In Memory of Kay

My First Year Blogoversary


 

 

~~One year ago today,  I posted my first  Blog.  

Originally,   My Inner Chick was created as an online journal to mourn, scream, lament, weep,  and tell my sister’s story.

You see,  after Kay’s murder,  it was unbearably difficult to function, to gather thoughts, to breathe, to find meaning.

….To Live.

But one thing, incredibly, magically, which I could do— was “Write.”

I wrote and wrote and wrote.

The words never stopped surging.

They gushed out of me like something that desired to be emptied and freed and reborn.

The same words over and over again.

They never stopped coming.

Words about the repulsive yellow tape wrapped around  the house, the ambulance howling,  pacing the hospital floors, & screaming out fiercely to my silent God.

I was Useless, Hopeless, Fucking Desperate.

I was nothing.

I was purposeless.

I was nobody without my dear sister.

I wrote the same words about how Kay’s hair was still  piled upon her head,  her pink lipstick applied, her black mascara dripping from her eyelids.

I kicked.   I yelled.   I was out of control.

I called the murderer a Son-of-a Bitch in front of the chaplain , the pastor.

 I can’t remember who else was there.

I didn’t care.

I  shrieked out from a place inside I never knew existed.

A place awakened by suffering and sorrow.

An unfathomable place reserved for people like me

People who have lost parts of their soul, blood, organs, and roots.

Blogging was cathartic, a way out, an escape.

The words were my self medication, my Prozac, my prayer.

The words were my bottle of wine.

The words were mine.

I had no idea, really, that you (my readers) would be interested in listening to me as I wept and wailed for   One.  Year.  Strait.

I’ve received several emails from you.

I’ve read your stories.  All of your beautiful, sad  stories.

And I’ve savored each and every comment.

You are valued.

Your compassion fills me up.

You are loved…although we’ve never met.

You are cherished.

This is what I incessantly wanted for Kay, but her murderer never did.

But this is what I want for you…

 for you,  for you.

My gratitude is boundless & infinite.

My year with you has been one of the greatest experiences of my life.

