Xx

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    Mandy - The Complete Cook Book
    February 28, 2012 at 12:54 am

    Kim, I want to scream out YES, if I could, I would but then maybe, just maybe I wouldn’t be the person I am today if I could go back and change things – guess I am just having one of those days!
    🙂 Mandy
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:41 pm


      Stay just as you are, cuz I LOVE IT!!!!!!!!!!! XXXX

      what does one do on a Tues. in S. Africa?

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    Lorraine @ Not Quite Nigella
    February 28, 2012 at 1:57 am

    Their loss my lovely Kim! I love your honesty and I know that if we were at school together, we’d be friends! xxx
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:42 pm

      But you would be a freaking cheerleader!!!!

      Damnnnn You.


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    Goodness and Grit
    February 28, 2012 at 3:25 am

    They were looking for porn.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:42 pm


      Shall I send them to you, dear??? XXx

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    February 28, 2012 at 4:08 am

    Changing the past, I don’t think it would benefit me. Without my past I would never be where I am now, I would not be who I am.
    Only one thing maybe, less time spent worrying cause it sucks!

    They decided to move on, bad for them, they miss a lot………….keep on inspiring me Kim! I love it!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:48 pm

      I agree. Our past makes us into who we are.

      Without it, we would be quite boring actually.


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    February 28, 2012 at 4:38 am

    For what it’s worth I love your blog and look forward to each and every post. I’ve had people stop following me and I just chalk it up to not posting enough recipes. Mine is a food blog but I really, really wish I could write like you. So talented. But I do have that moment of “what did I do wrong” that I get when I see my followers number go down. BUT then it goes back up again in the next few days. Basically, I just say “whatever” at this point!!!!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:49 pm



      That is the way to live, baby!!

      I like that. Xxx

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    February 28, 2012 at 5:24 am

    For all the pain and sorrow, I still would not change a single thing about my past, because it brought me to where – to whom – I am today; lessons learned.


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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:51 pm


      And I say: Amen!

      I’d change one thing Only.

      the rest made me into who I am now. I guess I’m okay.

      xx Kiss

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    Blond Duck
    February 28, 2012 at 5:37 am

    I’ve never been popular. But I figure it’s better to be interesting than ordinary. I mean Jersey Shore is popular…shuddar…
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:51 pm

      Great Insight!!! Jersey Shore SUCKSSSSsssss.


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    Wild Child Mama
    February 28, 2012 at 6:21 am

    I loved those days. being the rebel, the outcast. It’s what makes fascinating adults. People who speak up when others are too ashamed embarrassed. if you’re not pissing some people off then you’re not telling the truth! I love your voice. Reading your blog is powerful. Maybe those two people are pregnant and need to hide for a while. Or they dont want to transform from the pristine Claire into the Claire that has opened her mind. I don’t know. I just love your blog!!! And you are amazing!!!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:53 pm

      ~~~Wild Mama,

      And Your Strong Voice is what brought me to your blog, as well.

      We must write the truth. What else can we do? Xxxx

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        Wild Child Mama
        February 28, 2012 at 9:46 pm

        It’s all we can do. And it is the hardest thing I’ve done yet. Some people aren’t ready to face it. We are tough chicks!
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    February 28, 2012 at 7:07 am

    Well, there are many mornings I wake up and think to myself, “I really shouldn’t have eaten all of that!” (or sometimes – you know, that 3rd glass of red wine) – but other than that I don’t regret much. There are times when I wish I’d gone away to college instead of going to the local state university 5 miles from my house, but then I wouldn’t have gone to Europe for 3 months with a girlfriend, or gone to London for a semester of school, or met the women who are today still my closest friends, or met my husband (and had my wonderful kids with him) – so no, even that I don’t regret.

    And those reader who don’t like the “F” word? Well, fuck them! You don’t need ’em.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:55 pm

      I agree.
      I regret nothing, really, except things about Kay. Yes, I’d turn back the clock about those days….

      But I have NEVER regretted pressing PUBLISH :))) NEVER.

      Love Ya Xxx

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    Liz Minette
    February 28, 2012 at 7:09 am


    I love it! I LOVE IT! I was/am that girl too! & I wouldn’t change a thing now even tho I wanted to then. Badly. ‘Wouldn’t Take Nothing For My Journey Now’ – Maya Angelou. Okay, maybe I’ll have a few more friends & some fun. I love this post! Keep on! You are great!

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:57 pm

      Loooooove that book by Angelou. I’ve read everything by her…

      btw, perhaps we smoked a joint together outside of Denfeld High, Liz !!!


