—In all the world, there is no heart for me like yours. In all the world, there is no love for you like mine. –—Maya Angelou
—No matter what I do.
You are never far away from me.
Your cheek pressed against mine; your breath is my breath
I always come back. Always. Always.
Always come back to You.
Not a day passes without thoughts of your voice. The way you’d phone and announce, “Hey, Kimmie, I know you’re still in bed, but I wanted to say I love you!”
After a year, I’ve forgotten the sound of your voice. That soft voice I’ve recognized and loved for so many years.
But I shant listen to the recorder or watch old movies of you.
The longing. The missing. The mourning.
Whoever said that mourning ends—-never loved like this, never had part of her soul separated, never had her heart stop.
Your journals are scattered in my bedroom like an unfinished life.
I read some of your words, but to be honest, my dear, I can’t read anymore.
I can’t. I can’t. I fucking can’t.
Terrified of what I may find.
Your sadness shatters me into a million fragments of Black.
“Help me. Help me. I’m so lonely. Mike won’t leave me alone. Why won’t he leave me alone? I have nothing left to give him. Nothing. I am empty. I am alone. He crushes my spirit. Please make him leave. Please make him go away. —- May 13, 2010
All of your long coats drape in my closet like flowing memories. I’ve saved all of them.
Remember the black and white one you bought from Gap?
I begged you for it. I literally got on my knees.
Pleeeeeease. Pleeease. I’ll give you three of my coats for that ONE coat!
And we laughed.
Well, there it hangs lifeless without you.
Hopeless without you.
I hated getting out of bed this morning.
I despised my feet touching the wooden floor.
Knowing I had to go thru the same thing All. Day. Long.
all night long
Knowing you were never coming back to me.
Kay (wearing her black & white jacket) My sister Kay was murdered by Mike Peterson
yesterday 428 days ago. My heart broke in half Shattered.
Read More About Kay Here: In Memory of Kay
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