 My greatest love was murdered on May 26, 2010 by Mike Peterson.  A flower left out.  The candle darkened.      Xxxx  I love you, Kay…Always.  Forever.  Until we meet again….

~~~~Dear, Reader,  are you in an abusive relationship?  Do you know somebody who is?  If you’re not sure what the signs of abuse are, read this NOW:   Top 23 Signs of an Abusive Relationship

Do. Not. Wait. One. More. Minute….   Domestic Abuse Hot Line

  Help For Domestic Violence

  In Memory of Kay 

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****A  special thanks and kisses for Diane Falvey  for helping me create this blog and putting up with me !*** xx


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191 Comments

  • Reply
    Lola
    November 28, 2011 at 5:31 pm

    I have to hit return just so that I can be number one, then I’ll come back and write something meaningful, okay?

    XO
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    Lola
    November 28, 2011 at 5:39 pm

    Sorry. It’s just my competitive nature.

    First of all you should know that I come here because you have a beautiful spirit.
    I can feel it all the way from Charlotte.
    And I am so very sorry for your loss.
    But I’m not just here because of sympathy.
    I think your writing is amazing.
    Moving. Heart-wrenching. Beautiful.
    You are talented, even though so much of your writing comes from pain.
    I wish it didn ‘t have to be that way.

    Much love
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 6:48 am

      –Lola,

      I absooooolutley think you are grand and beautiful.

      Xx Much Love from MN. coming your way.. Xxxx

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      Beverly Diehl
      November 30, 2011 at 6:36 pm

      What she said. You are a talented and beautiful writer. I am so sorry you were robbed of your sister, and wish I could change it, so that you were sharing your gift with us for some other reason.

      Thank you for your passion and joy and all the things you share. Proud to follow this blog.
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        Kim Sisto-Robinson
        November 30, 2011 at 6:45 pm

        –Beverly,

        I am honored that you read my words of massive mourning… Xx

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    annabelle
    November 28, 2011 at 5:45 pm

    I am so sorry for your loss.

    Writing about my mom has been THE thing that has helped my grief since her death.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 6:48 am

      –Writing & Words can transform…. Xx

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    Laci
    November 28, 2011 at 5:49 pm

    And again I cry. Your words are so real, deep, beautiful and meaningful. I love reading your writing, although I hate that you have to write it. I hope that makes sense. I know that for me writing is very therapeutic and has helped me get through so many difficult times in my life.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 6:49 am

      –Laci,
      It makes complete sense.
      Thank you for your support and kind words. Xxx

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    Joan
    November 28, 2011 at 5:52 pm

    Happy one year anniversary. As a fellow blogger who also vents and learns and tries to deal with the loss of a sister, it does feel good to write. Your writing is amazing. I am a blogger. You are a writer and I love what you say. There is nothing left to the imagination and that’s good. If what you write doesn’t make people think and feel, then nothing will. I’m glad I know you and happy to read your blog posts.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 6:51 am

      –Joan,
      Nobody knows quite as well as you, dear.
      We have lots in commen…and I’m angry as hell about that.

      We do not have our sisters. But we have each other.

      I looooooooooove your pro-active spirit. You Rock. X

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    Liz
    November 28, 2011 at 6:04 pm

    Happy Blogiversary Kim and congratulations on an amazing blog. You have enriched my life – you let me know you, and Kay, even when I could never meet her. Thank you. And of course, I am sorry for your loss every day.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 6:52 am

      –Liz,
      And you have enriched my life, too….with your fabulous blog & YOUR support, words, kindness, compassion, generosity & love. Xx

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    Karen
    November 28, 2011 at 6:15 pm

    You manage to forge strong connections, feelings, and meanings with your blog. You remind me to value my sister and my friends. I’m grateful to *you* as are so many if your readers. Your gift is definitely worth living for even when you’re feeling most bereft. Thank you and congratulations on your blogiversary.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 6:52 am

      –Karen,

      I hold a special place in my heart for you, dear. Xxx

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    Theresa Sonoda
    November 28, 2011 at 6:24 pm

    Oh my lovely, wonderful friend. It has been my pleasure getting to know you and becoming blog friends. Congratulations on your one year blogoversary! I went over a year in August and cannot believe how fast it went. Blogging has made a positive change in my life, too, and at a time I really needed something positive. A lady in one of my online classes recently asked me how I could call online friends, real friends. I said, “Easy. They touch my heart as if we were in the same space together. I don’t have to see their faces to know they care. And how do I know they care? Because I care about them. Simple.”

    She didn’t get it. I’m so glad that I do.

    HUGS and Kisses to you on your blogoversary. Write On!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 6:54 am

      –Terri,
      I agree.

      We’ve never met…But I know you. I imagine us talking about deep issues over martinins some day!!

      Love Love Love. X

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    Renee Fisher
    November 28, 2011 at 6:30 pm

    Keep writing. Keep sharing. Keep loving. Keep healing.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 6:54 am

      –Renee,
      Beautiful.

      Thank You, Sweets. Xx

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    Theresa
    November 28, 2011 at 6:44 pm

    Wow. I had no idea. I have visited your site a few times, and somehow missed this. I added your blog because I thought you were a good writer.

    But there is more here than just good writing.

    So sorry for your loss.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 6:55 am

      –Theresa,

      Believe it or not, I write about funny stuff, too…

      but Kay is the reason for this blog.

      Thank you for visiting. Xx

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    Linda Medrano
    November 28, 2011 at 6:49 pm

    Honey, I am so glad you are doing this. I do firmly believe that it helps to share the burden of sadness, of grief, of sorrow. Thank you for opening your heart to us and letting us rage with you about the terrible tragedy that befell your beautiful sister. Know that we hold you close in our hearts and we pray for the day you feel peace. It’s there, Kim. And it will come.
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      totsymae1011
      November 29, 2011 at 5:59 am

      I’ll second this statement. I’ll also add that I think we’re all more informed and better for knowing you. Keep holding your head up.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 6:56 am

      –Linda,

      I am thankful for you & your words.

      Xx Love….

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    Ashley
    November 28, 2011 at 7:00 pm

    You are such a strong and admirable woman! Your blog is probably the best I can came across in a long time.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 6:56 am