      Love love Love. Xx

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    February 28, 2012 at 8:37 am

    Yes, there are some things i would change in the past, but i know i can’t so i look to the future and
    try not to make the same mistakes.
    Love You

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 3:59 pm

      You. Are. A. Wise. Man. Daddy.

      I love You more than 12 tigers covered in the white fluffy snow of Kilimanjaro!!!


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    February 28, 2012 at 10:23 am

    All I can think about is “how do you know when people unsubscribe?”
    Don’t answer that.
    I don’t really want to know.
    It will just give me one more thing to obsess about that doesn’t really matter.
    So do me a HUGE favor and don’t tell me.
    No matter how many times I ask.
    Save me from myself.
    But seriously….
    how do you know?
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 4:01 pm

      I know, cuz they emailed me. Yeah, they did. Serious as shit.

      Was it you that unsubscribed, biatch?!!!!

      XXx KisssssSss

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    February 28, 2012 at 11:38 am

    Aw, that’s too bad about the 2 people who unsubscribed. Maybe it just wasn’t their cup of tea…how knows. You still have many loyal readers who enjoy your thoughts and words! But still….I know it leaves you feeling hurt and wondering what might have sparked their disinterest. I do the same thing when I lose followers.

    There are many things I think I would love to change but then again….those mistakes made me who I am today. I’m a smarter, stronger, more compassionate person because of what I’ve come from. I’ve learned from my mistakes, I guess you could say.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 4:04 pm

      I felt bad for about a MINUTE as I mentioned above…

      ….then I went on with my day.

      We cannot please eveybody…and I’d (((never change ))) how I write or my VOICE…or my style… or my content.

      Ya know?

      Xxx I have one regret..other than that, I’m quite happy with the choices I’ve made.

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    February 28, 2012 at 12:28 pm

    Hey, they’re crazy for unsubscribing! Don’t let it get to you. 🙂 I’d say I’m much better off now because of good AND bad experiences in the past. x
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 4:05 pm

      Our past brings us into the present…. I’m a better person now, as well.

      Xxx Love…

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    Stacy Uncorked
    February 28, 2012 at 1:03 pm

    I love this – I honestly believe that I’ve gone through everything I’ve gone through in my life for a reason…and that they’ve made me the person I am today – and I happen to like my ‘today’ self. 😉
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 4:06 pm

      ~~~~Brava, Stacy.

      You said it peeeerfectly. I love that you love yourself. For some people…this process takes a lifetime.

      Kiss From MN. Xx

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    Pure Complex
    February 28, 2012 at 4:06 pm

    You’re a great person.. and a wonderful blogger. But sometimes, we as bloggers grow apart. And that’s fine. But it doesn’t mean you aren’t a wonderful blogger.. because you are 🙂
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 4:07 pm

      Beautifully said, Kay. Xxx Really.

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    February 28, 2012 at 4:07 pm

    There is plenty I would like to change, but probably wouldn’t if I had the chance, because if I did, I wouldn’t be me….
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 28, 2012 at 4:09 pm

      So true, Sweets. Xx

      And you….are magical.

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    February 28, 2012 at 4:08 pm

    There is plenty I would like to change, but probably wouldn’t if I had the chance, because if I did, I wouldn’t be me….would i
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    February 28, 2012 at 5:22 pm

    I’m sure we think about it often, more than we should. I might have once a long long time ago, but at one point I crossed over some imaginary bridge of awareness and realized what is past is past and forever part of what is yet to come. The days piled behind me are part of me now and why, frankly, I am who I am and capable of doing what I do know. Yes some of past wasn’t fun.. there are dark days indeed, tears that filled the Nile, but would I truly want to change the past… No with the exception of the gene that determined the size of my feet. Beautiful, my sweet Pathonian,
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      My Inner Chick
      February 28, 2012 at 5:28 pm

      ~~~ Without the Past, there could really be no Present.

      Without experiences, we become Blahhhh. Booooring.

      I am much more empathetic because of my past!

      Thank Goodness! Xxx

      Love to you, dear, dear Brenda. BIg feet are in style. Didn’t you hear?
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    Nicholle Olores
    February 28, 2012 at 6:33 pm

    Hello Kim, your such an inspiration to me. I appreciate your great motivation in life. When we don’t stop believing we definitely reach the things we want in life.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 29, 2012 at 9:12 am

      Thanks Nicholle. X

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    February 28, 2012 at 11:17 pm

    Hi Kim! I’ve had people unsubscribe to my blog and I realize that I can’t please everyone…as much as I’d like to.

