In Memory of Kay

I Feel You Leaving Me


 Kay & Kim…

—I feel you leaving me.

Your voice a distant whisper thru the pines.

Your cheek barely skimming my cheek.

Your  hand releasing its fingers from my fingers.

I feel you letting go.

I haven’t cried myself to sleep for 30 whole days now.

The tears are dried up.

The blood.  The salt.  The pain….

flow inside my veins…

always.   always.    fucking always.

A continual rebirth of loneliness.

Prayers soak thru me even when I’ve stopped praying…

I sleep with the words motionless upon my tongue.

I sleep.    I sleep.

My closet spills over with your long coats that once smelled  of perfume, hairspray, & vanilla creams from Body Shop.

Now they smell of nothing.

Nothing.

They are merely coats hanging lifeless, unresponsive,  indifferent.

I checked the pockets to find something—anything that reminded me of you.

I found pennies, matches, an old movie ticket from when you saw Twilight.

 

The days are long now that you’re gone.

The nights are darker than they ever were.

I feel you freeing yourself of me.

Your breath not heavy

but slight against my skin.

Your lips not speaking

But smiling against air.

And your long brown hair streams thru sky…

 

as if you’re waving  goodbye…

 –My sister, Kay, was murdered by Mike Peterson  520  days ago.   The clocks stopped ticking.    The universe tilted.   My heart broke in two.

pink lips  

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                 click here NOW >http://www.thehotline.org/get-help/help-in-your-area/

      In Memory of Kay

–Dear, Reader– if you, or anybody you know is being abused (in any way),  get help. 

Do. Not. Wait.  One. More. Minute.

Tell your stories.  People will listen.  I will listen.  Xxx

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131 Comments

  • Reply
    nan @ LBDDiaries
    October 26, 2011 at 4:09 pm

    OK, that settles it. You need to do a book of Kay poetry. This is one of the best yet – but they are so progressive. They teem with anguish, hope, love, betrayal, love, and growth. I truly believe your words can help many, not just yourself. You have a gfit. I am so glad you are my friend.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:34 am

      –Dear, Nan,
      Your words make me smile. Xx Luv U.

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    Theresa Sonoda
    October 26, 2011 at 4:10 pm

    Oh so descriptive. I had chills running through me. It’s beautiful how you can write exactly the way you’re feeling. I’m in awe. Lovely, chilling words. It means a lot to us readers that you care enough to share this, Kim. You are one of my blessings, for sure!
    XOXOs
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:35 am

      —Terri,
      And you are a blessing to me, sweets. X

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    Linda Medrano
    October 26, 2011 at 4:15 pm

    Kim, this is breathtaking in its beauty and honesty. You have such a talent. I’m sorry it comes with such pain, Honey.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:36 am

      –Linda,
      I believe one needs to learn to live w/ the pain.
      For me, It will ALWAYS be there…
      Because my soul mate is not on earth… Xxx

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    Karen sosnoski
    October 26, 2011 at 4:15 pm

    Absolutely beautiful. Time to start the book. If you need someone to write an introduction, please think of me! Xo

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:37 am

      —Karen,
      I will rememer that.
      You are one of my favorite writers of all.
      thank you, dear. x

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    Mercy
    October 26, 2011 at 4:21 pm

    I feel so much pain whenever you write about Kay. Such a beautiful soul. Let us not forget — and thank you for always reminding us.

    Your words are such a blessing. So painful yet so impressive.

    you are the best writer I know. True story

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:38 am

      –Mercy,
      I love you more than black panthers in moonlight. Xx

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    Katy Clark
    October 26, 2011 at 4:33 pm

    So raw and powerful…I am sorry for your loss and love that your honor her memory with your deepest thoughts and feelings. A book of poetry sounds perfect.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:38 am

      –Katy,
      thank you for our encouragement Xxx

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    lifeintheboomerlane
    October 26, 2011 at 5:13 pm

    Beautiful and heartbreaking. Yes, a book.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:39 am

      Thank you, LIfe in Boomer.

      your words are appreciated. Xx

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    Joan
    October 26, 2011 at 5:19 pm

    Kim- This was one of your best. It is so haunting, in a way, but oh, so true. Tears came as I thought of how painful and yet healing these words are. I feel you in a different phase of your grief. Agreed- you must write a book.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:40 am

      –Joan,
      who else would understand my words more than you, my dearest? Xx

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    Laci
    October 26, 2011 at 5:20 pm

    Oh Kim. Your words touch me so deeply. I wish nothing more than for peace for you.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:41 am

