In Memory of Kay

You Never Saw Italy


–I sit at Oneonta Cemetery playing Lady Antebellum at full volume from my car window.

That CD was still inserted inside your player,  Dearest.

Remember?

Remember how we loved that song,  Need You Now  the most?

How we played it every time we drove anywhere.

How we sang all the words, knew them by heart.

“Play that song!”  I squealed the minute I sat down.

You did.

You always wanted to please, always wanted to satisfy.

My dear sister, the root of my root, the heart of my heart…

It’s been 548 days since you left me, since my soul was sliced in two, since my days have become long,  long,  long….

It’s been an infinity.

It’s been a split second in time.

It’s been fucking fucking fucking Hell if you want the whole truth and nothing but the truth.

Why would I sugarcoat it?  Why would I declare that walking thru darkness gets improved with time?

Mourning is born…but there is no death.     No death for that beast.

So sometimes I sit at Oneonta Cemetery to get a little closer.

A little closer.  To you.

Remember how we’d walk the grounds speculating who all the dead people were?

We wondered how they died, what they did, who they loved.

We’d stare at the soft marble stones and wonder how they got there.

Now you’re one of those people.

When I think about this new reality– my heart aches, my body trembles, my organs moan.

Still.     Still.    Always.

We talked about death on our walks.
“What would you do if you had a month to live?” You asked.

“I don’t know,”  I answered  “What would you do?”

“Bring the family to Italy.”  You said without hesitation.  “I really want to go to Italy!”

You never made it there, did you?

But I imagine us there sometimes….

Walking the cobblestone streets with our arms linked together, wearing flowing scarves & cherry lipstick…. our hair blowing wildly  in the breeze.

I imagine  us devouring cannoli and drinking strong espresso.

I  imagine  us laughing outside the café’s flirting  and blowing kisses at all the dark, beautiful Italian boys.

 

My favorite photo of  Kay taken about 3 years ago.  She was murdered by Mike Peterson on May 26, 2010.   The mourning  & missing never ends.

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94 Comments

  • Reply
    Ann
    November 15, 2011 at 8:36 pm

    Hugs, Kim.

    I’m sorry she didn’t make it to Italy.

    I’m sorry you hurt so deeply…..

    ….I’m sorry that it ever happened.

    But you are in my heart.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:34 am

      –Thank you, Ann.

      I shall miss her Forever…until we meet again. X

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    Hello Ladies
    November 15, 2011 at 8:45 pm

    Keep writing.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:35 am

      Hello, L.

      I shall. It is my medicine. xx

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    Rachel (Totally Ovar It)
    November 15, 2011 at 8:59 pm

    I hurt. No, I ache for you and your sister. For you, because you are still here, enduring the day to day battles of mundane life that seem so insignificant because of what you have gone through. For your sister, because she never made it to Italy, because I am gathering she didn’t see “it” coming. I have never wished more I could hug someone, you. I know endless pain, but mine is a different animal. I can only relate to the general pain of mourning. I am here with you. You are stuck with me. Huge ass hugs, my new friend.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:36 am

      Rachel,

      She never saw it coming.. but i Did.

      Xx Thank you for the hug.

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    Helene
    November 15, 2011 at 9:06 pm

    I’m so sorry your sister never got to realize one of her dreams, going to Italy. I can’t even imagine how it must feel to walk the grounds of the same cemetery you two walked around, where you talked in detail about death. How odd that must feel, how sad it must be.

    Sending you so many (((hugs))).

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:37 am

      Helene,

      Nothing is more sad than walking the earth w/out my dear Kay.

      It is really quite sad and lonley.

      Xx Hugs back

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    Monica
    November 15, 2011 at 9:12 pm

    I’m sorry about Italy. But it’s not too late for you. You should go, anyway. In Kay’s memory. See it the way you should have. She’ll be there with you. Yes, keep writing. It’s the best healing process I know. Hope you can plan your trip soon.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:37 am

      –Monica,

      In time perhaps.

      Love to you. Xx

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    totsymae1011
    November 15, 2011 at 9:46 pm

    Kim,

    You’re over here crying again? I’m gonna ring up Mr. Liverpool, so he can turn you over and spank your fanny. She’s been to Italy and back. She’s been everywhere ’cause the spirit is just that powerful that it keeps living on. I know it’s tough as shit how she left here. I can’t even begin to tell you about forgiving the situation. It’s a bitch and then some, no doubt. But you are strong and have everything and everyone you need to rise above this. Everywhere you go and everywhere anybody goes who knew Kay, takes her with them.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:38 am

      –Dear Tots.

