~Handle them carefully, for words have more power than atom bombs~~ Peral Strachan Hurd
~~”When did it all begin?” Somebody
asked me after Kay’s execution.
“At the very beginning.”
All of the signs were there, I guess.
He’d sit outside our house for hours waiting
for Kay to get home from other engagements.
He’d beg her to go out with him.
Please. Please. Please.
He’d promised her a better life, a beautiful
She was sixteen.
He was twenty two.
She married him three years later.
“Am I doing the right thing?”
She asked the night before the wedding.
“No.” I said. ” Hell,
No. Don’t fucking do it.”
“But Mom and Dad already paid for
everything. How can I back out now? Everyone will be mad at me.”
She had a baby right away. Then another. And
But he was never a father.
Never a husband.
Never a man.
He only saw Kay.Â Only wanted Kay.Â Only wanted somebody he could control.
She’d often say…”He crushes my
spirit, my soul. He doesn’t respect me. He makes me feel small, stupid.”
I wish I would have known Â then that Domestic Abuse is not simply about
slamming one’s head against a wall.
I wish I would have known then that
wordsÂ Slam, Crush, Destroy.
Words can destroy the essence of who we are,
who we might be.
She thought he’d change.
He never did.
I desire is to be respected. I want him to listen to my dreams, goals, ideas. I
so much want to be loved. I so much want to be respected.â€ť
He never respected her.
The ending was like the beginning.
The murderer stalked her, broke into her
facebook, watched her from a distance, and Â listened to her phone calls.
He pleaded with her:
change. I’ll go to church with you. I’ll be better. Donâ€™t leave me.â€ť
It was too late.
On May 26, 2010, the murderer waited
for Kay to get home from work.
He waited like a like a
predator, like a monster.
Perhaps he said a small prayer
before he snuck up behind her.
Perhaps he said nothing.
Oh, God, I hope he said nothing.
He put the gun to the back of
her head and pulled the trigger three times.
Darkness fell.Â The sun diminished.Â The earth shook.
In Kayâ€™s last journal page, she
â€śI wish heâ€™d leave me alone.Â Why canâ€™t he be happy? Â Â Why canâ€™t he just get out of my life.Â Â Help me.
Help me. Â Help me.â€ť
But it was too late.
It was too
damn fucking fucking
Kay was executed by Mike Peterson on May 26, 2010.Â The world stopped.Â The void will NEVER be filled.
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