      –Ashley,

      thank you.

      Kay would be happy that people are reading about her….

      Love your blog, as well. Xx

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    Katy Clark
    November 28, 2011 at 7:22 pm

    I love your blog (and you, too). It takes strength to share pain, and strength to let others in to help you bear it. Keep writing, keep sharing, keep caring. I am sure your blog and message have helped some. I pray it does, anyway.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 6:57 am

      –Katy,
      I do hope many woman reading this blog see themselves and get out before it’s too late.

      Xx

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    Tere
    November 28, 2011 at 7:35 pm

    Your post is incredible. Congratulations on your blogiversary.
    My heart goes out to you with all you have endured. You are a talented writer because it is honest and comes from the heart.
    Always remember that you are never alone. I love your blog, as I feel your words and share your anger and tears.
    please keep sharing. We are here for you.
    Keep up the incredible work and writing!

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 6:58 am

      –Tere,

      I thank you sooo much for your support.

      It means A Lot.

      Xx

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    Susan Boswell
    November 28, 2011 at 7:37 pm

    Dear beautiful Kim,
    Happy Blogaversary.
    I know this was never your “goal”, but you have created something great with your blog. A great way to reach people,save people, move people to action. Even before your great loss and the creation of My Inner Chick ,you were one of my favorite writers and and one of the most memorable voices I have read/ heard. I remember first learning here what had happened to Kaye and I just could not believe it was true. But this tragedy put power behind you that makes you a hurricane among summer winds. You literally blow me away with your ability to convey this rawness. It is sad and it is beautiful. And we all love you and cheer you on.

    xxoo my friend,
    Susan from the South

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 6:59 am

      –Sweet Susan,

      You. Inspire. Me. To. Spur. Forward.

      Love to you, dear. Xx

      btw, you are one of my faves. (always)

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    Tere
    November 28, 2011 at 7:40 pm

    Sorry, mistyped my website in last comment.
    (Can’t type on smartphone w/o reading glasses)
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:00 am

      Ha haaa

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    Russell Mazonde
    November 28, 2011 at 7:43 pm

    We are all connected, we all relate because we are all one in a sense. You exploded, i imploded and almost destroyed myself. I relate to you because we are the same, we experience emotion, we see into each other and learn so that we can all get up and walk. Happy anniversary, I will follow you because of what i see in you. Have a great day dear.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:01 am

      ~~~ we see into each other and learn so that we can all get up and walk.~~~

      Russell, I am trying. Oh, man, I’m trying.

      Love to you, dearest. xx

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    ed pilolla
    November 28, 2011 at 7:58 pm

    writing can heal, i feel now that i read your words.

    i am a product of domestic violence myself.

    i wrote this for aol, if interested: http://redondobeach.patch.com/articles/domestic-violence-team-changing-lives-quietly-behind-scenes
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:03 am

      ed,

      so sorry about your domestic violence….

      —-it seems to be an epidemic., doesnt’ it?

      Is this why you write w/ such emotion, too? Xxx

  • Reply
    Irene
    November 28, 2011 at 8:32 pm

    We will all go through this with you together.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:04 am

      –Irene,
      yes….You have been there from the beginning.

      You make me laaaaaugh. Thank you, funny Irene… Xx

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    Monica
    November 28, 2011 at 8:50 pm

    Congrats on reaching your one year milestone, but I must admit, with your talent and flair for blogging, with the number of readers you have, I was sure you’ve been doing this a lot longer. It must be a great catharsis for you, knowing, too, that in the process of blogging, you’re sharing yours and Kay’s story and helping others, too.
    Sending you lots of love,
    M

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:04 am

      –Monica,
      I feel your love.

      You. are. So. Dear. To. ME !!!! xxx

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    Brenda
    November 28, 2011 at 8:58 pm

    I am always touched by your words and love for you sister. Happy One Year, wishing you many more to come and other wonderful surprises along the way. Enjoy your moment my dear.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:05 am

      —Brenda,

      We’ve come a long way together since Skirt, haven’t we?

      Looooooove to you in SanFrancisco!! :))) did i spell that right??? Xxxxx

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    Nicole
    November 28, 2011 at 9:01 pm

    Thank you, Diane, for helping Kim to share her bright aura with all of us.

    Thank you, Kim, for being here and being willing to share it all–good, bad, ugly, pissed off and irreverent alike.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:06 am

      –Nicole,

      And thaaaank you for reading my crying & mourning. Xxx

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    Rachel (Totally Ovar It)
    November 28, 2011 at 9:06 pm

    Happy Blogoversary, my sweet friend. Although we have only recently crossed paths, your words have renewed my spirit to speak out against violence. Your words are beautiful and inspiring. Just like I’ve read your sister was. Just like I’ve read you ARE. Thank you for sharing your battle with us. You are truly brave. My world is a better place for having you in it. G-d Bless.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:07 am

      –Ohhh, don’t make me cry, R.

      You have blessed me, as well ::))))

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    Twisted Domestic Goddess
    November 28, 2011 at 9:48 pm

    I”m sooo glad I found your blog. You are constantly in my prayers and thoughts. My heart breaks for Kaye’s short lived life as I think about at one time this could’ve been me.

    What you provide here is such a special outlet for yourself and others who have been in the same situation!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:08 am

      –Dear, Twisted,

      So glad you got out of your situation…

      I wish Kay would have…but the murderer wouldn’t allow that.

      Xx Sending love your way…. Xx

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    Vidya Sury, Freelance Writer & Blogger
    November 28, 2011 at 10:29 pm

    So beautiful. I am so glad we connected, Kim. Today, my heart beats for you as I congratulate you on:

    your first Blogoversary
    your strength
    your beautiful words
    your courage
    your love
    your warm heart
    your attitude

    I am blessed to know you. I am sure Kay is smiling at you, watching you, proud of you.

    Hugs.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:09 am

      — Sweeet, Vidya,

      Love back to you for all of your support.

      I am blessed by reading your words…. Xxxx Kiss & Hugs.

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    Alison@Mama Wants This
    November 28, 2011 at 10:46 pm

    I’m so glad you found blogging and writing as a way to express those feelings of losing Kay. And I’m so honored to be among those who have found a way to connect with you through your powerful words.

