In Memory of Kay

A Glimmer of Light.


 

~~If you frequent my blog, you already know that I am Coo- Coo-Craaazy.

  Right?

I mean, seriously.

Yeah, that happens to a girl whose sister was MURDERED by the  man who sat at our dinner table for 30 looooooong  fucking years.

That happens to a girl who has lost the best part of who she ever was.

Nevertheless…

Yesterday was the first time in 11 months, 3 weeks,  and 4 days that something had significance, substance, sweetness

Meaninglessness suddenly had meaning.

Nothingness unexpectedly  had depth.

Yes….

…I saw a glimmer of light thru the shadows.

My heart began beating….(a wee bit)

My sister’s  walk / run for  Domestic Violence was yesterday…and I was holding up quite well until the bell ringing

Then—I said her name, her name,  her name.

This is in memory of my sister,  Kay Marie.

And I felt a soul lift to the sky.

Blue.  Aqua.  A sea of  splashing color

I physically felt it.

    Like wings rising to my great God.

Click Here to see Walk>> http://www.fox21online.com/news/memorial-walk

Dave (my Brit) &  darling Jackiy

Chris & Micheal  (Kay’s son) xx

Andrew (my son) and cute girlfriend, Alina.

Me, Mommy (Saint Shirley, Susie & Kimmy (my dear friends)

, Karen, who flew up from Virgina because she reads my blogs about Kay.  Amazing.  You are beautiful.  Really.

My new family members–Bob & his lovely wife.  Thanks for the chocolate chip cookies!   Sooo Sweeeet.

Gorgeous Kelly.  We Met for the first time at the walk.  She came because she reads all of my blogs about my angel, Kay.  Isn’t that cool?   WOW!Jordan & Aaron xxxx Luv U

My Mary whom I love.

Daddy Daddy & Kurt.  Love love love you, Daddy.

Kay, I love you .  I love you.  I love you.   No love was (IS) greater than ours.