      I have cried for many days…every since Kay Left me…

      I shall cry forever…

      Xxx Kiss for you.

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    Trish
    November 15, 2011 at 10:04 pm

    Kim that photo is breathtakingly beautiful.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:39 am

      Hi, Trish,

      breathtaking. it is KAY! So Kay.

      I shall have this on the t-shirts for the next walk.

      Xxx Smooch.

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    nan @ LBDDiaries
    November 15, 2011 at 10:08 pm

    Every single time you write about Kay, it reminds me to LIVE fully, LIVE joyfully, LIVE outloud, at the top of my lungs. And I do – it changed me inside the day I met you and Kay. It caused change in how I look at everything. It made people more precious. It caused me to take the extra, extra good china, silver and crystal out of storage and start using them now. It change my entire perspective. It is to important to live your life fully with no regrets. Not to put off doing those things you dream strongly about – to make a way to fulfill those desires. I love your face, dearly.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:41 am

      –Nan,
      I love you for never judging my mourning.

      Live it all…Love it all…

      Use up everything God gave you. Xxxxxxxx

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    Twisted Domestic Goddess
    November 15, 2011 at 10:48 pm

    xoxoxo Kim!!!! I was just talking tonight to my almost stepdaughter tonight about life not being fair. In her 9 year old way she was whining that if life was fair she wouldn’t have to do spelling. I tolf her if life was fair my son would still be alive…..kinda put things into perspective.

    You’ve been on my mind since I started reading this site last week,Please know you’re in my prayers as well.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:41 am

      –Dear Twisted,

      Thank you.
      how nice to be on somebody’s mind. Xx

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    Bridget
    November 15, 2011 at 10:58 pm

    Hugs to you. I hope you get to Italy someday and carry her heart in yours.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:42 am

      –Dear, B,
      Hugs back. X

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    Sam @ Mom At The Barre
    November 15, 2011 at 11:06 pm

    Such a beautiful picture.
    I am sorry Kay did not make it to Italy. And I am sorry that you are hurting. But I thank you for your honesty. Hopefully it will inspire someone to get help before it is too late.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:43 am

      –Sam,

      My hope is that women reading this will LEAVE…& not wait one. more. minute.

      X

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    Charlene
    November 15, 2011 at 11:09 pm

    Love to you Kim. Beautiful as always. Go to Italy. Kay will be there with you. You’ll feel her when you flirt with waiters and stain your Chianti glass with frosted pink lipstick.
    xoxo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:44 am

      —Charlene.

      One day.

      Kay wanted this MUCH more than I.

      She always talked about this dream trip. Luv U.

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    Becoming herself
    November 16, 2011 at 1:43 am

    This is inexpressibly sad and raw. I can see why that’s your favourite picture of Kay – she was so beautiful. I don’t have the words to say how sorry I am for all your grief.

    I have a vivid image of you and your sister in Italy; it’s heartbreaking that you were never able to go there together.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:44 am

      –Dear Becoming,

      One Day…Kay and I will be together again…

      I look forward to this.

      Xx

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    Lorraine @ Not Quite Nigella
    November 16, 2011 at 4:04 am

    That is such a beautiful photo of Kay, it shows how loving she was and look at the kitty in the arms! xxx
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:45 am

      –Dear, L.
      She loved animals! Every photo I have of her, she is holding a dog, a cat, or kissing a horse!
      xx

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    Katy Clark
    November 16, 2011 at 4:05 am

    See, I thought about you with the “My Heart Aches for You” button I made. Seriously – it aches for you. Your loss was monumental – your grief understandable.

    Go to Italy. Take her picture, her memory, drink the wine – remember.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:46 am

      –Katy,

      I always REMEMBER.

      I shall never forget.

      Thank you for your beautiful words. Xx

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    Mandy - The Complete Cook Book
    November 16, 2011 at 4:07 am

    My dear Kim, the more I read your words of and surrounding Kay’s murder, the more real it is becoming for me to feel what you are feeling – that is how raw and honest your words are!
    As always a big love filled hug to you.
    🙂 Mandy xo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:47 am

      Mandy,

      who would have thought that one from South Africa would be consoling a girl from Minnesota?