    Much love to you on your first blogoversary.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:11 am

      –Mama Alison,

      –Thank you for your support & the distraction of your blog 🙂 !!!! You are VERY generous. xxxx

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    Bridget
    November 28, 2011 at 10:54 pm

    You are an amazing person. Friend. Writer. Keep blogging, I don’t want to have to miss you.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:11 am

      –Dear B.

      I shall Never stop telling Kay’s story.

      Xxx

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    Mandy - The Complete Cook Book
    November 29, 2011 at 12:47 am

    Happy 1st Blogoversary dear Kim – my life is richer for meeting and getting to know you! I cannot imagine what you have suffered since Kay’s murder but I can imagine meeting you and chatting to you for hours on end about everything – naturally over a glass of wine or two.
    Sending you lots of love and a big hug!
    🙂 Mandy xo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:12 am

      –Mandy,

      We would be good friends. I know this.

      I can imagine us talking about life, love, cooking, blogging, art & AFRICA!

      Xx Kissssssss.

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    Jessica
    November 29, 2011 at 12:47 am

    Writing is a great form of therapy I have found. I’m sorry for the reason you started your blog but I am happy to hear that it has helped you. I hope you continue to get the words out as often as you need to.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:13 am

      –Jessica,

      The words have always helped.

      I shall shout out Kay’s story forever. Xxx

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    Kiddothings
    November 29, 2011 at 1:47 am

    Such beautiful words Kim. You truly have a gift for writing and I’m glad you were able to use it to heal. I am blessed to have discovered your blog and to share the sorrow, happiness and craziness of a beautiful person, that is YOU.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:26 am

      –Kiddo,
      And you have been a blessing to me, too, with your superbly beautiful blog. Xxx

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    Emily
    November 29, 2011 at 4:49 am

    There’s so much honesty in your writing, so much openness in your grief, and I really admire that. I really admire YOU — for your strength and your courage; for who you are and the work you’re doing. Keep writing.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:28 am

      –Emily,

      I will always write… This is how I breathe…

      And I LOVE your writing. So gooooorgeous.

      Thank you for a distraction from reality. Xx

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    Blond Duck
    November 29, 2011 at 6:01 am

    Happy bloversary!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:28 am

      –Thanks Duck!!! Xx

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    WarmSunshine
    November 29, 2011 at 6:49 am

    Happy birthday to your blog!!

    The best thing about writing is how soundly it heals. It’s addictive and becomes a passion! Through your blog I have come to know of your sister. She is loved by someone so true to her. I’m sure she is still thankful for YOU.

    You give me a cause to think about. Breaking silence. Cheers!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 7:29 am

      –BREAK you SILENCE, Sunshine…

      AND I shall be there to listen. Xxx

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    Barbara @ Barbara Bakes
    November 29, 2011 at 7:36 am

    I’m so glad that writing has helped ease your pain. I’m sure your sis wants only good things for you.
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    nan @ LBDDiaries
    November 29, 2011 at 8:02 am

    From the day I e-met you and beheld your fragile heart, your amazing flowing words and your indomitable spirit, I feel I’ve known you forever. I have been e-blessed and IRL blessed to have you in my life. I’m going to leave you with a quote that sums you up, to me:

    “In martial arts, indomitable spirit is generally considered to be a refusal to be beaten, no matter how tough, talented or big your opponent may be.

    “In our life we will inevitably meet obstacles and problems. Some may be minor and others will seem insurmountable. The times when we meet seemingly insurmountable obstacles are when the strength of our indomitable spirit dictates how far we get.

    “The strength of indomitable spirit varies from individual to individual. There are those who give in quite easily; then there are those who will not be beaten. Ever.”

    Kim, your indomitable spirit rose up, spewed out words that helped you spew out the acid of pain, unbelievable hurt and destruction. You unknowingly sat down at the keyboard and saved your own life. You refused to be beaten by a tough, big opponent… guilt and grief.

    And because of your strength, you enlightened the world, shared your amazing sister with us, and introduced us to you, someone I am quite proud to call my friend.

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      My Inner Chick
      November 29, 2011 at 10:18 am

      Sweet, Nan,
      your beautiful words and powerful quotes overflow inside my heart.

      I shall think of them today. All day….

      Love to you, dear friend. Xxoo
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    elizabeth
    November 29, 2011 at 8:25 am

    Dear Kim,
    you may have thought that God left you in your grief, but she gave you your words and you used them to teach and to let is know about Kay.
    I am always going to ge here for you and we will have grand days and days where we feel our hearts are breaking apart.
    love ya.
    elizabeth xoxox

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      My Inner Chick
      November 29, 2011 at 10:20 am

      –elizabeth,
      thru my darkest days…you were there. You. Were. There. w/ cards, phonecalls, gifts…& love…

      you. amaze. me.

      love love love to you, dearest e. xxxx
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    Ameena
    November 29, 2011 at 9:58 am

    Happy One Year Anniversary!

    For me blogging has been the cheapest and effective form of therapy. I’m so glad it’s helping you though difficult times as well.
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    Mercy
    November 29, 2011 at 10:47 am

    Loooove you so so much KittyKat!

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    Helene
    November 29, 2011 at 10:58 am

    Blogging has an amazing way of being cathartic, doesn’t it? I originally began my blog simply as a way to keep in touch with well-meaning friends and family during my 2nd twin pregnancy when they were all driving me crazy with their constant phone calls and e-mails “haven’t heard from you..is everything okay?”

    But somehow it morphed into something entirely more than I could ever dream. I fell in love with writing, I have a passion for it. I crave it and when I go days without writing, I feel like I could fall apart at the seams.

    The bonus, though, is being able to connect with others in a way that somehow I can’t even connect with friends and family in real life. There are others out there who want to read your words…they laugh along with you, they cry when you cry, they feel what you feel. Ultimately, they’re invested in you because you’ve taken them on this painful journey alongside you.

    And that’s what your writing does for me. It moves me, it stirs my emotions and I find myself crying tears of sorrow as I read each word that you’ve obviously poured out from your soul.

    You have a wonderful gift. I’m just saddened that it took something so tragic for it to be realized. Yet, my heart smiles for you knowing you’ve found a way to cope with the heartache and the grief…through your writing. Your sister’s memory will always live on through your words and memories which you’ve shared here. And who knows just how many people you might have helped in ways you’ll never know…whether it be a woman in an abusive relationship or someone who’s trying to cope with the loss of a loved one. You are changing the world…one word at a time.