    As for changing the past. I can say that right now, I am happy. Really happy! If I changed the past – would I still be happy? I don’t know if it’s worth the risk.

    I’ll take my life the way it is…..a happy girl, who cooks and is subscribed to your blog.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 29, 2012 at 9:13 am

      I agree, Ann.

      I wouldn’t change one. single. thing. Xx

      Love your positive energy, sweets.

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    Twisted Domestic Goddess
    February 29, 2012 at 4:13 am

    I used to think about all the time how I could go back and change things until I realized this is my path in life and EVERY BIT of it counts. Pieces may not be fair by a long shot but it’s MY path and it has made me who I am today.

    Hugs to you dear friend!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 29, 2012 at 9:14 am

      –Yes, we are continually evolving, changing, learning.

      I would only change one thing from my past…

      but the rest made me into ME. Xx

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    February 29, 2012 at 5:10 am

    I wouldn’t change anything. The past brought me to this point in my life, and I like it.

    But oh, I know that deflated feeling! For what it’s worth, I think your blog is fabulous!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 29, 2012 at 9:16 am


      I was only using the “unsubscribers” as a bit of a prompt to bring up those feelings from one’s past.

      I woudln’t change a thing about my blog or posts!! Nope.

      Love your blog 2. x

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    Adriana Iris
    February 29, 2012 at 8:04 am

    I got 3 unsubscribe in the past couple of days. It happens. You keep doing what you are doing =)
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 29, 2012 at 9:16 am

      –I agree.

      People come and go…

      I’ve done the same thing w/ some blogs.

      xx Love Love Love

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    Pat Scattergood
    February 29, 2012 at 8:19 am

    You’re way more than good enough. Keep writing.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 29, 2012 at 9:17 am


      Always. I shall NEVER STOP!

      xX kISSSESS

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    Theresa Sonoda
    February 29, 2012 at 9:49 am

    Hi sweet Kim. First of all, I heart you and your blog! In fact, I need a fix regularly. Kinda like the joint I used to smoke in school, same as you. And? I NEVER skipped English either.
    If I had a chance, YES, I would change several things about my life. Things I did and decisions I made that were pure stupidity. I would change them. However? I cannot, so I just keep on keeping on, ya know? Nowadays I like me just the way I am. It helps me get through and make better choices. I take a lot better care of myself than I ever did before. Not sure why, but I know it has something to do with writing.

    LOVE LOVE LOVE you, my friend!
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      My Inner Chick
      February 29, 2012 at 9:54 am

      sweet, terri,

      i’d not change
      one. thing.

      Not one single thing..

      except to find a safe house for kay…away from her abuser & murderer.

      Yes. I regret this immensely.

      Love youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu. Xxx
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    Kristy @PampersandPinot
    February 29, 2012 at 12:56 pm

    I remember when I first started blogging, some people would talk about how they were offended when they lost followers. I thought – oh how awful, I bet I’l feel the same way. Then, it happened here and there, and it actually didn’t bother me very much. Kind of a shrug of shoulders and meh. Whatever! We’re still fucking rockin’ chicks! 🙂
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 29, 2012 at 1:19 pm

      –I agree.

      can’t please all the people all the time.

      You Rock !! XX

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    Dangerous Linda
    February 29, 2012 at 2:10 pm

    lovely, lovely, lovely! you make me tear-up and smile at the same time!

    glad i found you — looking forward to more…

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 29, 2012 at 3:42 pm

      Dear Dangerous,
      And I shall come visit you, too ! Xx

      I like Daaaaangerous!

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    February 29, 2012 at 3:02 pm

    Hot mama in that picture!

    My advice (and feel free to disregard it) is to not pay attention to who unsubscribes to your blog. They aren’t worth the time or the worry.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 29, 2012 at 3:40 pm

      –I absolutley agree, Jessica.

      Xx Kissss

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    February 29, 2012 at 3:31 pm

    Actually, I won’t change anything in my past, all the mistakes are important as well, this complex process lead me to the point where I am now.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 29, 2012 at 3:40 pm

      Amen, Sistah. Xx

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    February 29, 2012 at 4:13 pm

    I would change one thing. If I knew what I know now, I would have said, I don’t instead of “I do.” But I do know I am one of the lucky ones and I have learned so much about human behaviour. Much more than is ever possible at university.

    In some ways I can’t really regret it because it also made me who I am today and I kind of like this girl/woman/sister-friend I have become. She may be naive still in some ways but she knows it and that’s really okay.