~Read More About Kay Here:   In Memory of Kay 

 ~~~For support and more information please call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-SAFE (7233) or at TTY 1-800-787-3224.

click here NOW : http://www.thehotline.org/get-help/help-in-your-area/

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41 Comments

  • Reply
    Linda
    May 23, 2011 at 6:30 pm

    The support for Kay and your family was wonderful. It is amazing the number of caring people we meet everyday.
    Keep writing.
    Luv to you and your family

    Linda

    • Reply
      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      May 23, 2011 at 7:51 pm

      Dear, Linda,
      I feel the luv.
      XXxxx Kisses

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    Hello Ladies
    May 23, 2011 at 6:36 pm

    Glad the walk was a success. And that you saw a glimmer of light.

    • Reply
      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      May 23, 2011 at 7:52 pm

      ~~~Hello, Lady,
      A slight glimmer thru darkness
      arrives unexpectedly every once in a while. xxxxx

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    Kelly
    May 23, 2011 at 7:06 pm

    My BEAUTIFUL AMAZING FRIEND!!! You are EVERYTHING!!! I am SO HappY that you are the same Kim that I read DAILY!!!!! I Love Love Love YOU! I am so HAPPY to call you my friend!!! Kay is so BLESSED to have you as her sister! You have made me a better person (still a work in progress…) given me the ability to put PaiN in perspective. When I think my world is getting the best of me I think of your BEAUTIFUL face and understand HOPE is ALWAYS there! I hope I can become HALF the woman you are!!! I hope you truley (sp?) understand what a special person you are!!!! Thank you for being you… for being real… for being there!!!!

    I met some AMAZING people on Sunday ! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!!

    LoVe lOvE LOVE!!!!

    • Reply
      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      May 23, 2011 at 7:53 pm

      Gorgeous, Kelly,
      Sooooooooo happy to have finally met you.
      Your support means A lot! 🙂 xxx Love Love Love.

  • Reply
    Alina
    May 23, 2011 at 7:16 pm

    I am so happy you seen that glimmer of light that because you know what, I seen it:) I am honored to have been there that day with all of you. I already miss you all!!

    • Reply
      Alina
      May 23, 2011 at 7:17 pm

      That day **

    • Reply
      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      May 23, 2011 at 7:54 pm

      You R An Angel, Alina xxxxx
      So happy that you were there.

  • Reply
    Brenda
    May 23, 2011 at 7:59 pm

    LOVE, LOVE, LOVE, this post, and my heart is dancing because yours is beating. Kim – I know you know this, but you are a wonderful sister and you are not alone. Keep fighting woman, you have a story and the voice of yours, original and full of passion. Big blog hugs.

    • Reply
      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      May 23, 2011 at 8:03 pm

      Dear, Superb Writer Brenda,
      Hugs back to you.
      Still trying to find my way back into the light.
      One. Day. At. A. Time.
      XX love love love

  • Reply
    Lady Fi
    May 23, 2011 at 8:49 pm

    I’m wiping away a tear at that tiny glitter of sweetness you felt – and at all the love I see via these photos.

  • Reply
    Theresa Sonoda
    May 23, 2011 at 10:22 pm

    Hi Kim;
    Oh I’m so glad everything went well. The pictures are fabulous! Your son is gorgeous…..but not surprised, so is his Mom. Just a wonderful day for you and the memory of your sister.
    I adore you.
    Hugs, friend.
    Terri

    • Reply
      kim sisto robinson
      May 24, 2011 at 5:28 am

      Dear, Terri,
      I love your words.
      They comfort me in my darkness & light.
      Love to you from Minnesota xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

  • Reply
    Mandy - The Complete Cook Book
    May 23, 2011 at 10:39 pm

    Kim, how beautiful that you felt a glimmer of light on Sunday. Albeit that I am an entire ocean away I thought of you and your family all of Sunday.
    🙂 Mandy

    • Reply
      kim sisto robinson
      May 24, 2011 at 5:29 am

      Ooooh, Mandy,
      The oceans touch wihen I read your lovely comments.
      Love love love. xxx

  • Reply
    Lorraine @ Not Quite Nigella
    May 24, 2011 at 2:15 am

    What a wonderful event Kim and Kay certainly touched so many hearts. I’m so glad that you had that moment too! 🙂

  • Reply
    Irene
    May 24, 2011 at 5:58 am

    That’s so nice of the people that actually flew in for this walk! And it was a success!! I’m SO glad you felt a sense of relief, spiritual or not, through all this. Not necessarily closure, but a burden that has been lifted somewhat off your shoulders!

    This will be a yearly event, right?

    Great post! A happy post! High five girlie!

    • Reply
      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      May 24, 2011 at 6:06 am

      ~~Dear, Irene,
      I’m glad you said “Not necessarily closure.”
      There will never be closure…only transformations of learning
      how to live without Kay in our lives.
      The walk & bell ringing was like a prayer. I need LOTS of prayer.
      Love to you, Irene. xxxx

  • Reply
    Karen
    May 24, 2011 at 6:51 am