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      My Inner Chick
      November 29, 2011 at 3:03 pm

      –Helene,

      Yes.

      I believe all of us can begin a REVOLUTION.

      ….as you so beautifully stated.

      One. Word. At. A. Time. Xx

      Thank you !
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    Helene
    November 29, 2011 at 10:59 am

    Oh and happy Blogiversary!!!!

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    Kim Pugliano
    November 29, 2011 at 11:07 am

    xxoo

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    Kelly
    November 29, 2011 at 11:11 am

    What a beautiful post Kim. It summarizes your path so well – keeping writing, kicking, screaming: whatever it takes. You are journeying and we are here with you.

    Happy 1st Year Anniversary Beauty – xox
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    Marie
    November 29, 2011 at 11:22 am

    And a very rich year Kim. The day I visited for the first time I knew I would visit again. I discovered strength and love behind your words. There is nothing you don’t say, you stand up again even when you feel like falling.
    Behind your words I see Kay’s smile and I know what you are doing enhances many lives, mine first. Thank you.
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    adventures in alyssaland
    November 29, 2011 at 12:25 pm

    Happy Blogoversary.

    You blog delights me and breaks my heart.

    Smooches!
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    Kelley
    November 29, 2011 at 12:53 pm

    Has it only been a year? I’m so grateful you decided to blog. You have taught me so much. I was able to meet your beautiful sister this way. She was so blessed to have you and you to have her. Your words touch my heart.
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      My Inner Chick
      November 29, 2011 at 3:10 pm

      -Hey, -Kelley,

      Thru my so-called-journey, I stumbled upon your blog…and you made me smile w/ your quirky uniqueness…

      Thank you. Xx
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    Phil
    November 29, 2011 at 1:09 pm

    Kim,

    I stumbled upon this blog based on a few comments you made on Totsy’s blog several months ago. I remember thinking before I clicked away, probably just another fluffy blog bitching and moaning about trivial stuff. I clicked on the link anyway, and got to your home page and surveyed a number of posts, some ranging from funny musings akin to what I had originally thought the blog might be about and to some haunting entries filled with grief. It was then that I noticed the slide show off to the right about your dear sister Kay. I then clicked on the “About” tab and after reading it, I sat in stunned silence at my desk. It was as though someone had ripped a piece of my heart right out of my chest – I was transformed, moved to the point of such compassion from what must have transpired and how it transformed your life.

    I spent the next hour or so reading through a number of posts. So much screaming out in pain – what could I say that would make it better for you and make it all go away? It took me a while to really understand you, that this pain will never go away, and while that is not OK, you choose to be this way out of love for your sister and out of a nobleness that you are affecting others and saving others lives from this place of pain. I stand in awe of you Kim. Congratulations on your first anniversary of this most unusual blog.

    Much love and respect for what you do.

    Phil
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    Kimberly
    November 29, 2011 at 1:42 pm

    This is what I love about blogging…we can scream and kick from our souls and someone will always be there to listen, to support and encourage.
    I’m so glad that you took those demons inside and spilled them out on the computer screen. Do you know how many people, women in abusive relationships, that you’ve helped? I know it’s a lot.
    I know that it is incredibly hard to bare the deepest part of your soul and the feelings that come with it, but I’m thankful for it.
    Congrats on the 1st year.
    Cheers my sweet.
    xoxo
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      My Inner Chick
      November 29, 2011 at 3:17 pm

      –Kimberly,

      This is precisely the reason I connected to you.

      You take out your heart & you write with it.

      You write your truth. That’s truly what we all want isn’t it?

      …. Somebody to just tell us the damn truth.

      I am blessed to know you. X
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    Hot Coco @ From Flab to Fab
    November 29, 2011 at 4:06 pm

    First, Kim, Happy Blogoversary! What an accomplishment… even if it was born of an event so horrific, its impact on you is unimaginable.

    Second, you are an inspiration for your honesty; the raw, vibrant, sometimes rancid, always powerful words your pour out onto these posts for all the world to see.

    Every day you write about Kay, you are not only honoring her memory, you are making a stand against such atrocities.

    Every day you write about Kay, you are raising awareness, and with the ripple effect that is this life, you are making a difference to someone, somewhere; Kay is making a difference to someone, somewhere.

    Love and light.
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      My Inner Chick
      November 29, 2011 at 4:42 pm

      ~~~Kay is making a difference to someone, somewhere.~~~

      Yes. Kay would be quite happy about that.

      Ohhh, Hot Coco, I hope women leave….I wish Kay would have left…

      Xx thank you for your kind words.
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    debbie
    November 29, 2011 at 4:18 pm

    Congratulations on one year of blogging. I am glad you decided to blog because your words are powerful. You touch people and you have touched me. I can only wish that your heart heals a little each day…….and I’m glad you have found comfort in writing. You are one talented lady!
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    Pat Scattergood
    November 29, 2011 at 4:35 pm

    You are cherished, too, sweet girl.
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    Kristy @PampersandPinot
    November 29, 2011 at 4:49 pm

    I am just blown away by the voice you have. It is beautiful and important work – your message.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 5:14 pm

      –Thank you, Kristy! Xx

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    Rebecca
    November 29, 2011 at 6:12 pm

    I just read your blog for the first time. I am in awe. Stunned. Saddened, yet filled with much resolve. You see, almost 13 years ago now, I was in an abusive marriage. I knew the time was coming when it would be him or me. I did not want it to be me. So I packed up my life in the middle of the night and left him. Driving across America, like a person stalked. Because that is what I thought would happen. I worked hard to put many many miles between my abuser and myself. The best, first thing, I had ever figured out I deserved. I deserved to be respected and love for me. Not yelled at, belittled, demeaned, any of it. I have since been a very blessed woman who met a man who loves and respects me and never ever says a word or does a deed to hurt me.

    Bless you for all you have gone through in the last year. You have come far and your voice is strong for those who may not have found theirs. May they all do so. You are that beacon of light and hope.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 6:30 pm

      ~~~~Rebecca,
      So glad you got out of your abusive, demeaning relationship.