    Never doubt yourself! Stay true, stay you! Loving who you are, always!

    You have no idea how many times I have curled up in a ball and not even wanted to go on because of being treated like I am worthless by others (some family still try to do it, too) that’s how I got into this abusive marriage in the first place… it was just like home… hyper critical, exacting, blaming, gaming and mind-fucking… then, I’d read something you posted and the urge to live would surge up in me anew. Thank you, doll.

    And, as a brilliant writer friend of mine so eloquently puts it “Fuck’em All.” There, now I am bound to lose a couple of followers, too. LMAO Just couldn’t let you be in the spotlight alone, could I, LOL LOL xo

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      February 29, 2012 at 4:18 pm

      beauifully articulated…as only you can do :))

      (((Fuck em all!))))

      I likey.

      And I likey you, too.


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    nan @ lbddiaries
    March 1, 2012 at 12:10 am

    If I changed anything it might mean I wouldn’t have had the unbelievable honor of being Alpha Son’s mom and I might never have met Alpha Hubby because I might have changed something in the time space continuum. Those two? I could never have lived without them. Yes I am a better person but only because I was able to get past my past, get over the horror and hurt, and grow into a person who not only survived, but thrived. Would I have liked to have bypass some stuff – OH YEAH. But… there is that old time space continuum thing….
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      March 1, 2012 at 9:05 am

      –I so get it, Nan.

      You & Alpha are soulmates. Thank God you found somebody to treat you the way you should be treated. Always. Xxx Love Love.

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        nan @ lbddiaries
        March 1, 2012 at 10:13 am

        BTW I do understand the school thing, too. It is amazing how high school can dictate to a person’s entire life, isn’t it? A few years after, someone said, “You were so popular” and I thought, “Who are you talking about ’cause I dont’ thing so??” I wrote masses and masses of poetry in my early 20’s (and a few when I first married AH). I love rereading it now – so angst-driven (well, except the stuff to and about AH).
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          Kim Sisto-Robinson
          March 1, 2012 at 10:22 am

          those days made me more empathtic. I mean, I work w/ the naughty kids now! Haaa.. And I love the Goth girls! Haaa

          I met somebody from school recently and she said.

          “I can’t beleive Kim Sisto is talking to me”

          I said “WHY?”!

          SHe said “Cause I was scared of you!”

          I told her ” I am soooooooooooo Sorry.”

          Love ya, Nan.

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    March 1, 2012 at 7:43 am

    I felt the same way when I learned that one person “unliked” me on Facebook. And I was about to write about it. Brilliantly said my friend.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      March 1, 2012 at 9:06 am

      Write about it! It might be a good giggle. Xx

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    Lady E
    March 1, 2012 at 8:04 am

    Oh Kim, this little glimpse into your past is so touching…
    And I think we are all vulnerable in the same way you are. Don’t let anything blog readers do or say upset you, people are hard enough to fathom, and there are so many of us here loving your posts.
    Keep going regardless…
    As for my past, I don’t know what I would change. So many turns and decisions could be regretted, yet, what would be the point? Right now, at feel at peace with it all, and sooooo glad to have arrived where I am today.
    Big hugs !
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      March 1, 2012 at 9:07 am

      Lady E,

      You have come a long way….

      & I’m thrilled to be on the journey w/ you, dear. Xx

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    Lady Fi
    March 1, 2012 at 9:51 am

    You are you – in other words, totally FABULOUS!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      March 1, 2012 at 9:58 am

      –Thanks, Lady Fi.

      And You know, I feel the same about you !! Xx

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    (FL) Girl with a New Life
    March 1, 2012 at 11:28 am

    First of all, you are Faboo. LOVE your confidence.

    I also feel like adding, that not all the popular bitches were pretty.

    And not all the pretty ones were bitches.

    Just sayin. 🙂
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      March 1, 2012 at 11:37 am

      You. Are. Very. Wise!!!!

      Love it!! Xx

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    Kelly @ Inspired Edibles
    March 1, 2012 at 2:54 pm

    Right on Kim – Just keeping being you!

    “The dark thought, the shame, the malice, meet them at the door laughing, and invite them in. Be grateful for whoever comes, because each has been sent as a guide from beyond.”

    — Rumi

    Forget your perfect offering
    There is a crack in everything
    That’s how the light gets in

    — Leonard Cohen

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    March 1, 2012 at 3:00 pm

    You are one tan diva! I know how you feel when something like an unsubscriber happens. I had a “hater” this week on my Facebook page. It made me cry to my husband who just asked, “Is it that time of the month?” Ahhhh!!! You are awesome and perfect just like you are. You have much more that love and adore you than you have those who don’t want to follow your blog. Let them go. They are not worth you feeling sad over!
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      My Inner Chick
      March 1, 2012 at 3:11 pm

      you had a hater?