      —Laci,
      Peace may feel differently than what I previously thought.
      I do not know if I’ll ever feel complete peace w/ out my sister…. Xx

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    Liz
    October 26, 2011 at 5:21 pm

    Sending you love. Every day,
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:42 am

      –Liz,
      I feel it.
      And I love your pro-active site. You are making a difference. Love Love. xx

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    susan
    October 26, 2011 at 5:22 pm

    Kim- I am always surprised to find beauty in pain- in the pictures you paint with words, Kaye’s hair blowing in the wind, the softness of her breath, the love in the poetry you writee for her, for us, for your own sanity… in all these things- there is so much beauty. Beauty in grief- sounds sick, doesn’t it? But I know you loved her more than anything, and I guess that is what is truly beautiful. Even if you don’t feel her so nearby- that doesn’t change your love one bit.Much love, hugs and all my big ole Southern love- Susan

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:43 am

      –And abundant beauty in your words, Susan. Xxx

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    Irene
    October 26, 2011 at 5:22 pm

    Very profound! I do believe these posts do help with the healing. Try for a book! I know someone who went through breast cancer and had her thoughts and emails published. It sold well.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:44 am

      –Irene,
      Yes.
      Words. Have. Always. Kept. Me. Alive.

      Xx Kiss

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    Kiddothings
    October 26, 2011 at 5:23 pm

    This is so sadly beautiful. As always, I pray for healing for you.

    That is a beautiful picture of Kay.

    xoxo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:45 am

      —Kiddo,
      thank you for your support & tweeting this post. xx It is appreciated.

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    Kelly
    October 26, 2011 at 5:36 pm

    Kim,

    Oh my God how I have missed seeing into your soul!!! I wish I could give you HALF of what you have given me!! I LOVE You and through you I have grown to Know and LOVE Kay!!!!

    LOVE LOVE LOVE!!!

    KraZy KeLlY

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:45 am

      Krazy Kelly,
      I’m thinking of you.

      Love Love Love.

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    Linda Riddle
    October 26, 2011 at 5:46 pm

    Kim- Beautiful, you have reached a plateau, every time you write, I lisren and learn. Blessed to know you..

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:46 am

      –Linda,
      And I am blessed to know you. Yes. I. Am. X

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    Linda Riddle
    October 26, 2011 at 5:47 pm

    Kim- Beautiful, you have reached a plateau, every time you write, I listen and learn. Blessed to know you….

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    Pamela
    October 26, 2011 at 6:24 pm

    You are a talented poet. I love the part about the coats. I am sorry for pain so sharp it brings out words like this, but I also am grateful for the gift of your words.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:47 am

      –Pamela,
      Words have saved me for many years….especially now.

      Xxx thank you.

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    Phil
    October 26, 2011 at 7:26 pm

    Kim,

    Each time I see another touching verse written by you in memory of your dear sister Kay, I feel as though I am a silent observer in a sacred temple of honor. Your heart may be broken but its core bleeds out beauty and love like no other. Your words simply take my breath away.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:47 am

      –Phil,
      You are lovely. Xx

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    Tia
    October 26, 2011 at 7:52 pm

    Absolutely moving. I Love You,

    Tia

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:47 am

      Tia,

      I love you. x

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    Helene Abbott
    October 26, 2011 at 8:09 pm

    Kim,
    You have such a talent and I am so sorry that part of it is displayed in the sadness of losing your dear dear Sis. I read your blogs, share your feelings and pray for your healing. Each step of the way that you share with us is part of that healing. The words about Kay’s coats just takes ones breath away…
    Yes, write a book!

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:48 am

      –Helene,
      you are such a special woman to me. thank you for all your support & lovely words. Xx

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    Adriana Iris
    October 26, 2011 at 8:15 pm

    So when is Kay’s poems being published? The peeps want to know. This one is raw. Thank you for your honesty.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:49 am

      ~~~~~~~ Yes. The entire world will know about Kay’s story…

      Love to you, Dear. A. xx

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    Ann
    October 26, 2011 at 9:11 pm

    Kim….I wish I could give you a big hug! It sounds like you’re starting to heal ~

    I can say all kinds of platitudes, but instead I just want you to know that I love you, girlfriend…and I’m here when you need to chat.

    Hugs always….Annie
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:50 am

      –Ann,
      I love you all the way from Minnesota I feel you hugs in your words. X

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    lafemmeroar
    October 26, 2011 at 9:17 pm

    I agree with the first commenter. You need to do a book of your poetry 🙂
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:51 am

      –Dear, L.
      Love to you. X

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    Monica
    October 26, 2011 at 10:41 pm

    Oh, Kim, how beautiful, how moving. The emotion you weave through your poem is wrenching and so touching. This is my favorite line:

    Now they smell of nothing.