      When Kay finally decided to leave for good, he wouldn’t let her…thus, you know what happened.

      I only wish…I wish… she would have gone Far, far away as you did.

      Cuz I miss her dearly….

      Thank you for your lovely comment.

      I’m happy for you. You (and all of us) deserve RESPECT, Love, & EVERYTHING we desire.

      Xx

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    Jessica
    November 29, 2011 at 6:50 pm

    Goosebumps. I have written through the pain too. I never knew blogging would pull me out of the fog of grief after losing my daughter. It truly has been a life line for me and I’m glad it has done the same for you. I hope you too, feel the peace I do from sharing your sister’s memory with so many people all over the world. You are impacting so many with your words. Happy Blogoversary, although I know it is so much more than that.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 9:33 pm

      Jessica,
      I am glad I am not alone.

      My heart goes out to you. So sorry about the loss of your daughter.

      Keep writing & sharing your story…

      I know I shall scream Kay’s story for the rest of my life…
      Xx

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    Nadine
    November 29, 2011 at 8:04 pm

    I know if I lost my sister, I would be the exact same way.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 9:33 pm

      —Thanks for reading, Nadine… X

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    Impulsive Addict
    November 29, 2011 at 9:13 pm

    I love you. You’re adorable. I’m glad you found a good outlet for your pain. I hope it’s getting better. I’m also happy to have found you. Congrats on your blogiversary!

    I know that you’re helping people. Keep up the good work. xoxo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 9:34 pm

      –Thanks, Impulsive.

      Love to you, Too. Xx

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    Pure Complex
    November 29, 2011 at 9:25 pm

    Writing is definitely therapeutic and I’m glad you found your voice. Congratulations on your 1 year anniversary.. this is such a wonderful blog and I wish you more love and joy with this blog in the future 🙂
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 29, 2011 at 9:35 pm

      –Pure,
      So glad I found you, as well. X Kisses from MN. xx

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    Alina
    November 29, 2011 at 10:28 pm

    CongratS. I Love coming here to read each blog that you write. I do not always comment, but I haven’t missed reading one entry. Keep writing, it’s what you love.

    Love,
    Alina

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    Alina
    November 29, 2011 at 10:29 pm

    p.s as each blog comes out more and more comments emerge. I used to be like the 2nd or 3rd person who commented, now im 150! or whatever… this is great!!!

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    Lorraine @ Not Quite Nigella
    November 30, 2011 at 3:34 am

    Congratulations my darling friend Kim! I can’t believe that it has only been one year-I feel like I’ve known you forever! Keep making us laugh and keep spreading the word about Kay and keep blogging and let’s have many more years! xxx
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 30, 2011 at 6:34 am

      —Thank You, Lorraine.

      You were one of the first blogs I read & savored in the beginning.

      Xxx Kisses Down Under… X

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    Jenny
    November 30, 2011 at 4:26 am

    Happy Blogiversary!
    I hope there are many more Blogiversary’s to come! I haven’t been here for your whole journey but am honoured to have been with you for the past few months. You are an amazing writer, so raw and real and I can’t get enough 🙂

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 30, 2011 at 6:36 am

      –Jenny,

      thank you for your kind words. They are appreciated. xx

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    Psycho (Petite)
    November 30, 2011 at 4:59 am

    Happy Blog-versary Kim!
    I just feel so fortunate to be part of your beautiful journey!

    rock on sweetie!

    Much love,
    Psycho

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 30, 2011 at 6:35 am

      –Psycho,

      My so-called-journey has been a little smoother because of all of you…

      Love. Xx

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    Blond Duck
    November 30, 2011 at 6:36 am

    Happy Wednesday!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 30, 2011 at 7:04 am

      Same to you. B. D. X

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    Jann Huizenga
    November 30, 2011 at 9:27 am

    Wow! Look at the comments you’ve elicited!!! Your big-hearted warmth and passion and love and pain absolutely burst out of the computer screen right into our homes. That’s why we love you. Abracci & Baci.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 30, 2011 at 10:32 am

      ~~~Jann,
      Thank goodness I blog or I wouldn’t have found you all the way in Italy…

      XX Kiss from Mn.

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    The Naked Mother
    November 30, 2011 at 9:54 am

    Congratulations on a year of consistant blogging (something that I can’t seem to concur!) You writing is truly beautiful. I’m so happy you’ve found something that is healing to you- and that I found your blog 🙂
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 30, 2011 at 10:33 am

      –Naked Mother,
      thank you so much for reading my mourning… Xxx

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    Hilary
    November 30, 2011 at 10:50 am

    Happy blogoversary…. Isn’t it amazing the support and friendship blogging allows us? It always amazes me… I am so glad that I found your blog, and I am so happy that your blog has helped you live through such a horrible experience. But, the beautiful thing about it is, not only is your sister alive in your memories, she is alive in the hearts of your readers who learned her story and felt her sister’s love by reading your posts…
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 30, 2011 at 5:51 pm

      Hilary,
      Thank you for you kind, beautiful words Xx

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    Dad
    November 30, 2011 at 4:35 pm

    Kim, I’m not sure if the year went by slow or fast. I guess it’s how I feel each day, some days go by slow
    and others fast.I am so happy that you are writting these blogs, not only that i like reading them,but
    all the comments i have read,’ and all the people you have helped by telling your story.
    By the way, (Happy Blogoversary)
    Love You More Than A Gazelle Gliding In The Moonlight
    Daddy

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 30, 2011 at 5:52 pm

      Well, Daddy,
      I love you more than a black panther bathing in the July Sun. Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

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    Tia
    November 30, 2011 at 7:18 pm

    Beautiful, I am so proud of you.

    Love ya

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 30, 2011 at 9:01 pm

      –Tia,
      Loooooove my new hat! Thank You! Xxx Luv U.

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    (FL) Girl with a New Life
    November 30, 2011 at 8:06 pm

    You’ve come far in one year on the blogosphere. I am impressed.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 30, 2011 at 9:02 pm

      F. L.

      So glad when you stop by. Xx Thank You.

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    Unknown Mami
    November 30, 2011 at 8:30 pm

    You are beyond WONDERFUL. Your beauty always manages to shine even through your pain. Happy 1 year of sharing your soul with us.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 30, 2011 at 9:03 pm

      ~~~Dear, Mami,

      Thank you for reading my mourning, crying, lamenting, & bitching…