      Xxx Hug for you, too.

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    debbie
    November 16, 2011 at 4:35 am

    The posts you write about your sister are gut wrenching because they are just so damn honest and truthful. What a gorgeous, gorgeous photo of her. So beautiful. I wish I could just reach out and hug you and make all the pain go away.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:48 am

      –Debbie,

      I feel your hug. Xx

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    Tere Anne
    November 16, 2011 at 5:42 am

    Kim,
    I am so sorry to read about your pain and hurt. I am a relatively new follower to your blog, so this post really caught my eye and grabbed my heart.
    We can only educate and be strong. It’s not a sign of weakness to cry to be angry.
    I cannot image the pain you suffer, but I want you to know that I am here to listen.
    I am so sorry and wish I could send a hug your way.
    Tere
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:48 am

      –Dear, Tere,

      And I send a hug back to you….

      thank you. Xx

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    Elisa
    November 16, 2011 at 6:01 am

    oh my goodness, Kim – this is awful, I am so so sorry. I am sorry for your sister, and for what was done to her, for the way she was robbed of her life. And I am sorry for your loss, ’cause you were robed of your sister. Something this awful should never happen to anyone.

    (((HUGS)))
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:50 am

      –Dear, Elisa,

      One NEVER thinks it will happen in one’s own family…

      but it did to MINE. It did. And I still cannot believe it.

      I shall never forget… Always scream Kay’s story.

      thank you for reading, dear. Xxx

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    Blond Duck
    November 16, 2011 at 6:11 am

    Your tributes to her are a wonderful reminder for us to live in the moment and enjoy life while we can.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 6:50 am

      –Dear B.D.

      I know you live your life to the brim. Xx

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    Pat Scattergood
    November 16, 2011 at 7:02 am

    You have many sweet memories of Kay. Thank you for embracing them and sharing them with us.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 7:31 am

      –Pat,
      Sometimes I forget that other people read this….

      It is the journal I never kept…

      Thank you for reading. Xxx have a nice day.

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    Jann Huizenga
    November 16, 2011 at 7:33 am

    Ah, Kim, this made me cry. The images you paint of the cemetery–then and now–and the fact Kay never made it to Italy. It’s so much for you to bear. But you know what? You’re shouldering a terrible grief in the most beautiful and gracious way possible, and we, your readers, are becoming more human, more caring because of you and your writing.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 7:35 am

      –Jann,
      your words give me comfort & hope.

      thank you.

      btw, Kay would have loved this blog. she read all of my writings & was my GREATEST fan…

      xx Have a nice day, dear.

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    Megan - Best of Fates
    November 16, 2011 at 7:53 am

    I’m so terribly sorry for your loss – what a tragedy.
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    Irene
    November 16, 2011 at 8:14 am

    (((HUGS))) I so wish I could be there to help you through all this. I don’t have a sister (I lost my brother but we weren’t close) but I sometimes think about what I would do if I lost my best friend Janet. She’s the sister I never had. So I can imagine what you’re going through to a certain degree. Why fate wants certain people to go through life with this type of anguish is a mystery. What purpose does it serve? It’s such a waste.

    You could go to Italy and Kate will be with you in spirit. She would want you to go. She wouldn’t want you to stop living because of her. She’d say “GO for fuck sake…..I’ll be fine!”. (that was to make you smile!)
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    Kelly
    November 16, 2011 at 8:24 am

    My Beautiful Kim,

    So here I am… grasping my chest in an attempt to comfort my aching heart as it cries out.. visions of you and Kay dancing with the wind… my only comfort, knowing that you will one day be together again.

    I don’t know if you saw my post but THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU for my AWESOME card!!! I told Lobster with pride, “This is from my FRIEND Kim! She is the one I told you about with a heart as big as the sun”. I am STILL smiling because of you!!!!

    LOVE love LovE!!!

    KraZy KeLly

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      My Inner Chick
      November 16, 2011 at 10:41 am

      Krazy Kelly,

      You. Are. Special. To. Me.

      I think we understand each other.

      Your LOVE is HUGE like the MOON !! XX
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    countingducks
    November 16, 2011 at 8:57 am

    I am sad you never got to go to Italy with your sister but I am always so moved by the way you talk to her and keep her memory fresh. God bless you for it
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      My Inner Chick
      November 16, 2011 at 10:41 am

      –Ducky,
      While I have breath in my body, she will live and her story will be screamed into the universe.