    Dear Kim, I loved being able to see you at the race supported by your family and friends. I hate the violence and pain of your/your sister’s story, but I’m warmed and inspired by the love and strength which comes through in your telling (and living) of it. Through your words you are creating communities near and far and I don’t think you can ask more of yourself than to keep using this gift. Thank you for touching my life, for reminding me to cherish and protect my sister and my sisterhoods.

    • Reply
      kim sisto robinson
      May 24, 2011 at 10:51 am

      ~~Dear, Karen,
      What a blessing seeing your beautiful face at the walk.
      It was like seeing an angel. Seriously.
      It was like meeting one of my all-time-favorite writers!
      And I loved meeting your aunt, too.
      Hugs. Love. Kisses.
      ~~Kim

  • Reply
    Jackiy
    May 24, 2011 at 6:56 am

    I’m so glad I got to be part in such a great day! There will be more glimmers of light to come for you, & hopefully more often. You did a fantastic job reading the poem, ringing the bell, and spreading your love and kisses. I look up to you for your strength and the way compassion oozes out of you. I love you and your family! Xoxoxox

    • Reply
      kim sisto robinson
      May 24, 2011 at 10:52 am

      ~Jackiy,
      you have been an unexpected blessing in my life.
      Thank you.
      love love love. xxxx

  • Reply
    terry ross
    May 24, 2011 at 7:00 am

    I love your coo-coo craziness and am happy the sunrays are shining through the clouds for you even if fleetingly. That is hope.
    Just remember that Angels are everywhere.
    love Terry

    • Reply
      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      May 24, 2011 at 10:59 am

      ~~Dear, Terry,
      I’m trying to remember about the Angels & God…
      how He has a plan for our lives…
      but oh, my, sometimes it hurts so deeply that one feels complete darkness…
      but not Sunday. Sunday was like sunlight.
      Luv to you, Sweet Terry.
      xx

  • Reply
    Mercy
    May 24, 2011 at 7:36 am

    how beautiful. Love u.

    • Reply
      kim sisto robinson
      May 24, 2011 at 10:54 am

      ~~Wish you could have been there, Mercy…
      but I felt your love from Kisumu to Minnesota! xxxx
      I almost love you more than chocolate chip cookies. HA HA. xx

  • Reply
    Dad
    May 24, 2011 at 3:23 pm

    What a success, I saw so many people that I haven’t seen for years, and so many dear people
    that I met. Your blogs, your writting, thats why it was such a success. so many people love you
    that never knew you before.
    I love you more
    Dad

    • Reply
      kim sisto robinson
      May 24, 2011 at 3:31 pm

      Daddy.
      I love you more more more.
      You are light in the midst of shadows.
      You are my Hero. XXXXXXXXXXX

  • Reply
    Trish
    May 24, 2011 at 3:25 pm

    Kim I wouldn’t be surprised if all of Virginia and California walked to Duluth to be in your presence. YOU are an inspiration.

    • Reply
      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      May 24, 2011 at 4:03 pm

      oh, dear Trish,
      And I wonder Why I love you!!?? XXXXXX
      See you soon in Minneapolis.

  • Reply
    Michael Rangeloff
    May 24, 2011 at 3:39 pm

    Dear Kim,
    Thank you for all of your writings.
    I think most or all who read you know without doubt that you are NOT coo coo crazy.
    I am grateful that you were able to see a moment of light. If only a moment.
    There was a time in my life that I thought I was going crazy and that the pain of my life might just be too much.
    In some ways it seems that if one has the courage or the pain to go deep enough it never really goes away. For me today life is truly a wonderful life. But it doesn’t take much to revisit the pain of death. Ones own or of another. Thanks so much for having the courage and the pain to share who you are (who we all are) with all who will listen. Much Love and Peace,
    Michael Rangeloff

    • Reply
      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      May 24, 2011 at 4:07 pm

      ~~~~~~~~~Dear, Mike,
      Your words have power and insight.
      “the pain to share who you are (who we all are)”
      I do hope that this is precisely what I am doing with the written word.
      You hit it with ONE sentence.
      Thank you for your beautiful comment.
      xxxXX
      PS. But I really think I’m Craaaazy 🙂

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    Adriana Iris
    May 24, 2011 at 7:27 pm

    I got Goosebumps when I saw how loved you are as well as you are sister… No doubt the good and the light that you are shining towards the victim of abuse is bright enough for many to see… You are changing the world. I am so glad to cross paths with you I am honoured to read you and share with you. A thousand blessings to you and yours.

    • Reply
      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      May 24, 2011 at 8:20 pm

      ~~~Dearest, Adriana,
      I feel your blessings in Duluth, Minnesota.
      And I send them back to you, as well 🙂 xxxXX

  • Reply
    Tia
    May 25, 2011 at 7:27 am

    Love You!!!!!

  • Reply
    Charlene
    June 4, 2011 at 9:51 pm

    So glad you felt it. Look at all you’ve done. Look and see how many people have heard your beautiful voice. You are changing the world and helping others Kim. Love you…

  • Reply
    kim sisto robinson
    June 4, 2011 at 11:05 pm

    Love U, too.
    i don’t know what i’ve done, Charlene, but thanks for saying i’m doing something.
    it’s hard to know one’s entire mind when one is walking between dark & light.
    xxx Kisses

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