    Nothing.

    They are merely coats hanging lifeless, unresponsive, indifferent.

    Yes, this is time doing a number on you, and you’ve captured it so well. Yes, you should write a book of poems. For Kay. For yourself. For us. Sweet Kim, know that you’re helping others through your pain. You are using your pain for good. Sending you my hugs…
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:51 am

      –Monica,
      Your words are kind & lovely.

      thank you. Xx

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    Alison@Mama Wants This
    October 26, 2011 at 11:55 pm

    As always, beautiful, moving and heartbreaking.

    I do sense a wind of change in this post though. A slight change. A healing, a sense of lightness that wasn’t there before.

    I do hope you ARE healing. Love to you.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:52 am

      –Love sent back to you, Mama. A. Xx

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    Becoming herself
    October 27, 2011 at 12:38 am

    This is so achingly beautiful; almost mystical. There is a breath of hope and peace woven so delicately and hesitantly through it. It’s very moving and profound, and brought tears to my eyes.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:53 am

      –Dear Becoming,

      I thank you so much for reading. Xx

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    Goodness and Grit
    October 27, 2011 at 12:51 am

    Beautiful.

    Every single word felt as if someone were clasping my heart in their hands, holding gently and lovingly trying to help. I envision this is how God is protecting your heart as you go through the motions of trying to heal.

    I cried again as I do with each post remembering Kay. I am so sorry.

    Big hug,
    Kimberly
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:54 am

      –Kimberly,

      Without God’s still waters, I would have parished by now.

      thank you for reading. I love when you visit me. Xx

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    Lorraine @ Not Quite Nigella
    October 27, 2011 at 3:38 am

    Rest in peace lovely Kay. She is so missed xxx
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:54 am

      –Dear, L.
      sending my thanks and love to Austrailia… X

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    debbie
    October 27, 2011 at 3:38 am

    You have such talent. I can just feel what you are writing. Yes, you should write a book……
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:55 am

      Debbie,
      You are kind and supportive. thank you. Xx

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    Hilary
    October 27, 2011 at 3:54 am

    What a beautiful poem. I am so sorry for your loss…. I agree with the others, you should try for a book…
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:55 am

      Hilary,
      Thank you for visiting & reading. It is appreciated so much. X

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    Lola
    October 27, 2011 at 3:58 am

    I’m crying. SO beautiful. I agree with the other readers that you should seriously think about publishing a book in Kay’s honor. You are that good. I’m sorry you feel her leaving. But at the same time, I want you to heal. To be happy.

    XO
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:56 am

      Lola,
      your humor & blog has actually made me laugh out loud during this darkeness.
      I thank you for that, dear. Xxx

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    Marie
    October 27, 2011 at 4:53 am

    You have a beautiful style Kim, there is a real poet in you………….I feel life struggles have to be written not to make sense, because Kay’s death does not make sense at all, but to help us to heal. Very slow process but when words have power they can help.

    Take care Kim and continue to write – Your voice is important. xxx
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:57 am

      —Marie,
      thank you much for you kind, encouraging words. Xx

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    Kimberly
    October 27, 2011 at 5:06 am

    This is so beautiful and profound. I could feel the emotions.
    I have no words…
    Just in awe of you putting your experience into beautiful words.
    Xoxo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:58 am

      –Kimberly,
      And I am in awe of you… X

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    Lady E
    October 27, 2011 at 5:27 am

    This is a beautiful poem Kim.
    I hope writing exorcises the pain, or helps in a small way.
    I also meant to say you are inspiring.
    Thank you x
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:58 am

      –thank you, Lady E.
      I appreciate you visiting my crazy world. X

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    Hot Coco @ Flab to Fab
    October 27, 2011 at 5:56 am

    Oh, Kim… Such pain, and such wisdom. As raw as this post is, there is also light in it; just breaking; just a hint.

    Blessings.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 5:59 am

      —Blessing to you Hot Coco.. Xx thank you.

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    Jann Huizenga
    October 27, 2011 at 6:39 am

    “I feel you letting go”–that line pierced my heart. Beautiful, Kim.
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    Emily
    October 27, 2011 at 6:39 am

    This post was so powerful, and I’m so sorry.
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    Kelly
    October 27, 2011 at 7:00 am

    “One’s sister is part of one’s essential self, an eternal presence of one’s heart, soul and memory.”
    ~ Susan Cabil

    Hugs, warmth and love to you,
    xoxoxo
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    Ashley
    October 27, 2011 at 7:17 am

    It’s amazing that through such a painful experience you exude such hope, beauty, and an offer of help to others in need. You’re lovely.
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      My Inner Chick
      October 27, 2011 at 7:39 am

      –Ashley,
      Sometimes I feel as if I am just Screaming, Crying, Lamenting…

      thank you for your kind words.