      Xxx
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    Susan
    November 16, 2011 at 9:02 am

    (I paraphrase you…) “Mourning is born but there is no death for the beast… ”
    ( How true… and hugs- your honesty and ability to capture the essence of this catastrophic loss takes my breath away.
    I see you and Kaye there- in Italy. Hold onto that dream. Maybe heaven is not paved with gold, but with fresh filled cannollis! LOL
    I heard a new song with beautiful lyrics- new CD by Melody Gardot ( My One and Only Thrill…) there is a lovely, hauntingly beautiful song there- the words go, “Our love is easy, like water over stones…” Isn’t that pretty and doesn’t that capture the best kind of love. I know your love with Kaye was easy, so easy. Love you Kim-

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    Linda Medrano
    November 16, 2011 at 9:03 am

    Sweet Kim. I know the kind of sadness you are feeling is very hard to deal with. But one day, the pain will be less. When a vibrant and beautiful woman is killed by an act of a madman, we all know it’s soul destroying. To have it occur in your family, I can’t even imagine.

    Your faith will help you see this through. And your sister really never left you.

    Peace to you, Baby.
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      My Inner Chick
      November 16, 2011 at 10:43 am

      –Linda,

      Full Peace will come when we are united once again.

      Thank you, as always for you lovely words. Xxxx
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    marie
    November 16, 2011 at 11:07 am

    I am always moved by your words. Don’t sugarcoat it Kim, you’re right, nothing makes sense any more when death takes the ones you love and in such a dramatic way.
    But you are making dreams of Kay and you in Italy, giving her a chance to know it. She is never far away. The pain will never leave you till the day you meet again – but you can learn to live with it, Kay at your side, in your words, in your smile.
    Much love.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 3:39 pm

      –Marie,
      Yes. This is the conclusion I have come to. Finally.
      That one must learn to live with the pain.

      This is what mourning is…

      Xxx kiss

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    Liz
    November 16, 2011 at 12:42 pm

    I love your huge heart…but I’m so sorry for the hurt that will not go away. xoxo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 3:41 pm

      Liz,
      it will never go away.
      Never…until we meet once again…

      Xx Kiss from MN

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    Lola
    November 16, 2011 at 1:01 pm

    I’ll meet you in Milan.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 3:42 pm

      –Lola,
      I have a strong feeling we’d get into much trouble…

      ….just as Kay & I would have!! Xx

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    Phil
    November 16, 2011 at 1:45 pm

    Kim,

    Death leaves a heartache no one can heal. Love leaves a memory no one can steal.
    ~From a headstone in Ireland~

    I feel your heartache and your love for Kay at the same time. Perhaps you should consider traveling to Italy and bring that piece of Kay you will always carry in your heart.

    Phil
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 3:43 pm

      –Phil,
      I love the headstone from Ireland.

      “””Death leaves a heartache no one can heal””””

      Perhaps I’ll have this on my stone.

      Xxx Kiss

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    Jessica
    November 16, 2011 at 3:00 pm

    I’m so sorry your sister never went to Italy like she wanted to. I hope that you made it there in her honor.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 3:44 pm

      –One day, Perhaps.

      I would find it difficult to be there without her though.

      Xxx

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    Niki Whitaker
    November 16, 2011 at 3:20 pm

    Dearest Kim….If I were there I’d give you the biggest hug ever. You often talked about your sis when we worked on the ship, so I felt a connection in some small way. I have a strong feeling she was just as wonderful and giving as you are. Her spirit and the love the two of you shared will never go away. Thinking of you and Kay. Your friend, Niki

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 16, 2011 at 3:47 pm

      ~~~O00h, such sweet words.

      Thank you so much for visiting my mourning site.

      I remember those days on the ship with great admiration..

      Xx Kiss for you, dear Niki.

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    elizabeth
    November 16, 2011 at 3:58 pm

    That just broke my heart because Kay never got to go to Italy with you. xoxox elizabeth

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      My Inner Chick
      November 16, 2011 at 4:05 pm

      —Kay never got to do several things she longed to do, Elizabeth…

      And when she imagined she was finally liberated, he killed her.