      Xx It is quite appreciated.

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    Sue
    November 30, 2011 at 9:37 pm

    Kim,

    Happy Blogiversery!

    As long as you keep writing – I’ll be reading!

    Love you lots!

    Your cousin

    Susie

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 30, 2011 at 9:50 pm

      –Dear, Susie,

      Love you Lots Back Xxxx

      Thanks for reading my mourning & moaning….

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    lafemmeroar
    November 30, 2011 at 10:45 pm

    I’m so thankful that I found your blog. Your posts are funny, heartwarming ballsy, tender, sad and honest.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 30, 2011 at 11:04 pm

      –Thank you, L.

      You are sweet Xx

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    Andre Golbin
    November 30, 2011 at 11:35 pm

    I often read your blog and always find it very interesting. Thought it was about time i let you know , Keep up the great work.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 1, 2011 at 6:44 am

      –A.

      Thank you. I appreciate your support. 🙂

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    Lady E
    December 1, 2011 at 2:29 am

    I too like your zest for life, in spite of everything, your compassion, your humanity…
    You make it ok to bleed, to be angry, weak, vulnerable and sad, and you make it ok to carry on living too.
    Big sunny kisses from France to you & a happy blogoversary,
    xxxx

    Ps. Blogging has also provided me with an unexpected lifeline. It is a nice surprise in all the sorrow
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 1, 2011 at 6:47 am

      –Lady E.

      I have a feeling you understand how writing is quite therapeutic…

      I also have a feeling you started your blog after some sort of crisis in your Universe.

      Love hearing from you…. Kisses From Minnesota to The French Alps….xxx

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    joann mannix
    December 1, 2011 at 5:30 am

    Writing gives everything meaning to me, too. Always has.

    I’m so glad that across the blog universe, we found our way to each other. Your posts about your sister are raw and heartbreaking and filled to the brim with so much love. You have borne your tragedy in pages, for all of us to see. I really do hope it has been in the tiniest way, cathartic for you. And in your tragedy, you give hope and reach out to others who might be suffering from this horrendous crime. There is nothing more noble. Your sister must be so proud.

    Keep writing. Love and huge hugs to you across the internet miles.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 1, 2011 at 6:50 am

      –Joann,

      Words and writing have continually kept me sane…. along w/ God and family…

      Also, blogs like yours that give me a fun distraction. Xx

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    Heavenly HOusewife
    December 1, 2011 at 6:38 am

    Congrats on your first year daaahling, I’ve enjoyed visiting you and reading your posts, and I look forward to all your future posts 😀 from your rants, to your sadnesses, to your truly wicked and fun sense of humour! You are awesome.
    *kisses* HH

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 1, 2011 at 6:51 am

      H. H.

      Yes. So glad we found one another…

      Cuz I love your blog, recipes, & humor, as well. Xx

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    Lady Fi
    December 1, 2011 at 7:20 am

    So glad that you have found a small crumb of comfort in your blog.
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    Adriana Iris
    December 1, 2011 at 8:55 am

    I am not sure if I said Congrats! You my friend are an inspiration.
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    Beryl
    December 1, 2011 at 10:31 am

    What a year for you Kim. Pain and blessing linked within one another. How wonderful that you have so many photos of Kay. They bring her to life.

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    Tori @ eatori
    December 1, 2011 at 10:47 am

    Oh my goodness. I’ve just lost a good hour reading through your archive. I know exactly what you mean when you say writing saved you and got you through some of the darkest times. You’re an inspiration.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 1, 2011 at 11:18 am

      -Tori,
      Yes. The words & writing have continually saved me, especially now.

      I must check out your site. Thank you or visiting.. Xx

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    Caroline
    December 1, 2011 at 2:34 pm

    Beautiful writing, as always, Kim. Sending lots of hugs your way. You’re such a strong woman. Happy one year blogiversary!! 🙂
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    aurora
    December 1, 2011 at 5:15 pm

    Dear, dear, Kim:
    While I did not suddenly lose a sister and I hope I never do, I did lose my mother in 2010, then about half my family relations when I started writing my blog in March 2011 and they tried to shut me up, shut me down or whatever. In the four weeks after losing Mom, in the midst of a personal health crisis, I lost my job, my dog, my boyfriend and in March I lost a 20+ year friendship (she couldn’t support my journey through life’s fires because I could no longer be there for “her,” as I had long supported her life challenges).
    Then in September 2011, I lost another two decade friendship because she was chasing my ex all the while gathering info to do so from our friendship! I wondered why she became so over-focused on talking about him and why she started watching me so intensely, it was weird. She even put stuff in the house he and I shared that was EXACTLY “MY” taste… sick. Still, it blindsided me horribly when it was all revealed, I totally had no clue. Anyway, I digress, but my point is I understand loss even though I can’t say I understand your loss, I do know the suffering of loss.
    If a friend hadn’t encouraged me to start writing a blog, I don’t know where I’d be… truly… Not only did it connect me to so many wonderful people, but it gave me an outlet I really needed and did not have in the form of family or friendship support. I thank you for being one of my sisters on this earth walk and for sharing your heart so openly, you have no idea what great things you have achieved in the name of your Angel Sister. Write on, Crazy Chickie, write on!
    So honoured to know you and admire you for fighting the good fight. You rock, sistah 🙂
    Janice
    3 Hearts
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 1, 2011 at 5:21 pm

      —Dear, Fellow Fighter,

      We must fight the fight…

      what other reason are we here? Why else would I possibly be here without my sister angel?

      I admire you, as well, Dear A.

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    Mama "D"
    December 1, 2011 at 5:38 pm

    Kim,

    I have never written, read or followed a blog until I came across yours. I realized I knew your sister {unofficially}… she was so beautiful, kind, sweet, bubbly and just had a glow about her that you couldn’t help but love!! I also have met your dad recently and he is also adorable… He asked why I don’t comment, well I am not a blogger, I just really enjoy reading yours,you are so creative, smart, and of course most of the time make me laugh until I pee my pants, but I also can’t help but feel your anger and pain. I just had to hug your dad and tell him I am soooo very sorry this has happened to your family.. I most likely will not write on here too often. I just wanted you to know, you brighten my day, make me laugh, and put a smile on my face…. Unfortunately it is because of a horrible tragedy and for that My heart aches for you and your family.. Keep writing, healing, loving and one day you will see her beautiful face again..

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 1, 2011 at 6:23 pm