      Xx
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    Lady Fi
    October 27, 2011 at 9:21 am

    This is so beautiful! Your best yet… I detect a small seed of .. hope for your future… Hugs.
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    Pam Hogeweide
    October 27, 2011 at 9:21 am

    Beautiful. Why is it that in grief emerges some of our most poetic writing? I think it must have something to do with the intense feeling. Conveying emotion makes for great writing.

    A poetry book. On grief. GO FOR IT
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      My Inner Chick
      October 27, 2011 at 10:50 am

      —Pam,
      without the writing/ words….I am not sure where all this darkness and pain would release itself.

      Xx how is your book going?
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    Mama, Hear Me Roar
    October 27, 2011 at 10:24 am

    “freeing yourself of me” – that really got me.

    Hugs and hopes for healing, xoxo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 10:52 am

      –Mama,
      thanks for visiting my world. xx

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    Mandy - The Complete Cook Book
    October 27, 2011 at 10:53 am

    Such powerful candid words Kim.
    Sending you a BIG hug from South Africa!
    🙂 Mandy xo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 10:56 am

      —Mandy,
      just recieved your hug in Minnesota.
      love to you. Xxxxx

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    The Domesticated Diva
    October 27, 2011 at 12:50 pm

    So hauntingly beautiful.
    I think this best describes how she is not leaving you, but your heart is slowly allowing itself to heal as much as it can.
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    Dad
    October 27, 2011 at 1:08 pm

    Kim, Your words are beautiful, I know how you feel, I think of Kay so much, all the walks, talks,and
    prayers that i miss so much. You know how to put in words so lovley. (keep writing)
    I agree with all the comments, It’s time to write a book.
    Love You
    Dad

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    Pat
    October 27, 2011 at 1:36 pm

    Wow, Kim, that was so heart wrenching but so well said. I have to tell you that I think of you often when I am talking with my twin sister and think, “God, please don’t let me take any time with my loved ones for granted.” We sure never know what life holds for any of us and things can change in a moment. You had such an incredible bond with Kay – I believe it was extraordinary. Let’s get together soon!

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    ed pilolla
    October 27, 2011 at 3:45 pm

    kay was beautiful.
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    Cheryl @ Mommypants
    October 27, 2011 at 3:48 pm

    Wow, what does one even say? Such raw, emotional writing. I can’t imagine what you and your family are going through, but I hope by giving your feelings life through your words you’re able to find a bit of peace.
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    julie gardner
    October 27, 2011 at 4:54 pm

    These words here are what I would hope someone would say, think, breathe, feel for me:

    “Your lips not speaking…
    But smiling against air.”

    This tribute is beyond lovely;
    your love for her endless…

    …and even as you feel her leaving you – she is there.
    Smiling against the air.

    From one sister to another, I cannot say I feel your pain.
    I have never felt pain like this.

    But I feel your love.
    Oh do I.

    With every word you write.

    This is so beautiful, Kim.
    And I’m so very sad you had to write it.

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    Caroline
    October 27, 2011 at 5:01 pm

    So touching and beautiful, Kim. I appreciate you sharing yourself with us via your wonderful writing. I lost a friend yesterday, so I’m definitely mourning as well. Hugs to you. xx
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      My Inner Chick
      October 27, 2011 at 7:55 pm

      –Caroline,
      I am so sorry.
      Mourning truly never ends.
      —–thinking about you today. Xxxx

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    LMF
    October 27, 2011 at 6:22 pm

    This is an extremely powerful piece. I love it! You are very talented. I can’t wait to read more 🙂
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 8:07 pm

      lmf,
      thank you for stopping by… x

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    Jessica
    October 27, 2011 at 8:05 pm

    You might see her waving goodbye but I don’t think she has left you. She is still in your heart and always be.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 8:08 pm

      —jessica,

      Never released. Never forgotten. Xxx

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    Helene
    October 27, 2011 at 8:29 pm

    I’m having difficulty finding the words…you write with such raw emotion and beauty. I can feel your pain with every word you’ve written. In fact, I hadn’t even realized I was holding my breath until I got to the end.