      How could anybody not loooove you!?

      I agree. After Kay, I let LOTS of things go.

      Life is tooo short.

      Xx kIss from MN.
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    March 1, 2012 at 7:03 pm

    Kim, I’m not even going to dwell on the insignificance of unsubscribing fools considering their role today is to serve as a blog prompt! ha! I am going to dwell on that photo of yours, mamacita! You rocking diva, you! You are GORGEOUS! Absolutely gorgeous! And dammit, that’s what I call a St. Tropez tan! Would I change anything from my past? You bet I would! I would have a lot more lovers, more adventures, more passionate trysts with Latin lovers, and I’d save more money so I could travel to Rome. I’d spend less on phone bills and instead, save up for a DSLR camera. I’d be less self-critical and kinder to nerds. I’d dance more, giggle more, and cry less when my first marriage failed. I’d take ballet classes, dance the tango, and sing in more places than just the shower. And I could go on and on! But instead, I will thank you for the opportunity to reminisce over all I would do if I could go back in time! Hugs and kisses for you, lady!

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      March 1, 2012 at 7:30 pm

      all I can say is “I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUUuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.”

      When we meet, we shall Dance, Laugh, & sip Wine together :))X

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    March 1, 2012 at 8:30 pm

    If I changed my past I would not be on the journey i a m today… So NO I would not change anything!
    Great post
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      March 1, 2012 at 9:20 pm

      You. Rock!!! X

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    March 1, 2012 at 9:56 pm

    I’d change lots! I wouldn’t change my grade point average though, because had it not been for my struggles, I’d never have felt such empathy for future generations. I’d never have become the child advocate I am. I’d have been a selfish nerd 🙁 Braggadocios and indifferent. And I wouldn’t have become a poet or writer, most likely. I’d have settled for just average. Mediocre. Normal.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      March 1, 2012 at 11:14 pm

      Our past makes us who we are…

      I’d woudn’t change anything…except one thing in my life…

      ….other than that, I’m still evolving.

      Always evolving.

      Xx thanks for visiting, Debra!! xx

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    March 2, 2012 at 1:56 am

    “Every time a door closes, another one opens.”
    Hey, just because it’s trite, just because it’s cliche, doesn’t mean it ain’t true.

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    March 2, 2012 at 12:54 pm

    First and foremost, you keep doing what you’re doing my Friend, and don’t let anyone make you second-guess yourself. We do that to ourselves enough, and don’t need anyone helping us along the route! 🙂

    I would not have changed anything about my past. Sure, I’ve made mistakes, but I’ve also earned some wonderful lessons from those mistakes, that I would probably not have learned otherwise. So all is good!

    Sending you wishes for a beautiful weekend!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      March 2, 2012 at 2:59 pm

      Sending you hugs, Lisa.

      Have a sweet weekend. Xx

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    March 3, 2012 at 11:13 am


    A bunch of people join you, and a few fall off. Doesn’t mean a thing. You are absolutely the same person you were, and still are, not because of them, but because of YOU.

    You rock, Kim!

    Oh, and if I may say so – My what big hair you had back in the day! 🙂
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      March 3, 2012 at 1:14 pm


      Do you love that big hair or not?! Very Jimmi Hendrix.

      Phil, you ROCKkkkk more than me. Xx

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    March 6, 2012 at 10:26 am

    You may have 2 people unsubscribed, but now you found one who subscribed to it.

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    beryl singleton bissell
    March 7, 2012 at 1:09 pm

    No wonder we love you Kim. Your refreshing honesty, your buoyant voice, your ability to take those lemons and turn them into lemonade. Oh lord, now that’s really boring. How about compressing ashes and drawing with the charcoal you make.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      March 7, 2012 at 3:04 pm

      Haaaa. Ashes. I like that!!

      –And I feel the same about you, My Sweet- Unique Miss Bissell 🙂 Xx

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    Thoughts Appear
    March 13, 2012 at 5:29 am

    Don’t stop believing, hold onto that feeeeeeling…

    Oh wait…what was the question?

    I try not to regret anything because even if I did something wrong, I still learned from it. When I was really little, I hit my brother with a rubber snake when he stole my toy…I regret that.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      March 13, 2012 at 6:03 am

      A Rubber Snake?

      If that’s the only thing you regret, that’s pretty cool. X

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