      Mama D,
      –I know several people who read my blog, but do not care to comment. That is alright.
      My dad did tell me about somebody who hugged him recently…it must have been you.
      How sweet.
      I do love that guy!
      Kay would have loved this blog…She was my Greatest fan.
      She was Everything.
      Yes. We will meet again. I look forward to that day in Paradise…

      Thank you for reading. You are real sweetheart. x

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    Grumpy Grateful Mom
    December 1, 2011 at 8:45 pm

    Your writing has had such an impact on me, though I’m so so sorry for what you’ve gone through. You are beautiful Kim–I feel privileged to know you.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 1, 2011 at 9:37 pm

      –Dear Grumpy,

      … and I thank you for being such a distraction. xx

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    The Bipolar Diva
    December 1, 2011 at 10:15 pm

    Kim, you are incredible! Love you!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 1, 2011 at 11:03 pm

      –Dear, Diva,
      Well, I feel the same about you Xx

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    Blond Duck
    December 2, 2011 at 7:03 am

    I hope you have a wonderful weekend!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 2, 2011 at 7:29 am

      You, too, Ducky.xx

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    whenharrymetcelery
    December 2, 2011 at 8:37 am

    I’ve come across your blog just recently. But must say, good work there! And congratulations 😀
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    Linda
    December 2, 2011 at 8:42 am

    I am selfishly glad you started blogging, Kay. In a smog of mediocrity, you are a breath of fresh air.
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    ellen
    December 2, 2011 at 2:21 pm

    a big hug your way and lot of love

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 2, 2011 at 3:07 pm

      –Thanks, Ellen xx

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    Vesta Vayne
    December 3, 2011 at 7:58 am

    I’m new to your blog, so first let me say congratulations on your one year blogoversary.

    Second, my thoughts are with you, I can’t imagine the pain you must have endured, and thank God you were able to find some solace in writing.

    Keep writing!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 3, 2011 at 8:03 am

      Vesta Vayne,
      thank you for visting.
      Yes. I shall keep writing…..Forever screaming Kay’s story. Xx

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    Val
    December 3, 2011 at 9:52 am

    This blog is such an outstanding memory of your sisters and acknowledging domestic violence. I’m so sorry for your lost and proud of you for taking this time to school others. Keep doing the fantastic job you’re doing.
    Val

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 3, 2011 at 10:00 am

      –Thank you so much, Val.

      I appreciate you visiting. xx

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    countingducks
    December 3, 2011 at 10:20 am

    Congrats on th one year anniversary. Thats a pretty impressive achiement. You seem to have acquired quite a few fans in that time so even more impressive
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 3, 2011 at 10:38 am

      –Ducky,

      And I found your blog. What a blessing that was Xx

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    Bella
    December 3, 2011 at 6:42 pm

    Kim, I will never forget my first visit to your blog. It was a post about Kay. I remember sitting in front of the computer screen, mouth open, consumed by immense sadness, all the while wondering how I could be so affected by the words of someone I’d never met. Nevertheless, that post made its mark and I kept coming back for more. Because along the way, I realized that you were real. Your pain was real. Your suffering was real. Your love was real. But more than anything, because I thought, if anything should ever happen to my sister, my reaction would be similar to yours. I don’t know if I could bear the pain. I really don’t. With every post I read of Kay, I’m delivered to your moment of pain. And yet, I’m also delivered to a place of hope. Because I believe that in spite of this angst, you cling to the hope of one day being reunited with your sister. That hope makes you the compassionate and loving person you are. Yet, something tells me that you have to muster the strength to get through most days. Because losing a loved robs us of a big chunk of our hearts and our spirit. And the experience is different for everyone. No one can say, “I know what you must be going through,” because that would be arrogant. It would be arrogant to assume to know what you’re going through. However, it’s important you know that you are not alone. Your family, your friends, your loved ones, your readers, and hell, your fans, we all stand behind you. We cheer when you write a new post. We cheer when you drop by our blogs. We cheer when we read your ever kind words. We cheer because we know you’re in our corner, the same way we’re in yours. Kay never looked more beautiful than in this picture. Hugs to you, lovely lady and may this blog continue to evolve and grow in this upcoming year! 🙂

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 3, 2011 at 11:42 pm

      —Bella,
      It is people like you that spur me forward with your kindness, authenticity, compassion, empathy, & Love.

      You are one of my favorite people in the entire world.

      I know you. & I feel your love spreading all over the blogmosphere…

      not only to my posts, but to many.

      My Sweet, Bella, I hold a special place in my heart for only you. XX abd of course, Rox the Fox. Xxxxxxxxxx

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    Lindy Smith
    December 4, 2011 at 2:25 pm

    Thank you for this.

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    Goodness and Grit
    December 6, 2011 at 11:51 am

    Although we became cyber-friends recently, I have read each and every

    Useless, Hopeless, Fucking Desperate word.

    I felt your nothing.

    I felt you kick and heard you yell out of control.

    I was emotionally there, and I cared.

    I still care.

    I am sorry for your suffering and you sorrow. I am sorry for the pain and the loss you and your family have experienced.

    But I am glad you write. In your words I have made a friend.

    Sincerely,
    Kimberly
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 6, 2011 at 3:58 pm

      Kimberly,

      Your words mean A lot to me.

      thank you, my dear friend. Xxx

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    Charlotte
    December 6, 2011 at 2:02 pm

    You are such a talented writer. I’m so sorry such a beautiful spirit was taken away from you but her memory will live on because of your words. You have so much to be proud of on your blogoversary.

    XOXO

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      December 6, 2011 at 3:59 pm

      -Charlotte,
      thank you for reading my mourning. Xxx Kiss for you

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    Julie
    December 8, 2011 at 9:43 am

    So confession: I come here for the honest, raw emotions that you are so good at staying in touch with. I tend to lock myself up inside a lot, so it’s pretty cathartic to stop by and be encouraged to open up.

    I’m glad you stuck with blogging and are celebrating your first anniversary. But I am sorry that there is still so much pain from your loss. And glad again that you use that to reach out to others.

    Much love Kim.

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      My Inner Chick
      December 8, 2011 at 9:56 am

      ~~~~Julie,
      And I come to your blog for the Fabulous, Fun distraction from my new reality…

      Xxx Love.
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