    As painful as the grieving process is, I hope you’re finding relief and peace in your abilities to pour your heartbreak and pain into writing such moving tributes to your sister. Her memory lives on in each post you write about her.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 27, 2011 at 8:35 pm

      Dear, Helene,
      As long as I have a single breath in my body, Kay will live on… & I shall scream her story.
      thank you for your lovely words. Xx

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    Vidya Sury, Freelance Writer & Blogger
    October 28, 2011 at 5:19 am

    I feel the pain with you. Hugs.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 28, 2011 at 5:46 am

      Vidya,

      I know you do.

      blowing kisses to you in India… Xxx

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    Blond Duck
    October 28, 2011 at 5:52 am

    I’m with the others– write a book of poems!
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 28, 2011 at 5:58 am

      —B. D.

      I shall ponder this… Xx Have a good weekend.

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    Amanda
    October 28, 2011 at 7:54 am

    Oh, but I know she’ll come back to you. Gratitude for the absent tears, but such empathy for the hollow.

    Hugs.
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    Elisa
    October 28, 2011 at 8:23 am

    WOW! The power of this piece! I can’t even describe it in words. You made me cry . . . you made me feel your pain–your heart–your love. I’m sorry for your loss. My prayers are with you today.
    -Elisa

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    Sandy Webb
    October 28, 2011 at 1:34 pm

    Kim – Your words about your sister are absolutely beautiful. If only I could speak so eloquently of TJ. But, then again, he was a redneck and probably wouldn’t like it if I did….lol

    Much love to you my dear xoxo
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 28, 2011 at 1:59 pm

      Sandy,
      Much love to you, too Xx Think of you often.

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    Renee A. Schuls-Jacobson
    October 28, 2011 at 3:43 pm

    Kim:

    It’s been a while since I’ve been here.

    The you I’m reading is different.

    Less furious. More approachable.

    Your sister will never leave you.

    Believe it or not, you don’t need the coats or the stuff.

    She lives as long as you remember her.

    Your sister lives in the spaces, the gaps, the line

    breaks that keep us holding our

    breath. Waiting to see how

    things are going to turn out, even though we know the answer.

    I’m glad the crying has stopped.

    So that maybe you will hear new things.

    Maybe you will hear the wind whisper her name.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 28, 2011 at 4:09 pm

      Renee,
      —-your lush words fill me.
      My heart thanks you…. Xxx

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    Liz
    October 28, 2011 at 4:06 pm

    Oh, my gosh…this is my first visit to your lovely blog…and I must say I am so deeply sorry for your loss. You are quite a gifted writer…and what a wonderful way to express your thoughts and emotions.

    Hope you have a great weekend~
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 29, 2011 at 7:03 am

      -Liz.
      Thank you for visting my crazy world. Xx

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    Nicole
    October 28, 2011 at 7:29 pm

    Always hard to recognize the absence of someone you love, especially if it was senseless circumstances. Dealt with it a little in my Black Ribbon Reflections pieces–wrote that to deal with the loss of a friend of mine (and sadly not the first instance in my life) and discovered through that a classmate in the same situation. I have given her my number and even with me dealing with my own personal crap, my shoulder–I just wonder sometimes if that’s even enough. Thank you for sharing and providing a safe space.

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      Nicole
      October 28, 2011 at 7:30 pm

      *reconcile–where is the spell check when you REALLY need it? smh….
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        Kim Sisto-Robinson
        October 29, 2011 at 7:04 am

        Don’t worry.

        NObody notices that shit. x

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 29, 2011 at 7:01 am

      —Dear, Nicole,
      Sometimes it seems like nothing is enough…
      we always thought the murderer would change…
      He. Did. Not.
      Now we need to live w/out my sister.
      This is Hell.
      Thank you for visiting. Xx

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    Mihee
    October 29, 2011 at 5:12 pm

    No words…

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 29, 2011 at 7:41 pm

      –No words are necessary…
      thanks for visiting… X

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    Christina
    October 30, 2011 at 12:10 pm

    Your words are so powerful and beautiful.

    I’m so glad I’ve found your blog. I’m so sorry for your loss. That sounds pathetic, but I am. She was beautiful.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 30, 2011 at 3:17 pm

      –It doesn’t sound pathetic.

      I am sorry, too. So damn damn damn orry.

      Thanks for visiting, Christina. X

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    Unknown Mami
    October 30, 2011 at 9:10 pm

    Sending you love…always.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      October 30, 2011 at 9:34 pm

      –I Feel it.
      Thank you. X

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    sonsothunder
    October 31, 2011 at 10:54 pm

    Leaving YOU?
    Why the thought has never crossed my mind…my dear.
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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      November 1, 2011 at 6:06 am

      –Love Love Love….

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