      Love to you, My Dear.
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    Theresa Sonoda
    November 16, 2011 at 5:04 pm

    Hugs and kisses, sweet lady. Thinking of you today.

    T
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    Tia
    November 16, 2011 at 7:35 pm

    I love you!

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    Lady Fi
    November 17, 2011 at 7:02 am

    Thinking of you today… wish I could take away the pain, but I can’t.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 17, 2011 at 7:04 am

      –Lady Fi,
      Nobody can. One learns to live w/ the pain & loss somehow.

      Have a good Thurs. Xx

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    Kristy @PampersandPinot
    November 17, 2011 at 9:44 am

    Beautiful post. Songs can be so haunting.
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    Ameena
    November 17, 2011 at 9:58 am

    What a beautiful post…

    I’m so sorry your sister never made it to Italy. She was beautiful, that’s for sure! I’m sure Italy would have fallen in love with her!
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    Dad
    November 17, 2011 at 11:13 am

    Kim, Kay and i used to talk about going to Italy so many times when we went for walks, how much fun it would be. So lets make it happen, lets plan it for our family vacation.
    Love You More Than Cats Kissing Dolpins
    Daddy

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    Kelly
    November 17, 2011 at 12:38 pm

    It’s been an infinity.

    It’s been a split second in time.

    Forever and now. Always.
    ——

    You make it to Italy Kim and bring your sister’s love, heart and energy with you. You know she’ll be watching you eat cannoli – xoxo.
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      My Inner Chick
      November 17, 2011 at 2:03 pm

      –Kelly,
      to be honest,
      ……that was Kay’s dream…I don’t really want to be there w/out her :?))

      XX Kisss
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    Vidya Sury
    November 17, 2011 at 8:33 pm

    I don’t know what to say. Except hugs – you write so beautifully that I feel the pain all the way over here. I often argue with God about these things. Sometimes there’s peace on the surface, but inside, the blood always boils.

    Love you, Kim.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 17, 2011 at 9:12 pm

      –Vidya,

      Sending you love and appreciation all the way to India.

      XX Love U 2. X

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    Brenda
    November 17, 2011 at 9:13 pm

    you know, Kay has seen things you haven’t? Seems to me your family has strong connections to faith and the great beyond. I wonder if she is flying the skies now, sipping from the celestial heavens wine cellar enjoying the view, at peace and urging you to be at peace, too.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 18, 2011 at 11:38 pm

      —Yes, I believe strongly…

      or I would have parished by now, B.

      Xxx thank you for your support.

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    Sandra
    November 19, 2011 at 10:05 pm

    Although your pain never gets easier to read, your writing is so beautiful and so poignant, I can never look away.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 20, 2011 at 9:49 am

      –Sandra,

      I appreciate your words. xx

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    Lady E
    November 20, 2011 at 1:16 am

    Dear Kim,
    I think you’re right, the pain never goes away but you learn to live with it. And I agree with many readers, you should make that trip to Italy. I love cannoli and that Need you now song too…
    Anyway, all I can do is send you lots of love from somewhere not a million miles away from Italy actually.
    Hope there are moments when you find some peace Kim.
    xx
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 20, 2011 at 9:51 am

      –Lady E.

      those moments come sometimes…

      thru the distractions of my day…

      Xxx Thank you for reading, dear.

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    Bella
    November 20, 2011 at 1:55 pm

    Kim, I imagine Kay looking down at you and smiling. Smiling at the fact that she’s already been to Italy. She’s eaten the cannoli, walked next to a handsome Italian and drank the espresso. She knows exactly how beautiful this land is and she waits in anticipation for the day when she’ll once again see you. When that day comes, she’ll already have a plan. She’ll be the one to guide you to the most beautiful places, the best food, the spots where the beautiful Italians wine and dine. Something tells me that as she cruises the world, wings outstretched, like the angel she is, she takes note of the most stunning of places. Places she will one day take you to; places you’ll visit together. And as mere mortals go about their business and the daily conundrum, they’ll stop and pause when they hear tinkling laughter coming from the heavens; you and Kay laughing and blowing kisses as you stroll through the streets of Italy. Some day, friend. Some day. Hugs for you.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 20, 2011 at 3:33 pm

      –Bella,
      I am sending this to my daddy…..

      Your beautiful words are like fire upon my screen.

      Love you. I really do. I don’t give a damn if we never met.

      Xxx

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