——As long as I can I will look at this world for both of us. As long as I can I
will laugh with the birds, I will sing with the flowers, I will pray to the
stars, for both of us.——Sascha
~~It’s been 613 days since you
It’s been an eternity, an infinity, a mad existence.
It’s been a split second in time.
It’s been Hell on Earth.
A pain you cannot touch.
A loss you cannot grasp fully,
Life can change in a solitary blink of the eye.
Never doubt it.
Never dismiss the delicateness of the beating heart.
How quickly it can cease. How instantly
it can surrender & release itself.
One can be mowing the lawn, listening to an audio book, & baking a chicken
for Wednesday’s dinner.
And quite suddenly—the phone rings..
“Did you know….Are you sitting down….Mike shot
I was listening to Pillars of the Earth
on my headset.
I continue to wonder if that’s the reason I didn’t know immediately…
That he killed you.
That he stopped your heart.
That he finally finished what he had planned to do for
Remember when we were baking chocolate chip cookies at your house?
….and how we had to whisper because we never knew where he’d be standing,
Stop Staring You Son-Of- A-
Bitch. Get the fuck out away from us.
“What the hell is wrong with him…Why
can’t he go…Can’t he understand it’s over.”
We had tickets for Sex and the
City that Wednesday night.
“I’ll see you at 5:30.
The lines will be outrageous. I can’t wait!”
“Okay, I love
I love you. I love you.
The next time I saw you—your eyes were closed, you were laying on a hospital bed, you were
overflowing with despicable, ugly, snake-like tubes.
Your voice was silent.
You were beautiful.
The pink lipstick still on your lips as if you had just smeared
it on before you arrived there.
A single blink of the eyelid…
eyelashes touching skin.
3 gun shots to the back of the
Then the heart shuts down—
like the swift slam of a gate.
I’ll never wait.
Never stop screaming. Never let you go.
I’ll never be SILENT.
I’ll be telling your story
forever & ever…
Until we meet again, my dear
Reader, after you finish reading this—-Please Don’t Wait. Tell your favorite people in your life that you love
them, love them, love them.
~~Kay was murdered 613 days ago by Mike Peterson. All of our lives changed in a Split Second.~~
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