In Memory of Kay

The King’s Speech, Nigella, & Lemon Bars


DAY ONE: It’s been exactly 11 months since Kay’s murder.

11 months since we’ve talked, laughed, & bitched about our weight.

11 months since we’ve prayed together about our boys, our goals, our dreams, and the state of this dysfunctional world.

11 months since we’ve sat at Barnes & Noble reading the first chapter of the books we took off the shelves while sharing something indulgent & oooh-so-fattening.

11 months since I’ve been happy.

DAY TWO: Watched the “Kings Speech.”

Colin Firth portrays King George VI

The Kings Speech Trailer 2010 HD


Two strait hours of still waters,  pure pleasures, & green pastures.

Did you know that Edward  (oops)  George  the V1 was the Queen’s father & William’s great grand father?

This film is so bloody brilliant that it deserves the academy award in 2012, as well.

DAY THREE: Mourning never ends.

This is what I believe.    This is what is true.

One learns to live  between the pain, the darkness, the abyss…

Somehow.      Somehow.

I’m still not sure why I’m here…

…Existing between shadow & Light.

DAY FOUR: I’m OBSESSED with blogs, blogging, & everything blog- worthy.

I scan about 20 womens’ sites per day.

I read.    I get ideas.   I think…..

“Oh, I wish I would have thought of that, or this woman is deliciously insightful.”

But I have my “All Time Favorite” blog…my bit of still waters ….the blog that my blog wants to be when it grows up.

Okay, I’m a stalker, but  I’m madly in love with Not Quite Nigella, (Food Blogger)

Not Quite Nigella Lorraine of Not quite nigella made gorgeous Ispahan cupcakes. Not quite Nigella, quite Pierre!

DAY FIVE: I have a few friends who crack me up.

I mean, tickle my funny bone hardcore to the maximus.

I already told you about (Kim) who sticks black spiders up her nose.

Anything to make me laugh, you see.

But the one who takes the prize in laughableness & craziness is T.

We did a store front window downtown for Kay’s walk / run,   and evidentially…. I brought the wrong lights:    Blue instead of White.

“My Vision!”  T. blurted.     “My vision is ruined!”


“What about my fucking vision?”  She said again.

I started laughing so hard, I believe I peed my jeans.

Then we were both laughing.

But the laughter never lasts.

DAY SIX: Baked Lemon Crumble Bars with Saint Shirley for Easter dessert.

This is our time together.

This is our  magic.

….cracking eggs, measuring  sweet  butter, beating condensed milk, lemon juice, & pure vanilla in stainless steel bowls.

This is another kind of love.

DAY SEVEN:         Easter.

Resurrection.    Rebirth.    Rejuvenation.

The first time our family met at a restaurant.

14 people sitting together all talking at the same time, ordering, drinking wine….

Always        Always.        Always.

Somebody missing.

~My sister & soul-mate was murdered on May 26, 2010 by Mike Peterson….The world weighs so much less….

~~~More about Kay Here:  In Memory of Kay

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  • Reply
    Lorraine @ Not Quite Nigella
    April 27, 2011 at 6:01 am

    Thankyou so much for your kind words Kim! Your comments are just so delightful I adore getting them every day 🙂 And The King’s Speech is a great film I agree. So very fitting for what’s going to be happening in a couple of days!

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      kim sisto robinson
      April 27, 2011 at 1:51 pm

      You R welcome.
      I am hooked on your adventures & characters & photos & fooooooooooooooooood.
      The King’s Speech is the best film i’ve watched for a long time, xxxx

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    April 27, 2011 at 6:41 am

    the # 26 now means something to me – the date Kay left you and your loved ones.
    I love your words. they speak of the deep sadness you feel and then your passion for life comes out a little when you talked about the King’s Speech and you know why that movie is so important to me. love ya. elizabeth

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      kim sisto robinson
      April 27, 2011 at 1:52 pm

      And I looooooooooooooooove U! xxxx
      Oh, the King’s Speech Moved me soooooooooooooooooooooo much.

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    Mercy Orengo
    April 27, 2011 at 7:40 am

    I love you. always. daily.

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      kim sisto robinson
      April 27, 2011 at 1:52 pm

      ~~Daily. That is soooooooo nice.
      And I feel the same about you, African Queen. xx

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    Barbara @ Barbara Bakes
    April 27, 2011 at 6:40 pm

    I love Lorraine, love the King’s Speech and lost my Mom last year and grieve every day too. I can’t imagine the pain of losing your sister in such a brutal way. God Bless.

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      Kim Sisto-Robinson
      April 27, 2011 at 7:24 pm

      “The King’s Speech” was such a distraction in the midst of my mourning.
      I am so sorry to hear about your mother…
      I am sure you will carry that void with you forever…as I will with my sister.
      xxxx K.
      Ps. I loooove Lorraine!

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    April 27, 2011 at 8:15 pm

    I can’t wait to see the movie and you when I get back from Arizona LOVE YOU!!!!!

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      kim sisto robinson
      April 28, 2011 at 5:38 am

      See you soon. The movie is fabulous. A must see.
      luv U. xxxxxxxxxxx

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    April 28, 2011 at 4:39 am

    I wanted to see the King’s Speech, but no one else did, so I have to wait for it to come out on DVD. I love the Brits! They’re history is very intriguing!

    Just keep taking it one day at a time. You will some how come to peace with yourself with this whole ordeal. I’m not going to say time will heal, but the pain won’t be so strong.

    Taste of Home has THE best recipes! I have like 15 of their recipe books!

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    kim sisto robinson
    April 28, 2011 at 5:40 am

    I swear, that cook book has over 600 recipes. It’s the BEST cookbook that I have every had!
    i loooooooooooooooooooooooe it.
    And have baked several sweets for the sweets.
    it is my therapy. my distraction.
    You must watch THE KINGS SPEECH and give me your review.
    xxxx K.

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    Blond Duck
    April 28, 2011 at 11:22 am

    I’m so sorry for your loss. 🙁

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      kim sisto robinson
      April 28, 2011 at 1:48 pm

      Oh,me too, Blonde Duck,
      more sorry than anybody will ever knew.
      Thanks for reading xx

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    April 28, 2011 at 1:30 pm

    Kim—————- I haven’t seen The King’s Speech yet, but if Dave will watch it with me I will watch it. Maybe
    between soccer, hockey, or baseball games. We had a great time on Easter. (THE LORD HAS RISEN)
    Love You More Than Brit Weddings

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      kim sisto robinson
      April 28, 2011 at 1:49 pm

      Oh, that’s a lot of love, Daddy,

      ANd I need LOTS LOTS of love…
      to make it thru the day.

      love you more than, um, Prince William.

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    May 9, 2011 at 10:21 am

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    May 22, 2011 at 1:11 am

    Risk! Risk anything! Care no more for the opinions of others, for those voices. Do the hardest thing on earth for you. Act for yourself. Face the truth.

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    November 6, 2012 at 12:31 am

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